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The apartment was smaller than the listing had promised.
Narrow hallways, low ceilings, a living room that felt more like a waiting room, blank, too quiet. Castiel stepped inside, his boots echoing against the hardwood.
He set the box down, just one for now, and looked around. No furniture. No curtains. The lingering smell of fresh paint was the one thing standing. The windows faced west. He hadn’t noticed that when he signed the lease. It was all so rushed, he felt numb half of the time. Like he was watching his body move from the outside.
He didn’t know what to do with his hands. Or his body. Or the quiet. After years of shared spaces and careful silences, the emptiness felt both foreign and indulgent. He could breathe here. He could exhale without someone asking what was wrong.
His mother had died three weeks ago. It was sudden, but expected. After all, she was an old woman now. The funeral was tasteful, closed casket. White lilies. A eulogy that made her sound softer than she’d ever been, exactly how she would’ve wanted it. Daphne, his wife, had stood beside him, out of obligation more than affection, her hand light on his back like she was afraid to touch him too long.
Castiel didn’t say a word in the whole ceremony. He didn’t cry either. Not really. He’d stood beside Daphne, hands folded, face blank, and felt something he wasn’t ready to name. It wasn’t joy. It wasn’t grief. It was something quieter. Something shameful.
He loved his mother. Of course he did. In the unconditional way children love the people who raise them. But their relationship had always been complicated, to say the least.
His mother, Naomi, was elegant and formidable. The kind of woman who never left the house without lipstick and a pressed blouse. Her voice could cut through a room like glass, and Castiel had learned early how to read the temperature of her moods, how to shrink himself when she was brittle, and how to smile when she needed him to be charming.
He remembered her as a loving mother in his childhood. She had her temper and her need for control, but she loved him. Singing him to sleep, hugging him close when he had a nightmare, protecting him from his older brothers' pranks, and sitting down with him for hours to help him with schoolwork. His brother Gabriel always made fun of him, saying he was a mama’s boy.
He was, really.
Until he presented as an Omega.
Male omegas were rare. Unseemly. Embarrassing. It seemed his mother, having all boys, always expected to be the proud mother of either all betas or alphas. She often spoke of legacy, of strength, of the kind of masculinity that commanded respect. But Castiel had broken that dream.
“No man should present to anyone,” she'd told him once, when he was fifteen and trembling in the bathroom, head aching, hot and sweaty, his body betraying him. She’d stood in the doorway with a rosary in her hand, her mouth a thin line of disappointment. “It’s wrong. But don’t worry, you can still be normal. Let me help you.”
He’d believed her. Or tried to. He learned to hold his breath when alphas passed by, to wear scent blockers even when they made his skin itch, to take heat suppressants, and to laugh at jokes that made him feel small. He dated beta girls who didn’t ask questions. He married Daphne because she was kind and quiet and didn’t press too hard. His mother approved. That was the point.
But approval had always come with conditions. With silence. With shame.
He remembered her brushing his hair back when he was little, fingers firm, voice soft. “You’re my beautiful boy,” she’d said. And then, years later, when he’d tried to talk about the way his omega felt, she’d looked at him like he’d broken something sacred. “You’re not one of those boys,” she’d said. “You’re better than that.”
She never used the word herself, not in reference to him. It was always “your condition” or “that unfortunate situation.” Like it was a phase he’d outgrow or a stain she could scrub out with enough prayer and polite company.
He’d spent years trying to be better. Trying to be what she wanted. Trying not to want anything at all.
Now she was gone. And the grief was real. But so was the relief. And Castiel didn’t know how to hold both at once, how to mourn the woman who raised him while finally breathing without her shadow hanging behind.
It was the relief, in the end, that made him file for divorce.
He could finally stop performing the life she’d scripted for him. No more scent blockers. No more heat suppressants. No more Daphne.
They met in high school. His mother liked her. A beta woman with good manners and a respectable family. Castiel had married her because it was easier than arguing, easier than explaining, easier than being seen.
