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The first time Alastor saw her, she was squinting at the front door like it personally offended her.
He watched from the corner of the lobby, arms tucked neatly behind his back, radio static humming gently through the air. The young woman stood still for a full ten seconds, lips pressed in a line, eyes scanning every detail of the architecture—cornices, hinges, weathering on the handle—before she even thought to knock.
Then she knocked exactly three times. Sharp. Rhythmic. Perfectly spaced.
Knock.
Knock.
Knock.
Alastor felt a shiver travel up his spine. How… delightfully methodical.
Charlie was already rushing to open the door, beaming. “Welcome to the Hazbin Hotel! I’m Charlie—”
“I know,” the woman cut in, stepping across the threshold. “You’re the princess. You want to redeem sinners. Your voice is high-pitched on TV, by the way.”
Charlie blinked. “O-Oh! Um—thank you?”
“I didn’t say it was bad.”
Alastor grinned. Ohhh, I like her already.
The introductions didn’t take long. She was (Y/N), and she didn’t like shaking hands. She said it outright—“It feels weird and I don’t know how hard to grip”—so she simply nodded to each person in turn.
Angel Dust raised an eyebrow. “You're always this blunt, sweetheart?”
“Yes.” Her voice was flat, matter-of-fact. “That’s usually the first thing people notice.”
Alastor didn’t laugh, not exactly, but his grin sharpened, and something twitched in his cheek. There was something splendid about the way she moved through the world—like she’d stripped out all the silly little games people played and left only the raw, direct mechanics behind.
“I find bluntness refreshing,” he said, stepping forward with a bow. “Alastor, at your service! Do forgive the theatrics. I do so love a good first impression.”
She stared at him, unblinking. “Your smile is creepy. But you’re dressed cool. Is that wool?”
His smile widened. “Oh, madame, you certainly don’t pull punches, do you?”
“I’m not trying to be mean. I just say what I think. That’s how my brain works.”
“Fascinating,” he murmured, eyes gleaming.
That night, Alastor watched from the rafters as she arranged her room in near-perfect symmetry. Pillows are stacked evenly. Books color-coded. She spent fifteen minutes aligning the picture frame on her wall until it hung exactly parallel to the floor.
He didn’t understand why that thrilled him.
He’d lived a very long time, and he’d never seen anyone like her.
The common room was unusually quiet for a Tuesday. Probably because Angel wasn’t talking yet.
He was lounging on the couch, long legs kicked up, tapping lazily at his phone. The TV was on, but muted. Vaggie and Charlie were somewhere upstairs, probably in a meeting, and Husk was asleep face-down on the bar.
(Y/N) sat cross-legged on the rug, nursing a lukewarm mug of tea. She didn’t like hot drinks—said they “burn her mouth and make her teeth feel weird.” Her eyes were fixed on the muted television, though she wasn’t watching. She just liked the background light. The flicker calmed her down.
Angel finally glanced at her.
“You’re quiet.”
She shrugged. “I usually am.”
“Nah, you talk. Just not like... normal, I guess.”
(Y/N) didn’t flinch. “I’m autistic.”
Angel blinked. “You’re a what now?”
“Autistic. Like, I have autism.”
A beat of silence.
“I don’t get it,” Angel said, sitting up straighter. “Is that like... a disease?”
She snorted. “No. It’s a neurodevelopmental thing. My brain’s wired differently. I miss social cues. I get overwhelmed easily. I talk weird. Some people think I’m rude when I’m just being honest.”
“Ohh,” he said, nodding slowly. “Yeah, that tracks.”
She stuck her tongue out. “You’re the rude one.”
“Touché.”
Unseen in the hallway, just around the corner, Alastor had frozen mid-step.
Aut...is...tic?
The word meant absolutely nothing to him. Not in context. Not even as a medical term. It buzzed strangely in his ears, like a frequency he’d never picked up before.
Autistic.
What the devil did that mean? She didn’t look ill. And it certainly wasn’t a word he recalled from the charming little medical journals of the 1920s. Then again, his understanding of psychology had stopped evolving before he died. He preferred it that way—madness was much more romantic when it was still being diagnosed with leeches.
And yet.
That word.
It explained things, didn’t it?
The way she never lied just to be polite. The way she needed silence to think. The routines. The precision. The honesty so sharp it could draw blood.
He found himself smiling again. But this time, it wasn’t theatrical. It wasn’t for show. It was—
Warm.
“Huh,” he said aloud, stepping into the room. “So that’s what it’s called.”
Angel jumped. “Jesus, you gotta stop popping up like that.”
(Y/N) didn’t flinch. She turned toward him, a brow raised. “You were eavesdropping.”
