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It hurt. Everything hurt. It felt like an eternity of burning, blinding, pain. A hopeless way to spend death in a limbo made to fit you. A Tartarus designed to keep you in pain, a hell constantly changing. There is no getting used to it. A living, breathing, hell made for one person. “Do you regret it?” What kind of question is that. Of course not. I did what I had to do, pain or not I would do it again and again and again. I deserved that life. I deserved the family, the love, the happiness. It wasn’t fair they got it and I didn’t. It was supposed to be us, our little family, together. I’m supposed to be the strong one, the eldest of us. Why did she take that from me. “You betrayed us, you hurt her.” I did what? I didn’t betray anyone. I helped everyone- I saved them from that fucking woman. I shouldn’t even be here. If it wasn’t for me that bitch and her kid would have corrupted my family more than they already had. “You’re obsessed” of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be? I have every right to obsess over them, Over you. This is my family and I will not let someone take it away from me. I worked hard to keep you safe, to keep her safe. This place, this hell, shouldn’t exist. I shouldn’t be here. If I can not be with you then I should simply be dead. I don’t deserve this punishment.
“You’ll live a long time, Echthros” she’s here, it’s not just a voice again. Why is she here? She put me here, she left me, so why is she back. “An eternity without me” what- what is she saying. That’s impossible, I’m a part of her just like she’s apart of me. She can’t leave, she can’t leave me here. What about Ereos- she can’t expect her to leave me too. “You will look to the storms you see pass by hoping for something, that for an instant, will bring us back to you” no. Go back to the pain, the burning, I’d rather feel the pain than, this. They can’t leave. She’s right there. Her and Ereos. Why can’t I reach them, I need to touch them, to show them it’s not true. I did what I had to do, there was a purpose for everything. “You will find the hell lit nights empty and cold, for you deserve no warmth.”
I don’t want it to be empty , I want you. Ereos why are you saying these things. You don’t mean them, you would never mean it. We’re family why would you want to leave me. Stop talking this nonsense and just come closer. “when you call out to us, there will be no answer.” Why don’t they get it. They don’t need anyone else but me. Those wives of hers are influencing her thoughts. Dichonoia, no Brutus, would never leave me. Ereos would never leave me. What happened to them. Why do they have to think these things. I’ve done nothing but keep them safe from people who want to harm them.
“Always your heart will be aching for the thought of me” Ereos? Why do you curse me? Why do you play along with these hurtful games and make me the target of your anger. Why are you helping a monster? Why do you make me the bearer of your pain. “And your mind will give you the doubtful constellation.” Brutus stop this. This is wrong and you know it. I’ve done nothing but love and protect you. Why. Why would you do this, who’s making you hurt me? “That you did a ‘brave’ thing” Why do you sound like that. Why do you sound so cruel? I was brave. I saved you. I saved her. I saved us. You ruined it. You made this damn hell and put me here. We were supposed to be together. This was supposed to be all for us. Don’t leave me! please. You’re hurting me. She hurt you, she corrupted you. You were ready to just leave me for her, I had to do something. Where’s my happy ending? All I did was for us. For you. I wanted us to all be happy, together, why can’t you see that? You’re leaving me again. It had to happen why don’t you understand that! Come back! You can’t do this to me, I need you. Both of you. Ereos, Brutus. Come back, please.
What did I do?