But the moment his mother died, something shifted. He looked at Daphne across the dinner table and saw not a partner, but an acquaintance. A nice quiet company, but not someone he loved.
He was forty-nine. Turning fifty this year. Too old, maybe, to be starting over. But he didn't want to keep living like a ghost in his own skin.
The divorce had been finalized last week. There was no shouting and no drama, the only thing that remained from their marrige was signatures and a polite nod from Daphne, like she’d known it was coming long before he did. Castiel felt guilty. Like he’d stolen years from her, years she could’ve spent being truly seen.
But when the papers were signed and the silence settled between them, Daphne simply smiled. Soft. Sad. Understanding.
She leaned in, kissed his cheek, and whispered, “Good luck, Castiel.” Then she picked up her coat and walked out of the office without looking back.
It was the kindest ending he could’ve asked for.
Castiel crouched on the floor, surrounded by half-assembled furniture and a sea of bubble wrap, trying to remember in which box he packed the coffee mugs when his phone buzzed. He wiped his hands on his jeans and answered without checking the caller ID, thinking it was Gabriel. He was the only one who really called him besides his mom.
“Hello.” he said, breathless. “I’m elbow-deep in cardboard.”
“You really went through with it.” Michael, his older brother, voice came through, clipped and unimpressed. “You left a stable marriage. For what?”
“Good afternoon to you too, Michael.”
“You’re almost fifty, Castiel.”
“Thank you for the reminder,” Castiel grumbled. “I’m happy, Mike,” he said, softer now. “Scared, but happy. Isn’t that enough?”
Another pause. Then Michael muttered something about “calling later” and hung up.
That night, Castiel lay flat on his back in the unfamiliar hush of his bedroom, staring up at the ceiling like it might offer answers. The silence was thick.
He didn’t cry. He didn’t sleep. He was lost in his thoughts.
About the years he’d spent pretending. About the way shame had shaped his choices. About the things he’d denied himself, not because he didn’t want them, but because he’d convinced himself he didn’t need them. By morning, something had shifted. Not dramatically, more like a quiet loosening in his chest. A breath he hadn’t realized he’d been holding for decades.
He wanted to listen to his omega.
It felt foolish. Embarrassing. A complete midlife crisis, like a man buying a motorcycle at fifty and calling it freedom. But it also felt necessary. He was too old for shame. Too tired for regret. And maybe, just maybe, this was the beginning of something better.
So he stopped buying scent suppressants.
The first time he caught his own scent, it nearly knocked him sideways. He’d thought it was perfume lingering in his clothes. But no, this was him. Warm. Safe. Honey. What he should have been smelling like all his life, his real scent.
He stood in his bathroom for ten full minutes, breathing it in.
He stopped taking heat suppressants too. They hadn’t done much in years anyway. His cycles had grown irregular, quieter. He knew what was coming. Menopause. But it didn’t scare him.
He stopped wearing shirts that hid his neck. The skin was bare, unmarked. Biteless. He used to think it made him look pathetic. Now he thought it made him look honest.
And then, he made an appointment. A male omega specialist. Something he’d never even considered before. The idea made his stomach twist with nerves, but he went anyway. Sat in the waiting room with his hands clenched in his lap, trying not to bolt.
The doctor was kind. Young, but not patronizing. He smiled when Castiel explained his recent changes and nodded as he took notes.
“You’re showing signs of menopause,” he said gently. “It’s normal at your age. Some omegas have trouble sleeping or sudden mood changes. Have you experimented with something similar?“
“I guess I have trouble sleeping, but I’ve had it my whole life.” Cas answered.
“Okay.” The doctor nodded again. “Well, let’s see how your body adapts to the lack of heat suppressants. That might give you a clearer indication of what we are dealing with, okay?” Cas nodded. “Some blood tests will do for now.”
