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kaoru wrapped his coat tighter around himself as he stood in the overcrowded train, avoiding as much physical contact with other passengers as best as he could. he felt like he was running a fever, blinking through a sweaty haze as he tried to stay focused. the best way to avoid touching strangers was leaning further into his boyfriend, rei, who was way too amused watching kaoru struggle.
it wasn’t like being on a crowded train was the problem here – after all, even as famous idols they were used to taking public transportation every once in a while, especially if they were trying to go on an inconspicuous date, their features covered as to not raise any unwanted attention and to blend in with the rest of society.
at the thought of being recognized in his current miserable state, desperately clutching the back of rei’s shirt beneath his boyfriend’s own coat, kaoru readjusted the beanie he was hiding most of his hair beneath and pulled his scarf closer around his face. he snuck a glance at rei, who was intently watching his every move with a mischievous glint in his eyes, ruby red hidden behind unassuming brown contact lenses. in this particular moment, kaoru wondered why he had to end up falling for such an asshole.
no, the crowded train wasn’t the issue. the issue was the brilliant idea rei proposed before their dinner date. an idea that, frankly, kaoru should’ve known would cause him much dismay later on. and yet, through the immediate enticement and brain fog the mere thought of this created, he agreed.
which is how he had found himself with a small vibrator softly massaging his insides for the majority of the past three hours. initially, the stimulation wasn’t too bad, and he had even grown quite comfortable during their train ride to the fancy restaurant. rei even was merciful enough to turn it off while they were eating, making kaoru almost forget about in until he had swallowed his last bite.
it took every bit of kaoru’s composure to stop himself from yelling out when rei turned the vibrator back on, the setting much higher than earlier. to make it worse, the small toy had relocated itself when kaoru sat down, perfectly angling at his prostate. he somehow managed to make it out of the restaurant holding onto rei’s arm, as the other mercilessly dragged him to the nearest train station.
the train filled until kaoru was pressed up against rei, who was leaning comfortably against the window. as kaoru was shoved into his personal space, rei ‘innocently’ angled his leg to subtly fit between kaoru’s thighs. it took all the composure his fuzzed mind had left not to start rutting against his boyfriend’s leg in desperation. fuck having to protect one’s public image.
instead, he groaned in frustration as he slumped his head onto rei’s shoulder. he felt his boyfriend shift as he put one hand on kaoru’s head, softly massaging, and the other wrapped around his waist. he could see in the window’s reflection that rei had pulled out his phone and dug his fingernails into rei’s back as he saw the other open the app that was used to control the cause of his suffering.
he spoke slowly and quietly into rei’s shoulder, “rei, i fucking dare you”.
rei only chuckled as he pressed a kiss to kaoru’s temple. “well, since you’re asking so nicely, i think i will reward you for it, darling.”
with that, kaoru saw a glance of rei confirming the changed settings for the vibrator. immediately, the pacing of the vibrations changed, starting with heavy, almost bone-rattling vibrations that slowly mellowed out until the toy stopped moving entirely. kaoru breathed out a sigh of relief at this moment of peace. if anything, he expected for the torturous pattern to pick up again after a small break, but it was still for a suspiciously long time.
just as kaoru lifted himself to find rei’s eyes in his confusion, the toy came back to life at that heavy intensity, only for it to calm down and repeat the uncomfortably long break in stimulation. kaoru gasped as he stumbled forward into rei’s embrace again, clinging to his jacket and swallowing any noises he desperately wanted to let out.
“i hate you, i hate you, i fucking hate you!” kaoru stage-whispered, effect of his words being lost to the way his hands were tangled into the front of his boyfriend’s coat, tears stinging his eyes as he pressed his face into the other’s shoulder.
“i know, darling, i know. only ten more minutes, i’m sure you’re looking forward to what awaits you at the end of those, hm?” rei had returned his phone to his coat pocket and now wrapped both of his arms loosely around kaoru’s waist, rubbing small circles into the small of his back. “you’re doing so well, though. i’m really impressed by you. this last stretch is not going to be too hard on you, right?”
and, oh. isn’t that exactly what kaoru needed to hear in order not to cause a public scandal right here and now? of course he was doing well, of course he would hold on just a bit longer, until they were back at their apartment and rei made sure to reward him for his efforts. yeah, he could do that.
