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"Good news! Wei Wuxian has died!"
I was running away. My whole body was on fire. My vision was getting blurry but I know that I can't stop. Not now. I need to save him. I need to get to him before the others will. I can't lose him too...not after I lost all of them...too bad my body isn't cooperating with me...but even my body's critical condition couldn't stop the anger and betrayal that I felt. The rage that consumed my whole body. I knew that I was crying too. I could feel the tears streaming down my face. I didn't even bother to stop them. There was no point. The only thought in my mind was how could he? After everything that happened between us...after all the nights we shared together...but I should have known. I should have known that all his sweet words were just poison coated in honey. He just wanted me to lower my guard and I did that. I willingly let him lead me into a trap like the fucking fool that I am!
"The sects have won!"
"That demon won't terrorize us anymore!"
It still hurts. Knowing that everything was a lie. That every touch,every kiss,every promise we had made was meaningless to him. I may have hidden the state of my body from him and I have never told him what happened to me but I never told him a lie...I was always truthful...I gave myself to him. I showed him my home. I let him meet my son. I let him become a father to him...I told him my plans...my dreams...I thought that at least he is on my side. That he would understand me...even when everyone turns against me I would still have him.That was my mistake. My naivety has cost me nearly everything. It cost me my real family that didn't judge me. Because they're gone now.
They're dead. All of them are dead... because of me. They died so I could live. So they would stop their hunt. So my precious radish would grow up surrounded by trees and lakes and not bones and corpses. And all of it...their sacrifice...was for nothing. The lives of my family meant nothing to those bastards. I pressed my hand tighter to my wound and ran faster. As fast as my broken body could get me. Because he is still there... A-Yuan is still at the Burial Mounds waiting for me. I need to get to him before anyone else will. I need to take everything that I have and we need to leave. I need to ensure his survival. I refuse to lose the last thing that I have in this world!
"How did that monster die? I thought it was impossible to kill him?"
"Ha! His arrogance brought his own downfall! He really thought that he could win against the combined forces of all sects!"
I still don't know how I'm going to explain all of this to him. How can I say that he will never see his aunt and uncle again? How can I say that his popo will never tuck him in his bed...that A-Ning will never play with him again ..that Qing-jie will never threaten him to take his medicine. How will I tell my son that our family is dead ?!
Finally I saw the Burial Mounds. With new found determination I used even more resentment to keep my wound close and forced my body to move even faster. I know it's only a matter of time before they'll come here. I pushed myself even more. I ran through the mountains straight to my cave. And there he was. Sitting near the single qianqun bag that contained all my research and the limited supplies that we had. Supplies that Wen Qing prepared for us before she surrendered to them..I felt relief. He's safe...I quickly took him into my arms and ignored all his questions. Questions I didn't have the answer for. I grabbed the bag and left the cave. I used some of my blood to activate the arrays to destroy the cave after we left. I need to get away...we don't have time...the faster the better...and once again I run. I didn't look back.
"Only he would think that he can march into a conference at Nightless City, attack them and leave unscathed!"
"After he killed all these people he still showed his face there! What a bastard!"
"But who was the one that did that?"
"Don't you know? There's only one person strong enough to kill that monster."
I'm not even sure where I'm going anymore. I have nowhere to go...and A-Yuan is crying...what do I do? My wound is throbbing...the resentment won't keep the wound closed forever. And I can still hear the shouts of the ghosts demanding their blood. That I should destroy everyone who tried to kill me today...I ignored them to the best of my ability which right now wasn't much...What the fuck am I supposed to do? My strength is leaving me...I can't stop...I need to go farther....but my body is betraying me. I'm simply too tired, I lost too much blood to go on. I started swaying. I stopped running and tried to force my body to listen to me. It wasn't working. My vision was getting blurry and I could feel when my body started to shut down. I tried to fight the fatigue and blood loss but this wasn't a fight I was winning. Before I knew it I was collapsing and the last thing I saw was A-Yuan's tearstained face while he screamed my name as darkness consumed me.
"Who? Just tell us already!"
"It was Hanguang-jun of course!"