Castiel’s omega felt sad. Quietly, deeply. Like something was closing inside him. But he was okay with it. He hadn’t expected anything else. He’d spent so long pretending he didn’t have an omega at all. It was too late for him to have kids of his own. But he had accepted a childless life a long time ago.
He left the clinic with a list of recommendations and a strange lightness in his chest.
With the pass of time, he started to feel his omega more and more. A flicker of warmth when he passed an alpha with a nice scent on the street, a sudden craving for buying more pillows and blankets for his bed, a strange aching tenderness when he saw a child laughing in the park. He found himself pausing, wondering in awe.
Sometimes it stressed him out.
He didn't understand what his Omega wanted half of the time. He never connected with that part of himself before, never learned the language behind it. So he started searching online, late at night, hunched over his laptop with furrowed brows and a mug of tea with honey.
Most of the pages were written for teenagers.
“Understand your omega.”
“First heat, what to expect.”
“Talking to your parents about your omega."
Castiel still read them. It made him sad, really. Like he was mourning something he never had. He should have read these decades ago, should’ve someone to talk to, should've known what it meant to feel this way.
But he didn't.
So he read, learned, and tried not to let grief swallow the joy.
One night, after a particularly tiresome day at work and a long stretch of reading forums and male omega’s vlogs, he shut his laptop and just…stood there. Restless. Unsettled. Like something in him was buzzing.
He didn’t want to go to bed. Didn’t want to sit in silence again.
So he grabbed his coat and went to a bar.
Maybe it was loneliness. Maybe curiosity. Maybe a flicker of rebellion. Maybe he wanted to be around people. Whatever it might be, his omega seemed excited, and instead of shutting it out, he decided to listen.
He picked a place he’d never been before, small and dimly lit, with warm lighting and a chalkboard menu. He sat at the bar, ordered something sweet, and let himself breathe.
His Dirty Shirley arrived, and he sipped it slowly, letting the taste settle on his tongue. Around him, the bar pulsed with low music and laughter. He turned his head, scanning the room.
The bar was full of young people, bundled up in oversized sweaters and leather jackets, cheeks flushed from the cold, voices bright with energy. They leaned into each other, chatting and laughing, some even dancing near the back where the lights were lower and the music louder. Castiel could’ve been their father.
The realization made his stomach twist. He gripped his glass tighter, suddenly self-conscious of his graying hair, the lines around his eyes, the way his clothes hung on him like he hadn’t quite figured out what he liked anymore.
He felt like he’d lost this in his youth. Whatever this was, this easy joy, this freedom to be loud and messy and scented and alive.
But then, a spark of happiness flickered in him.
The air smelled good.
Alphas and omegas all around, their scents mingling in a soft, living cloud. There was laughter and comfort and the faint tang of desire, but nothing aggressive. Nothing dangerous.
There were a lot of happy omegas.
He was happy for them.
Still, the feeling of being out of place didn’t fade. He reached for his wallet, ready to pay his tab and slip out quietly, when someone slid onto the stool beside him.
“Hey,” the voice said, casual low. “What’s the rush? Can I buy you a drink?”
Castiel turned.
The man beside him was young, mid-twenties, maybe. Broad shoulders under a worn denim jacket, a few freckles scattered across his nose. His hair was short but messy, like he’d run his hands through it too many times. Green eyes, sharp and warm, looked at Castiel with open curiosity.
He smelled like cedar and whiskey and something electric underneath. Alpha.
A young alpha.
Castiel blinked, caught off guard. The man smiled, easy and crooked.
He smells nice. Really nice.
“Uh.” Cas started. “Sure.” The man smiled at him and raised two fingers to the bartender.
“Two more, please,” he said, then glanced at Castiel’s half-empty glass. “Same thing?”
Castiel nodded, unsure. His shoulders were tight, his posture stiff, but his omega was jumping with excitement, a strange flutter in his chest that felt both thrilling and mortifying. Must be the drink, he told himself. Or the scent in the air. Or the fact that someone had noticed him.
“So,” the man said, turning toward him with a grin. “You come here often?” Castiel stared at the empty stool beside him, as if it might offer an escape.
