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Dear Father,
When I was a child,
I would watch you as I trailed behind,
Doggedly following your steps.
I thought of you as this
Unshakable force,
Solid as a rock.
A hero.
I wanted to be like you.
So I stayed by your side,
Your loyal shadow in the night.
We’d fight,
We’d get bruised,
Run away to live another day,
Good as new.
But I know better now.
No hero is unbreakable,
And I think this life broke me too.
I was wrapped in a blanket of
Violence and darkness,
Gun shells raining from the sky.
I realize I will never be that kid again,
Smiling as I pull on that bright redgreenyellow.
I realize you haven’t been that kid for a while,
Kneeling in an alleyway as you clutch at scattered pearls.
I’ve grown, and I watched as you take in child after child,
Saving them like heroes do.
But does it change anything?
My siblings still go out there,
Getting bruised in those crime-ridden streets.
There would be no us without you,
And I think there is no you without us.
We asked for this, I know that
But should you have let us?
Am I your soldier?
Am I your child?
Do you even know the difference?
I don’t know.
I don’t think you have the answers either.
Still, no matter what,
We fight by your side.
We break and we break,
But we bounce back.
Just like you taught us.
When my siblings and I are waiting in the wings,
Your little birds and bats in a line,
Can you tell the difference between your children?
When you read this,
Will you know which one of us wrote it?
Your son,
Your soldier,
Robin