“I prefer elegant lurking,” Alastor said with a grin. “But yes. I confess. I overheard a bit.”
“You didn’t know what autism was?” she asked, tilting her head.
“I’m afraid not,” he said, chuckling. “It seems I’m woefully out of date.”
“That explains... a lot.”
He grinned wider.
“And tell me, my dear,” he said, taking off his hat with a flourish, “is it rude of me to say that I find your mind absolutely delightful?”
Her cheeks turned pink. She blinked at him. Once. Twice.
Then, after a pause—
“No,” she said softly. “I don’t mind.”
Alastor’s grin twitched. Something fluttered in his chest. And for the first time in a very long time...
He didn’t understand a goddamn thing about himself.
Alastor was not supposed to feel this way.
Not about anyone.
And certainly not about her.
He’d always believed—knew, really—that he was one of those curious creatures untouched by desire. Romance was nonsense. Lust was laughable. A chaotic waste of perfectly good brain matter. He watched the mortals scramble over one another like animals in heat, swooning and kissing and rutting in alleys, and felt nothing but pity.
Sex was... repulsive.
Sticky. Sweaty. Awkward. Utterly devoid of class. It made his skin crawl.
He’d tried, once. Just to be sure. In life, back when he was still pretending to be “normal.” Her name was Marie. She wore too much perfume and called him Ali, and the moment her lips touched his, he wanted to die.
No, that wasn’t fair. He already wanted to die.
He just wanted it faster.
Even in Hell, he kept his distance. Angel had offered once (with a wink and a wag of his hips), and Alastor had laughed so hard it startled the ghosts out of the chandelier.
“I do not fraternize,” he said. “And certainly not carnally.”
So why?
Why did the thought of (Y/N) smiling at him make his stomach twist in knots?
Why did he feel... lighter when she was in the room?
Why did the sound of her voice—blunt, literal, unapologetic—make his dead heart flutter like a fool’s?
He leaned back against the velvet settee in his private suite, eyes fixed on the ceiling. The old radio on his desk crackled in the background, tuned to some warbling jazz station, but he wasn’t listening.
“Let’s see,” he murmured, folding his hands over his chest. “Let’s test this properly.”
He closed his eyes and conjured an image in his mind.
A tall woman. Hourglass shape. Ruby lips. Long legs in silk stockings. The kind most men would fall to their knees for.
He imagined her winking. Running a finger down his chest. Purring his name.
He gagged.
Physically.
Actually.
He dry-heaved over the arm of the chair.
“Ugh—! God, no.”
He sat upright, clutching his stomach.
“Horrendous. Never again.”
Okay. Not that.
Now, her.
He thought about (Y/N). The way she tilted her head when something didn’t make sense. The way she fidgeted with her fingers when she was thinking. How she got hyper-focused on weird topics for hours. How her face lit up when someone asked a genuine question, not just to be polite.
He imagined her looking at him like that. Talking to him for hours. Sitting too close. Touching his hand. Sitting on his lap.
His face went red.
“Oh—dear.”
He felt warm. Embarrassed. Giddy.
His hands twitched. His breath caught. Static crackled from his fingertips.
What the hell was this?
This wasn’t disgust. This wasn’t indifference. This wasn’t his usual calm detachment.
This was—
Longing?
He jumped to his feet, pacing in front of the fireplace like a caged fox.
“This is preposterous. I’m not capable of this kind of nonsense. I don’t do love. I don’t get flustered. I—”
His thoughts screeched to a halt as he remembered the way she smiled yesterday. Small. Real. Just for him.
He made a sound.
A terrible, stupid, delighted little giggle.
He slapped a hand over his mouth like it had betrayed him.
This wasn’t just some fascination. This wasn’t “oh, how curious!” or “what a delightfully odd creature!”
This was him, falling face-first into something sweet and terrifying and utterly unfamiliar.
And worst of all?
He didn’t want it to stop.
(Y/N) sat cross-legged on the common room couch, animatedly talking with her hands, her eyes lit with enthusiasm.
“So, okay, Silence of the Lambs? Masterpiece. Like, the movie’s not even just about catching a killer—it’s about power. Psychology. Gender. Manipulation. There’s so much going on, and Anthony Hopkins? Insane. He makes you love Hannibal even though you know he’s a monster.”
Angel Dust blinked slowly. “You mean the one with the cannibal guy?”
“Yes! Hannibal Lecter!” she nodded vigorously. “He’s cultured, composed, terrifyingly intelligent. Every word he says is so measured. He’s like a shark that learned manners. And Jodie Foster as Clarice—ugh. She’s perfect. Quiet, sharp, kind of unsure but still driven. Their dynamic is so intense, like... It’s not romantic, but it’s intimate. Like two predators circling each other.”