“Not really,” he said. His voice was low, clipped. He didn’t mean to sound rude; he just didn’t know how to do this.
“Yeah, I figured,” the man said, leaning his elbow on the bar. “Would’ve remembered a face like yours.”
Castiel blinked. His cheeks flushed, hot and sudden. He hadn’t been flirted with in years. Maybe decades. He wasn’t even sure this was flirting. God, this was a young, attractive guy; there was no way he was actually flirting with him, right? Maybe the guy was just being nice. Maybe he was drunk. Maybe-
“I’m Dean, by the way,” the man added, offering his hand. Castiel hesitated, then took it. Dean’s grip was warm and firm, but not overpowering. His scent was stronger up close.
“Castiel,” he said quietly. Dean’s smile widened.
“Nice to meet you, Castiel.” The bartender slid their drinks over, and Dean nudged one toward him.
“So what brought you out tonight? You don’t strike me as the ‘bar on a whim’ type.”
“I guess you could say I’m in a midlife crisis.” Castiel stared into his glass. Dean laughed instantly, taking a sip of his drink.
“Fair enough.” He said, still smiling. The alpha smelled happy, content. “So, you got a bucket list now? Have you bought a convertible car?” That made Castiel laugh a bit, turning fully for the first time in Dean’s direction.
Castiel hesitated. He could feel his omega pressing against him, curious, hopeful. It was ridiculous. He was too old for this. Too tired. But Dean was looking at him like this wasn’t a mistake.
“I’m…adjusting,” Castiel said finally. “Trying to make some changes.”
Dean tilted his head. “Good changes?”
Castiel looked at him. Really looked. The freckles. The green eyes. The way Dean’s scent didn’t crowd him, just hovered gently, like an invitation.
“I think so,” he said. “I hope so.”
Dean smiled again, softer this time. “Well, cheers to that.”
They clinked glasses. Castiel’s hand trembled slightly, but Dean didn’t seem to notice, or if he did, he didn’t make a thing of it. Instead, he leaned in just a little, elbows resting on the bar, posture relaxed.
“So, Castiel,” he said, drawing out the name like he liked the taste of it. “What do you do?”
“I’m a risk analysis.” Cas answered. Dean’s eyebrows lifted.
“No shit. That sounds badass.”
“It sounds more exciting than it actually is.” Cas said, still smiling at the Alpha. “I work in an insurance company. I analyze risks in potential clients.” Dean leaned in slightly, elbow brushing Castiel’s.
“So you’re the guy who decides if someone’s too reckless to insure?”
“More or less,” Castiel said. “I read reports. Look at patterns. Try to predict what might go wrong.” Dean gave a low whistle.
“Sounds like you’d be great at poker.”
“I’m terrible at poker,” Castiel said, laughing. “I overthink everything.”
“Damn. Remind me never to try and scam you.”
“Were you planning to?”
Dean smirked. “Not unless it gets me another drink with you.”
Castiel flushed, the warmth creeping up his neck again. His omega stirred, a quiet ripple of awareness that made him sit a little straighter, breathe a little deeper. Dean smiled wider. His scent must have shifted.
“You’re very confident,” Castiel said, voice low.
“I know what I like.” Dean shrugged.
“And what’s that?”
Dean’s eyes didn’t waver. “Right now? You.”
“You’re relentless.” Castiel laughed softly, surprised by how easy it was to let the words land. Dean leaned in, just enough that Castiel could feel the heat of him.
“You’re not stopping me.”
“I’m curious,” Castiel said, and it was true. His heart was thudding, his omega buzzing with something like joy. He felt giddy. Ridiculous. Alive.
“Curious is good.” Dean answered. Castiel looked down at his drink, then back up.
“It’s just… I don’t usually do this.”
“Flirt with handsome strangers?” Dean tilted his head with a smile, wiggling his eyebrows, making Cas laugh.
“Go out, I mean.”