he took a deep breath, straightening his posture and keeping his hands on rei’s coat for support. he found rei’s eyes again, which were already trained on him with a look that to a stranger would read as passive boredom, but kaoru could see the intensity in his gaze, a ruby-red fire so carefully concealed. kaoru had spent years learning to find it and had become a master at it. rei wanted and he was growing just as impatient as kaoru. it was the latter’s turn to smirk knowingly at his boyfriend.
kaoru endured through the last thrusts of the vibrator, his hands twisting in rei’s clothes, eyes wandering around the train and the outside scenery for any brief distraction. it wasn’t easy, but eventually they reached their stop and the bustle of the emerging passengers proofed distracting enough until they had come to the staircase exiting the train station. he swore silently under his breath, hissing, as climbing the stairs unlocked a new kind of sensation in his lower back.
reaching the top, kaoru quickly stepped to the side, heaving with the waves of pleasure that were starting to overwhelm him once again. he blindly fumbled for rei, who caught hold of his hand, squeezing it firmly for a moment.
“kaoru, is everything okay? tell me if you want me to stop.” rei gently cradled kaoru’s cheek in his other hand, searching his eyes for signs of discomfort.
kaoru managed to find his voice while trying to steady his breathing, “i’m alright, it’s fine, i just... need a moment to collect myself. he pressed the palm of his hand against his forehead as he focused on regaining his composure as he felt the rhythm of the vibrator still stimulating his insides change to something calmer, less strenuous.
he took another deep breath and intertwined his fingers with rei’s, signalling to him that he was good to continue. they were only a short walk away from their shared flat, for which kaoru’s mind went back into a hazy state of gentle pleasure, as the vibrations felt far less intense now. the steady comfort didn’t help his thoughts tracing back to the part of the night that he had been anticipating for hours now, and he felt all of his pent-up frustration wash over him as rei closed their apartment door behind them.
before rei even found the time to take off his outerwear, kaoru already ripped the facemask from his boyfriend’s face and pressed the latter against the wall by the door, enveloping him in a desperate and hungry kiss. rei responded, meeting kaoru’s eagerness and deepening the kiss, though he kept his hands firmly on his boyfriend’s waist, stopping him from getting the closeness and friction he craved.
as they both ran out of breath, rei separated the kiss, cradling chin in his hand, pressing the pad of his thumb into the other’s lower lip. “be patient just a little bit longer, darling. go to the bedroom, i’ll be with you in just a moment, i promise.”
with another quick kiss to the other’s lips, rei pushed past kaoru to make his way toward the bathroom. kaoru let out another noise of frustration as he took off his coat, beanie, and scarf, and stored them away in their hallway closet. he wearily moved toward the bedroom and let himself fall onto the bed, face first.
as soon as he hit the mattress, he could feel the intrusive toy start to pick up its pace, nearing the same intensity from earlier. kaoru wanted to shout profanities in the direction of the bathroom, but quickly lost his determination as the waves of pleasure threatened to drown him. the vibrator was angled in a way in which it provided a constant pressure to kaoru’s prostate, the stimulation becoming near unbearable.
unconsciously, he started rutting himself against their bedsheets. he knew rei probably wanted him to wait patiently, but any thought of self-control was lost to the daze leaving his mind numb and the rest of his body tingling as the finally-added pressure on his dick made him see stars. at least now he had no need to suppress his moans, letting the sound travel through their apartment, hoping it would inspire rei to hurry the fuck up.
it wasn’t much longer until rei joined him in the bedroom, though kaoru would not have noticed if rei hadn’t sat down on his hips, restricting his movement and trapping him in a near-bliss state that wasn’t quite enough. he felt rei bend down over him and a shudder made its way down his back as he felt rei’s breath near his ear.
“my, my, kaoru... are you so desperate to get off that you couldn’t even wait for your dear lover? now, what am i to do with you?” rei said, mouth trailing down from kaoru’s ear towards his neck and jaw, close but never touching his skin.