Angel flipped a page in his upside-down magazine. “You sound real into this murder, dude.”
“He’s not just a ‘murder dude,’” she corrected. “He’s a metaphor.”
“Oh my god,” Angel muttered.
Behind them, Alastor stepped into the lounge just as she spoke the name Hannibal Lecter. His ears perked. His head tilted. And his gaze immediately zeroed in on her.
He recognized that name. He’d heard it tossed around before. But now it was coming from her, and she was beaming.
Angel glanced back at him and smirked. “Hey, Al. Have you ever seen that old movie? The one where the guy eats people and somehow still gets fangirls?”
Alastor chuckled. “Ah! Silence of the Lambs, yes. A delightful film. Very well-crafted. I appreciated the… finesse.” His crimson eyes flicked toward (Y/N), tone shifting with unexpected warmth. “But please, don’t stop on my account.”
“Oh!” she perked up. “You’ve seen it?”
“Indeed.”
Her whole face lit up. “Okay, okay, okay, so, that scene—you know, the iconic one, where he’s in the cell, and he’s all calm and poised, and Clarice is trying to interview him? And he’s like, ‘I ate his liver with some fava beans and a nice chianti’—and then he does that noise—” She made a half-decent attempt at the tongue-sucking hiss, clearly delighted with herself.
Alastor’s smile widened.
Angel groaned. “Jesus Christ.”
(Y/N) ignored him. “And the cinematography? So claustrophobic! All those tight shots on Clarice’s face—like you’re trapped in there with her, right? Like you feel the way Lecter’s watching her. It’s genius. I’ve watched it like, twenty times.”
Alastor drifted closer, compelled by something he couldn’t explain. The spark in her voice, the rapid-fire cadence, the way she bounced slightly as she spoke—it was all so raw. So honest.
He sat down beside her without a word, folding his hands in his lap, leaning forward.
Angel squinted at him. “You serious right now?”
“Completely,” Alastor replied without looking away. “Please, go on.”
(Y/N) beamed. “Okay, so—Buffalo Bill is terrifying, but also really well-written. Like, the whole ‘it rubs the lotion on its skin’ scene? Disturbing, yes. But symbolically? He’s trying to shape an identity with other people’s skin. Literally. It’s all about transformation—”
Alastor nodded slowly, enraptured. “A grotesque yet compelling metaphor. The use of darkness and sound in those scenes was inspired.”
“YES! Exactly! And that last act? When Clarice goes into the house alone, and it cuts to the FBI team at the wrong place? And the lights go out, and she’s in pitch black, and you realize he’s watching her through the night-vision goggles—God, it’s so tense!”
As she rambled, Alastor found himself smiling more than he had in years.
Angel let his magazine fall on his face. “I’m gonna smother myself.”
“Please don’t,” Alastor said absently. “You’d ruin the atmosphere.”
(Y/N) was still going, now talking about Hannibal’s wardrobe choices, the psychological contrast between Lecter and Clarice, the use of moth imagery, and how she always caught new things in every rewatch.
Alastor’s tail flicked and wagged under his coat. He didn’t notice.
He just leaned closer.
She spoke faster when she got excited, words not always cleanly linked, but he didn’t mind. He understood the meaning. Her voice was music, her passion a rhythm all its own.
And in that moment, he wasn’t the Radio Demon.
He was just a man, sitting beside a woman who could talk about serial killers for ten straight minutes without losing breath.
And it was the most charming thing he’d ever seen.
The Hazbin Hotel was alive with noise.
Not the usual background chaos, no—this was a shouting match. Voices crashed against the walls like crashing waves, overlapping in a messy, furious symphony. Vaggie was yelling, Angel was yelling louder, Charlie tried to mediate, but she’d gotten sucked in too deep, and Husk’s gravelly voice joined somewhere along the line with a very colorful “I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHY I’M IN THIS CONVERSATION!”
Alastor stood off to the side, a polite distance from the verbal warzone. His hands were clasped behind his back, posture relaxed, a smile stretching across his face like a bowstring.
Oh, he loved this. The passion! The drama! The rising tension! It was better than most of the soap operas he pretended not to watch.
Angel accused Vaggie of micromanaging. Vaggie accused Angel of being a walking health violation. Charlie tried to make peace and somehow got blamed by both. Husk shouted something about fire codes.
Delightful.
Alastor chuckled softly. “Ah, what music~”
Then he felt it.
A soft thud against his upper arm. Not a slap. Not a punch. A… nudge?
He blinked and looked down.
There she was. (Y/N). Her head was tucked against his shoulder, not quite looking at him, eyes squinted shut and her brows drawn together in distress. Her hands were over her ears, fingers pressing tightly against her head. She looked like she was trying to shrink into herself—like the world had gotten too big, too loud, and she needed a shield.