“Well, I’m really glad you did.”
Castiel’s breath caught. The way Dean was looking at him, it made something in Castiel’s chest ache.
“You’re very…” Castiel started, then trailed off.
Dean leaned in slightly. “Very what?”
“Very… Good-looking yourself.” Cas smiled, shyly. Dean chuckled, a kind of fondness showing in his face.
“Is that how you flirt?” Dean asked jokingly, making Cas blush. “I’ll take it.”
They sat in silence for a moment, the hum of the bar around them fading into background noise. Castiel could feel Dean’s scent. He was content. Happy. Excited. His own scent was rising too, soft and golden, and Dean didn’t flinch. Didn’t pull back.
“I like how you smell.” Dean said. Castiel flushed.
“This is the first time in years I’m not using scent blockers.”
Dean’s gaze lingered on him.
“Good. It suits you.”
Castiel’s heart thudded. His omega surged again, not with panic, but with want. Dean reached out, fingers brushing Castiel’s hand on the bar.
“Can I?” Dean asked. Castiel blinked.
“Can you what?”
Dean leaned in, voice low. “Kiss you.”
Castiel nodded before he could think.
The kiss was soft. Slow. Just lips, warm and tentative, pressing together like a question. Castiel’s breath caught. His omega bloomed, scent spilling into the air like honey warmed by firelight.
“Okay?” Dean pulled back, eyes searching.
“Yes.” Castiel nodded again, dazed.
“You wanna get out of here?” Dean tilted his head toward the door.
“I probably shouldn’t.” Cas started, making Dean’s smile falter. “I’m too old for this stuff. Well, I’m too old for you.” Dean blinked, then leaned in again, his voice low and steady.
“You’re exactly my type.”
“I’m almost fifty, Dean.” Castiel looked at him, uncertain. Dean’s smile softened.
“You’re gorgeous. You’re interesting. You smell amazing. I don’t care about the number.”
Castiel’s throat tightened. His omega buzzed again, not with nerves this time, but with something like relief. Like being seen and not flinching.
“I’m just being honest.” Dean shrugged. Castiel nodded, a little shy now.
“Okay.” Cas said, even though his mind was already spinning.
I shouldn’t go out with a stranger.
He’s too young. God, he’s too young.
This is wrong. Reckless. I’m old enough to be his-
He cut the thought off before it could finish.
Dean wasn’t pressuring him. Wasn’t pushing. Just standing there, warm and steady. Waiting. Castiel looked at him and felt the ache of it, how long it had been since someone looked at him like that. Since someone wanted him, not for what he could offer or hide, but for who he was. Since someone made his omega stir with something other than fear.
He felt ridiculous. Giddy. Alive.
And maybe it was foolish. Maybe it was a mistake.
But it had been a long while since he felt this desired. This is exciting. This is connected.
So he said it again, firmer this time.
“Okay.”
Dean smiled, eyes crinkling. “Yeah?”
“Yes,” Castiel said. “Let’s go.” Dean tossed a few bills on the bar and stood. Castiel followed him out into the night, the door swinging closed behind them with a soft thud. The air was cooler now, crisp against his skin, and for a moment they just stood there on the sidewalk, the hum of the surrounding city.
“You okay?” Dean glanced over, hands in his pockets.
Castiel nodded. “Just… recalibrating.” Dean smiled at that. He stepped a little closer, their shoulders nearly touching.
“Still curious?”
“Yes.” Castiel replied instantly. Dean reached out, fingers brushing Castiel’s jaw.
“Can I kiss you again?”
Castiel didn’t answer. He just leaned in. The kiss was deeper this time, hot and urgent. Dean’s hand gripped the back of Castiel’s neck, pulling him in, mouths colliding with a hunger that stole Castiel’s breath. He gasped against Dean’s lips, and his omega surged, sweet and golden, scent flooding the air like a pulse.
Castiel clutched Dean’s jacket, kissed back harder, dizzy with want. Dean groaned low, and Castiel felt it in his spine.