“please... rei... i can’t do this much longer. please just let me come.” kaoru kept pleading in-between gasps. he had been so close to finally, finally, getting his release after hours and now rei was holding him back. kaoru felt like screaming. the frustrated tears running down his face were burning his skin.
it felt like ages until rei seemed to react. kaoru felt his boyfriend readjust his position on top of him, angling himself in a way that had his hips pressing down into kaoru’s ass, not only pressing his hard and throbbing member deeper into the mattress, but also seemingly deepen the vibrator’s position. as rei bent over kaoru’s body again, he slid a hand down kaoru’s front, palming his erection, not moving.
it wasn’t enough. it still wasn’t enough, and rei knew that. kaoru watched from the periphery of his eyes how rei’s other hand found his phone that was resting near the headboard of their bed. he could only assume that he was to feel whatever rei was doing very soon.
rei leaned over his ear again, this time placing a gentle kiss on his earlobe before speaking, “i’ll allow this slip-up today. you’ve been very good all evening, after all. you are allowed to come.”
as he finished speaking, the vibrator started buzzing at its highest setting, consistently, non-relenting. kaoru bucked his hips to try and escape the overwhelming sensation, only to have his erection press against rei’s hand. he moaned loudly as he instinctively started rutting against his boyfriend’s hand, the friction finally being just right, pleasure coiling up inside of him like white-hot heat when his hips backed up into rei’s and he could feel the latter’s growing erection pressed up against him.
he knew he looked filthy and desperate, but kaoru couldn’t bother to care as his release was finally within reach. his moans and gasps filled their bedroom as he moved against the intoxicatingly unrelenting force of rei’s body enveloping him. panting his boyfriend’s name, kaoru screamed as his climax washed over him. his vision blurred as his body shuddered from the intensity of his orgasm and he slumped bonelessly on the mattress.
rei didn’t move. nor did he turn off the vibrator. kaoru felt that ruby-red gaze searing into his back, and he knew he would see rei’s carefully concealed desire burning openly in his eyes if he were to turn around and look. but he couldn’t. his body was still shaking as rei made no move to release him from this onslaught of post-coital overstimulation. instead, rei watched him hungrily as kaoru cried out, thrashing in his need to escape the pleasure that was quickly turning into pain.
only when kaoru gripped the wrist of the hand that was resting near his head, fingernails digging deep into rei’s skin, begging, pleading, for him to turn off the vibrator, did he relent. rei carefully lifted himself up, hand gently running down kaoru’s back. he pressed a kiss to kaoru’s shoulder as he watched the other regain his breath.
“i’m sorry, that was too much. i... got lost in the way you looked... and sounded.” rei said as kaoru felt a gentle tug at his shoulder, asking him to turn around.
now on his back, kaoru brought a hand up to his face to wipe away the tears that had escaped him. instead of replying, he just gave rei a reassuring smile and pulled the other into a kiss. their lips moved against each other lazily, the fervour from earlier forgotten. when they parted, kaoru found worry still written in rei’s eyes.
stroking the other’s cheek with his thumb, kaoru waited until rei’s gaze locked in on his, “it’s alright, i would’ve let you know if i thought i couldn’t handle it, i promise. actually, it felt really good, just maybe a bit too much after hours of stimulation, but... nothing i’d be completely against in the future.” after a bit of consideration, he added, “i mean... it’s not the first time either of us doesn’t let the other catch a break, is it?”
he chuckled lightly at that, making rei snort in defeat. the latter leaned down for another kiss, less hesitant and gentle than the first one. kaoru brought up one of his knees from where he was resting between rei’s legs, boldly rubbing against rei’s hard dick. “speaking of...” kaoru smiled slyly.
“do you think you have a second round in you?” rei spoke against his jaw, trailing small kisses along the skin. his hands started roaming beneath kaoru’s shirt, leaving a prickling sensation in their wake as rei’s hands were always a bit too cold, even now.
kaoru responded silently by stretching his arms over his head, his shirt riding up and revealing part of his stomach, asking for rei to take it off him. rei complied easily, and kaoru made sure his boyfriend took his own shirt off as well. as soon as the fabric was out of the way, rei went to work on kaoru’s neck.
rei started by peppering gentle kisses all over kaoru’s neck and collarbone, after a while occasionally sucking the sensitive skin, leaving marks. kaoru knew rei was working toward his usual antics when he felt the light scrape of sharp pointed teeth against the juncture of his neck. a tell-tale sign and silent question that kaoru had come to know over the years, an unvoiced, ‘can i bite you?’.
kaoru gave a light squeeze to rei’s upper arm as he sighed in anticipation. as soon as rei got the confirmation he knew so well, he sank his teeth deep into kaoru’s flesh, sucking at the blood that immediately started welling up. pleasure sent shivers down kaoru’s spine and he knew the bite would leave a mark no makeup artist would be happy about, but with the recent cold weather, maybe he could manage to hide it this time.