And she’d chosen him.
Alastor froze.
She bumped her head against his arm again, a silent ask for comfort, for quiet—and it was him she turned to, not Charlie, not Vaggie, not even Husk.
Him.
His chest did a strange little flutter. His smile softened, but didn’t falter. He turned just slightly, angling himself protectively, blocking some of the visual chaos from her view.
“Too loud, my dear?” he asked gently, his voice low and velvety, a stark contrast to the screaming just a few feet away.
She gave the faintest nod, not lifting her head.
Alastor’s heart twisted, a rare ache blooming behind his ribs. She looked like she was in pain, her whole body tense, trying so hard to keep it together.
And yet she’d come to him.
“Oh, darling,” he murmured, stepping a bit closer so her side brushed against his. “You poor thing…”
With his free hand, he snapped his fingers—and like a curtain dropping, the surrounding sound cut off. Not in reality, of course. But in a neat little sound bubble that dulled the outside world, just for her. It wouldn’t last long, but it was enough.
He didn’t put an arm around her. Not yet. But he stood solid and still, her anchor in the storm.
His tail—hidden under his coat—wagged furiously.
She stayed like that for a few moments, just leaning on him, eyes closed, breathing slow and deliberate.
She hadn’t said a word, but Alastor understood her perfectly.
And inside? He was beaming. Buzzing. Radiating with a warm, giddy kind of pride. The kind he hadn’t felt in years. Decades.
She trusted him.
She chose him.
While the rest of the hotel erupted into chaos, he stood there like a knight in a red pinstripe suit, the chaos incarnate himself, being used as a haven by the one person in Hell he would never let fall.
His smile widened just a touch more.
“Oh, my dear,” he said softly, “I do believe you’ve ruined me.”
The hotel was quiet again.
The storm had passed, leaving only the occasional grumble from Husk and the passive-aggressive clinking of dishes from Angel in the kitchen. The air had that strange stillness that followed a major blowout—fragile, like even sound was too scared to come back in full.
Alastor stood in the lounge, fiddling with the dial on the broken radio that never seemed to work quite right without his magic. Humming something low and old-timey under his breath, his mind drifted—not to the fight, not to the delightful insults Vaggie had hurled like knives—but to her.
To the way she’d leaned into him like he was safe. To the way she’d trembled quietly, hands on her ears, seeking a buffer from the world… and chose him.
He had barely stopped thinking about it.
The sound of soft footsteps pulled him from his thoughts.
He turned his head slightly. It was her.
She stood just behind the lounge doorway, fingers wringing at the hem of her shirt, eyes fixed firmly on the floor.
“…Hey,” she mumbled. “Um. I… I’m sorry. For earlier. I didn’t mean to make things weird or like… clingy or whatever.”
The words were quick, mumbled out like she was trying to push them out before her nerves caught up.
She still wasn’t looking at him.
Alastor stared for a moment, stunned that such a thing would even cross her mind. And then—abruptly—he stepped toward her.
She flinched slightly, but before she could retreat, he reached out and gently took her hand in both of his. His fingers were cool and gloved, but careful—deliberate.
“No,” he said firmly, his usual radio-filtered tone gone. This was his real voice, raw and full of conviction. “No, my darling. Don’t you ever apologize for that.”
She blinked, startled, finally looking up at him.
Alastor gave her hand a gentle squeeze, tilting his head down to meet her eyes.
“You were overwhelmed. You needed comfort. And you came to me.”
His smile softened into something rarely seen—genuine, unguarded. “That is not a burden. That is an honor.”
(Y/N) opened her mouth, but he cut her off before the next apology could escape.
“No. No apologies,” he said again, shaking his head. “Not for being overwhelmed, and certainly not for choosing me to help you through it.”
He chuckled softly, pressing the back of her hand to his chest. “Do you have any idea what that means to me, dear girl? I—well—I could’ve wept if I weren’t so busy standing still and pretending not to be absolutely glowing inside.”
She laughed, a breathy little sound that made his tail flick under his coat.
He leaned in slightly, lowering his voice. “I’m rather new to… feelings like this. They’re strange and intrusive and uncharted territory for me. But if there’s one thing I do know, it’s this: I want you to come to me. When you’re happy. When you’re tired. When the world is too loud. When you don’t know where else to go.”
He smiled wider, that soft expression returning.
“I will always make room for you, (Y/N). Always.”
There was silence for a moment.
Then her hand, still held in his, curled just a little tighter around his fingers.
“…Okay,” she whispered.
Alastor nodded once. Like a vow.
“Good.”