When they broke apart, Castiel’s lips were swollen, his scent thick and warm.
Dean’s voice was rough. “Your place or mine?”
Castiel didn’t hesitate. “Mine.”
Dean smiled. “Let’s go.”
Dean takes a step back him with a smile. He walks slowly towards a car, opening the door for him before climbing in himself. They climbed into the Impala, the doors closing with a satisfying thud. Castiel doubts for just a second before he tells Dean his address.
The leather seats were worn but well-kept, the dashboard gleaming faintly under the streetlights. Castiel ran a hand over the console, fingers trailing the edge.
“This is a beautiful car.” Cas said. Dean glanced over, grinning.
“Careful. Compliment her too much, and I might get jealous.”
“She’s got character.” Castiel smiled.
Dean chuckled. “You know, it might turn me on even more that you’re sweet-talking my car more than you’ve sweet-talked me.”
Castiel laughed, really laughed, head tipping back, eyes crinkling. It hit him mid-breath: I haven’t laughed like this in years.
Dean didn’t say anything. Just reached over, resting a hand on Castiel’s thigh. His fingers curled gently, then began to move in slow, deliberate strokes upward, warm through the fabric. Castiel’s breath caught. His omega stirred.
Dean’s hand stopped just shy of his crotch. The alpha scent in the closed space of the car was thick, full of arousal and want. Castiel’s omega was purring, scent blooming in the air like honey cracked under heat. Castiel hardened almost instantly.
He’d never felt this before.
Not with the beta girls he’d dated. Not with anyone. They’d been kind, sometimes sweet, but this…this was different. This was instinct and chemistry and something deeper, something older. His body knew it before he did.
Dean didn’t move his hand. Just let it rest there, warm and steady, like he knew exactly what he was doing. Castiel turned his head, looked at him. Dean’s eyes were dark, pupils blown, but his expression was calm. Grounded. Waiting.
They didn’t speak much on the drive. Just exchanged glances, quiet smiles, and the occasional brush of fingers. Castiel’s heart thudded the whole way. When they reached his apartment, Castiel hesitated at the door. His keys felt clumsy in his hand.
“I should warn you,” he said, voice low. “It’s a mess. I haven’t unpacked everything.” He said as he opened the door.
Dean smiled. “So these are the changes you were talking about?”
Castiel nodded, cheeks flushed. “New place. New start.”
Dean stepped inside behind him, eyes scanning the room, boxes stacked against the walls, a couch still wrapped in plastic, and a lamp sitting on the floor instead of a table.
“I like it,” Dean said. “Got the nice single man vibes.” Castiel laughed, closing the door behind them. Dean’s gaze flicked toward the bedroom door.
“So… are we about to christen the bed?”
Castiel blinked, then laughed, soft and startled.
“Yes. I suppose so.”
“Awesome.” Dean grinned. And then his scent shifted, just slightly. A thread of possessiveness, warm and grounding, curling through the cedar and whiskey like a claim not yet spoken.
Castiel’s omega responded instantly. His knees nearly buckled. The tension in his shoulders melted, replaced by something deep and instinctive. Safety. Want. Yes.
The bedroom was dim, lit only by the glow from the hallway. The sheets were rumpled, but Castiel barely noticed. His pulse was loud in his ears, his body already humming with anticipation.
As soon as they passed the threshold, Dean kissed him again, harder this time, more intent. Castiel responded instinctively, lips parting, hands clutching at Dean’s shirt like he needed something to hold onto. He gasped a little at the sensation and the smell of his own slick.
Dean guided him down onto the bed, crawling over him with a kind of practiced ease. His hands were everywhere, waist, chest, thighs, firm but patient, coaxing Castiel’s body into soft gasps and shivers. Every touch felt like discovery.
Castiel arched under him, overwhelmed by sensation. Dean’s scent was stronger now, rich and possessive, and Castiel’s omega responded with a low, involuntary whine.