he let the other move further down his body, leaving more kisses and marks on his chest, tongue toying with one of his nipples while he teased the other between his fingers. kaoru roamed his hands along his boyfriend’s back, fingernails occasionally scratching the sensitive skin. he moved his hands around rei’s waist to unbuckle his belt.
he watched as rei slipped out of his pants and made quick work to take off kaoru’s pants as well. kaoru quickly discarded his already-soiled underwear alongside their pants before rei pushed him back down into the mattress, initiating another set of kisses occasionally interrupted by their unfortunate need to breathe.
rei’s hands languidly made their way across kaoru’s chest and down his sides, his fingers dipping into his hips and resting there a moment. kaoru wrapped his arms around rei’s neck, lightly biting the other’s bottom lip as he felt a tugging sensation from inside of him. he gasped as he realized he had completely forgotten the vibrator whose cord rei was now carefully pulling. kaoru felt the small toy leave his body and couldn’t help a whine at the emptiness it left behind.
rei was there to soothe him immediately, massaging slow circles into his inner thighs. he watched his boyfriend grab for the bottle of lube he had laid on the bed next to his phone, pouring out a gracious amount as he sat up slightly to reposition himself. kaoru relished in the view it provided him; rei’s eyes roaming over every inch of kaoru’s skin, trailing along the marks – some from tonight, some older – viewing him as if he was an art piece in a gallery and rei was about to part with a major sum of money for him. it made it impossible for kaoru’s heart to stay calm.
rei’s fingers started circling his entrance, and he didn’t hesitate long before inserting the first two fingers, kaoru already having been stretched out before. he was quickly left gasping from rei’s fingers and the intensity of his gaze alone. when rei added a third finger, found and started massaging kaoru’s sweet spot, the latter dug his fingernails into his boyfriend’s shoulder, begging to keep going.
said boyfriend left him with a searing kiss, as he retracted his fingers and blindly fumbled for the condoms and lube bottle. when they parted for breath, kaoru’s arms around rei’s neck keeping the other close, rei awkwardly stripped out of his underwear. kaoru gave the other’s throbbing, leaking erection a couple slow, languid strokes, snatched the condom from his hand, and rolled it onto rei’s hard member.
kaoru spread his legs as he watched his boyfriend’s attention wander down further and further. he poured a generous amount of lube into his hand and went to work on getting rei’s dick prepared, all the while focussing on the reactions and expressions hiding behind rei’s eyes. when he was satisfied, he sat up on his elbows to pull rei into a kiss, pulling the other down with him.
rei aligned himself with kaoru’s entrance, and kaoru felt the disturbance send jolts of lightning through his body. he tried to breathe through the initial pain as rei filled him at a slow and steady pace, seemingly devouring his small noises of pleasure until he was fully inside kaoru.
kaoru had expected a different tone for how tonight would go, but he couldn’t help but appreciate the drawn-out and slow-building pleasure that rei’s slow and deep thrusts provided now. it starkly contrasted the way this all started out when they arrived home, though if anything, it made him all the more excited for the upcoming bliss.
rei kept a steady pace that picked up little by little the closer they got to their release, and soon enough, they found themselves panting into each other’s necks between kisses, whispered appreciations filling the air between them.
as kaoru felt his climax approaching, he wrapped his legs around rei’s waist, pulling him impossibly closer, drowning him in a fervent kiss. he felt rei’s hand wrap around his dick, taking not more than a few strokes until kaoru felt a surge of pleasure roll over him and drag him under, rei’s name on his lips as he came into the other’s hand.
kaoru’s insides clenched around rei’s erection and the latter couldn’t help but pick up the pace. watching his lover’s tear-filled eyes close against the heat of his release, rei’s teeth found kaoru’s neck again, leaving another mark as he followed the other over the edge.
rei carefully pulled out of kaoru, before he slumped on top of him, burying kaoru beneath him. they lay like this, waiting to regain their senses. even before they came out of their haze, their lips found each other again, hands lazily roaming the other’s body.
kaoru wondered for a moment if there was anything either of them should say – about boundaries, misunderstandings –, but one look into rei’s eyes revealed a landscape of open and honest emotions tinted in ruby that told kaoru all he needed to know, and he knew rei found the answer to his own questions in his study of kaoru’s features as well.