Work Text:
How stupidly cliche
That I'm feeling this way
I'm in love with my best friend
When will this beating in my chest go away
I wish I could say
That I didn't know this was coming
That I didn't know he was amazing
That I didn't know I was falling
I wish I could say we could be together
But we can't; that's stupid, he would probably blow me off anyway...
He'd be cool, and understanding
(Like he always is, he's that way)
But we'd be awkward, we'd change
So I better just leave it alone anyway
But I can't, not anymore
It was just admiration before
But now it's something greater
Something more
Something weighter
No, this is definitely new
Never before did I think about your lips and the way they move
The way they chew
The way you are you
Never did I think
About them on mine, too
Suddenly I'm down bad
Suddenly I'm stupid
Whenever you look at me
Seriously, is this cupid?
Cause never before did I see the love in your eyes
I definitely didn't think I had hearts in mine
But now I'm not so sure,
When you chuckle the way you do
When you laugh and smile
When you're just sitting there, too
I'm suddenly picturing,
What it would be like to hold you
To wrap you in my arms
Maybe rest my head in your lap
Gosh, I've fallen for your charms
When did I become such a sap?
But you make me feel so warm inside
No- you're my best friend, I can't, I won't fall in love with you
...
I lied.
I keep finding excuses
To ignore what you do to me
Oh gosh it's useless
You render me stupid
And when I look at you I lose it
Every glance, every smile makes its home in my mind
I think about it when I'm bored, no let's be honest, I think about you all the time
My thoughts never wander
From the amazing person that is you
And I still can't figure out why
You make me feel the way I do
Let's be honest, that's fine
I keep avoiding the truth
That I want your lips on mine
Every hour, every minute
I want to be with you
Yep, I'm screwed
Cause I fricking love you, dude