“You’re so responsive.” Dean leaned down, lips brushing Castiel’s ear.
“I don’t know what I’m doing,” Castiel admitted, voice shaking. Dean looked up at him with curiosity.
“Then let me take care of you, Omega.” Dean smiled, slow and sure. His hands moved with purpose, fingers slipping down to unbutton Castiel’s shirt one by one, exposing skin inch by inch.
When the fabric parted, Dean paused.
His gaze swept over Castiel’s chest, broad, dusted with hair, flushed from heat and anticipation. Dean’s eyes darkened, and he leaned in, mouth trailing over skin, lips brushing one nipple before closing around it. He licked, then bit, just enough to make Castiel gasp, hips twitching beneath him. Cas’s body was already trembling, slick gathering low in his belly, heat pooling between his legs.
Dean’s hand slid down, pressing over the front of Castiel’s pants. Castiel groaned, hips lifting into the touch, harder now, aching. The contact was maddening; just enough to make him want more, not enough to satisfy.
“You taste so good.” Dean murmured against his skin.
Castiel could barely speak. His fingers clutched at the sheets, his body open and humming, every nerve lit up. This was more than he’d ever felt, more than he’d ever let himself feel.
And Dean, steady, warm, Alpha , was guiding him through every second.
Dean didn’t rush. He unfastened Castiel’s pants next, fingers brushing skin as he eased them down. Castiel stepped out of them, silent, flushed, eyes locked on Dean’s face.
Dean paused, gaze sweeping over him, his bare chest, trembling thighs, the soft curve of his belly rising and falling with each breath. Cas could smell the Alpha getting more and more aroused by the second. It was hard to believe that his body could make such a reaction from a handsome and young Alpha like Dean, but his own Omega just wanted more.
Dean’s fingers hooked into the waistband of Castiel’s underwear, but before he could pull them down, Castiel spoke quietly, uncertainly.
“What about you?” Cas asked. “You’re still dressed.” Dean instantly smiled.
“Do you want me to get undressed too?” Castiel simply nodded. “Then ask nicely, Omega.” Only being called by his status made the omega moan loudly, which was mortifying for Cas, but Dean’s smile grew even wider.
“Can you get undressed for me, Alpha?” Cas asked this time. He was definitely too old for this. God, he must look ridiculous. A fifty-year-old man begging for an Alpha? God, that’s just simply pathetic and-
Dean stepped back just enough to strip, shirt first, then jeans, each movement smooth and unhurried. Castiel watched, wide-eyed, as Dean peeled away the layers, revealing broad shoulders, a strong chest, and the trail of hair down his stomach.
When Dean was down to his briefs, he stepped close again, pressing a kiss to Castiel’s jaw. “Better?”
Castiel nodded, breath catching. Dean’s hand slid up his thighs, fingers teasing the waistband of his underwear.
“You ready to present for me?”
Castiel froze.
The word hit something deep, old, and ingrained. His mother’s voice echoed in his head: Males don’t present. It’s degrading. It's not for you. You are better than that.
He swallowed hard, trying to push the thought away. She could not dictate his life anymore.
“I’ve never…” Castiel started, his voice barely audible. “I don’t know how.” Dean paused, eyes searching his face.
“You’ve never presented?”
Castiel shook his head, cheeks burning. Dean blinked, then nodded slowly.
“That’s okay.” Dean’s voice dropped, low and steady. “Hands and knees. Ass up to me. That’s how you present to an alpha.”
Castiel flushed deep red but nodded. He moved slowly, awkwardly, onto the bed, positioning himself as instructed. Vulnerable. Exposed. His heart was pounding, but his omega was purring, scent blooming golden and sweet. Dean stepped behind him, gaze heavy.
“Have you, uh… ever been with an alpha before?” Dean asked.
Castiel hesitated, then shook his head. “No.” He started to apologize, but Dean cut him off, his voice thick with heat.
“Oh, omega. Don’t worry. I’ll be good to you. I’ll make you feel so damn good you’ll forget your damn name.”
