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The following is an excerpt from Simon's lyric journal. Viewer discretion is advised.
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Every Hole’s A Goal (that is a terrible joke and you should be ashamed)
Chasing The Unknown
The grass is always greener on the other side
Tries to keep you away with that pesticide (what the fuck am i a farmer-) (interesting rhyme though) (pesticide, less to hide, something mine...)
'Til you realize the folks there have got more to hide (FOLKS?? i'm going country, god help us all)
'Til you realize that... something something colorblind (...maybe) (i'm not even colorblind) (is this cultural appropriation)
THE ME AND ADIL SONG:
If you are the Earth
Then I am the sun
'Cause you're always orbiting you orbit endlessly
And all I do is ____
(run? the sun doesn’t move, you idiot)
(IT'S A SONG IT DOESN'T HAVE TO MAKE SENSE)
(why am i arguing with myself)
THE LOBOTOMY SONG:
Conversations with myself
Goddamn, both of us need help
I'm going slowly insane
Can I live with half a brain
(note: check if the sun moves)
(the earth is definitely the one that rotates, right?)
(shit dude i was in honors earth and space science how do i not remember this–)
(gailleo would be so ashamed)
(note: check spelling of galilleo) (galleleo?)
(GALILEO) (FUCK)
THE GALILEO SONG:
If everyone believes something
Does that make it true?
But everyone is no one
Compared to me and you
(“everyone is no one?” the fuck is this) ("if everyone believes something" blah blah blah- if a tree falls in a forest, is simon a shitty songwriter?)
THE ACTUALLY WORKING ON THE THING I'M SUPPOSED TO WORK ON SONG:
I dig and dig until my legs give in
Always chasing the next big sin
Dig and dig until my legs give out
something something it will amount? (but to nothing it will amount? maybe?)
endless ___ and endless drought
Chasing the gold rush in your eyes (cliché)
Bitterly choking back my demise Racing the clock just to check the time
Following you through the depths of night
Only to find out... something something light??
(following a light that goes out the minute you touch it. like the great gatsby. the green light represented the american dream or something, right?)
(FUCK AMERICA)
(or wait- was it god watching and refusing to intervene??) (it's been too long since english class)
(i only read the sparknotes summary anyway)
If god God a god my god is watching, out of spite
I'll kick dirt over his His her their Their green light
(capitalization. yes? no?) (do i want to be disrespectful) (who am i kidding i'm always disrespectful)
(is the narrator of this song pious)
(uncaring god: He/Him)
The light burns my eyes
Emerald sunshine
The light burns your eyes
Reflected in mine
(green eyes = jealousy?)
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
(imagine if i went on genius) (imagine fans searching for meaning in these lyrics, like “oo there’s 31 a’s in here, and there were 31 deaths at the fucking… insert mass shooting here)
(did i seriously count the number of a’s just to make that joke) (that no one will ever read) (i suck)
(note: find out if calypso can metal scream.)
word cloud - sin, green, sun, earth, light, night, bright, uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh
word cloud - fuck, i hate this, why do i do this, i hate myself i am worthy of love and respect, ARE YOU HAPPY IMAGINARY THERAPIST WHO SOUNDS SUSPICIOUSLY LIKE CALYPSO
sisyphus
journey not the destination - journey is all i've known
don't stop believing (that's already a song you idiot) (a journey song, no less) (journey makes no goddamn sense, why is there a midnight train that goes anywhere, is the train some kind of liminal space)
THE WHO FUCKING CARES SONG:
Liminal space, liminal space
Get out of my liminal face
(is it 3AM or am i on to something here)
digging own grave??
(you have to actually incorporate the title of the song in there you know) (what rhymes with unknown) (home, alone, moan, groan, stone)
(is this even abt the hole guys anymore)
(is this anything)
An excerpt from Simon's lyric journal, after a few more pages of incoherent babbling:
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DRAFT 1 (CHASING THE UNKNOWN):
VERSE:
You were the earth that I tossed aside
And I was the sun you were trying to hide
I burn down your walls to watch what you've become
Standing my ground ‘til the ground starts to run
'Cause I am slowly, sloping, lower
Stopping to rest in Sisyphus' boulder
This journey's my home, destination to blame
This hole is my home and this hole is my grave
PRE-CHORUS:
I dig and dig until my legs give in
Always chasing the next big sin
You dig and dig until your legs give out
Drowning in sweat just to survive the drought
CHORUS:
And you’re always in motion
My gaze burns your eyes
An emerald sunrise
And I’m always imploding
Waiting for my demise
But each night in my dreams
I'm chasing that green light
And each time that I fall, it
Blinks a little more bright
VERSE:
The sun was pretty set in its ways
Until the tide rose high to sweep it away
The Earth has never worked alone
To spin me out of my comfort zone
The moon is calm and cold like ice
Monochrome in her pearly eyes
So if God is watching, out of spite
I’ll kick dirt over His green light
PRE-CHORUS:
You dig and dig until your legs give in
Always chasing the next big sin
I dig and dig until my legs give out
Drowning in blood just to survive the drought
CHORUS:
And you’re always imploding
Your gaze burns my eyes
Reflected in mine
And I’m always in motion
Running from the tide
But each day when I wake
I'm chasing that green light
And each time that I reach, it
Blinks a little less bright
BRIDGE:
So why am I running
Why does the ground shift
Why am I humming
A tune to the abyss
Why am I dying
As green light fades into my bones
Why does the sky shift
Sun and moon to earth and stone
And why'd I decide to go chasing the unknown
CHORUS:
And we're always eroding
The green fades to gray
The night into-
The world ends in slow-motion
Oceans into lakes
And I'll never wake, but
I'm chasing that green light
And those down below, will
Know I put up a fight
BRIDGE:
Yes I'd die for my sins
But I am not alone
My eyes fluttering
Shut, 'til I softly implode
Yes we died for our sins
Together in our homes
The destination
Was right under my nose
And the darkness can read it
Carved on my headstone
"Yes he died for the sin, of chasing the unknown"
(aaaand in the cold light of day, the verdict iiiiiiiiiis... *drumroll*)
(i hate this. burn it BURN IT)
(okay constructive criticism: the bridge is clunky. the words 'light' and 'bright' are overused. it sucks.)
(that last one wasn't very constructive, huh)
(like imagine me showing this to the band) (they'd ask what it meant and shit) (i can't deal with that)
(i should just tear it out and forget it ever existed.)
An excerpt from Simon's lyric journal.
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(maybe i'll show it to calypso. just to see. y'know.)
(if it's anything.)
(probably not.)
(...maybe.)