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I do agree with the statement that said failure makes one a better person. However, I can’t say that I am a better person. As a person, we can’t run from a mistake and a failure. The mistake teach us that in the future we will not do the same thing twice. While, failure shape us what we are going to be in the future.
As a team leader, I can’t sacrifice my team members for a tiny mistake. The tiny mistake will lead into a big disaster and become failure to protect the only thing left for me.
I, Kim Rok Soo had learnt my lesson when I am still a rookie. I failed to predict the monster movement resulting the death of my family. To my dearest team leader, Lee Soo Hyuk and my dearest self-proclaimed Hyung, Choi Jung Soo. From the bottom of my heart, I am sorry. On that day, I am the one who supposed to die.
As a human who can’t forget, this ability become a curse and poison for a sinner like me. I still can’t move on from the time when both of you died. The labored breath and the birthday wish will keep haunting in my memories.
This guilt, I will gladly bear it in my heart. Everyday, I am hoping to meet you in my dreams. I will always wait for both of you to take me from this monochrome world. How I wish to end my life here, but I can’t leave my team members alone. This responsibility is too big to just throw it on the other sides.
I will never ask for forgiveness for the mistake and failure that I had done. As a human who can’t die when he is wishing for the reaper to come and take his life away, I hope to the one who read this letter to never give up for the failure and mistake. To anyone haunted by their own missteps, your past doesn’t define you, but your response to it does. Embrace your failures, learn from them, and allow them to forge a version of yourself that’s stronger, wiser, and kinder.
Sincerely,
Kim Rok Soo