Castiel shivered, breath catching. Dean hooked his fingers into Castiel’s underwear and pulled them down slowly, watching as they slid over trembling thighs. Castiel didn’t move, just stood there, flushed and quiet, his breath coming fast.
Dean’s gaze dropped, and he smiled.
“Look at you,” he murmured. “You’re slicking so much.”
Castiel flushed deeper, his omega scent blooming thick in the air. He felt exposed and overwhelmed, so wanted he could barely breathe. He never slicked like this outside of his very uncommon heat cycles.
Dean settled between his legs, one hand steady on Castiel’s hip, the other sliding down. His fingers brushed through the slick, slow, and deliberate, and Castiel gasped, his hips twitching, thighs trembling.
Dean didn’t rush. He circled gently, teasing, letting Castiel feel every stroke. Then, with careful pressure, he slid one finger inside.
Castiel moaned, low and startled, his body clenching around the intrusion.
“You’re tight. So damn tight.” Dean leaned in, voice low. Castiel bit his lip, eyes fluttering shut.
Dean worked slowly, letting Castiel adjust, then added a second finger; stretching him, coaxing him open. Castiel whimpered, hips shifting, slick gathering again with every movement.
“You’re doing so good,” Dean murmured. “Just breathe.”
Castiel nodded, barely able to speak.
Dean twisted his fingers, searching, then slid in a third, slow, steady, filling him. Castiel gasped, back arching, making Dean smirk.
Dean twisted his fingers, slow and deliberate, feeling Castiel pulse around him. The slick made everything easy, his fingers gliding with barely any resistance, Castiel’s body opening up like it had been waiting for this.
“So good,” Dean murmured, voice low and rough. “You’re opening so good for me, pretty omega.”
Castiel whimpered, his face flushed against the sheets. His body was trembling, overwhelmed, but his omega was purring. Dean curled his fingers, coaxing more slick, more sound, and more need.
“You feel ready?”
Castiel nodded, though he wasn’t sure what ready was supposed to feel like. His only experience with penetration had been during heat. Alone, fogged up, fumbling with toys he barely remembered. This was different. This was real.
“You got condoms?” Dean pulled his fingers out slowly, watching Castiel shiver at the loss. Castiel groaned, muffled.
“No. I wasn’t planning anything like this.” Cas said. Dean chuckled, massaging Castiel’s ass with both hands, thumbs pressing into soft muscle.
“You weren’t planning to get wrecked by an alpha tonight?”
Castiel moaned, hips pushing back. “Dean, please. I don’t care. I need you inside. Please.” Dean leaned in, voice thick with heat.
“You’re desperate for it, aren’t you?”
Castiel nodded, breathless.
“I want you.”
Dean kissed the base of his spine. He climbed behind him, hands firm on Castiel’s hips, steadying him. The room was quiet except for their breathing, Castiel’s ragged and uneven, and Dean’s low and controlled.
Castiel felt the shift before it happened, Dean’s body aligning with his, heat pressing close, the promise of what was coming thick in the air.
Dean moved slowly, deliberately, guiding himself in with care. Castiel gasped, his whole body tensing, fingers clutching at the sheets. His omega was too quiet right now, simply enjoying what was happening, wanting more.
Dean paused once he was fully inside, hands gripping Castiel’s hips, grounding him.
“You good?” he asked, voice low.
“Please move.” Castiel moaned, loud and desperate.
Dean did.
He started slow, hips rolling in a steady rhythm, letting Castiel adjust. Castiel was tight, trembling, every breath a gasp. But with each stroke, his body softened, opened, and welcomed.
Dean watched it happen, watched Castiel melt beneath him, moaning louder with every movement. His pace quickened, hips snapping harder, the sound of skin and breath filling the room.
“You’re taking me so well,” Dean murmured, voice thick. “What a good omega.”
Castiel cried out, overwhelmed, his body alive in ways he’d never known.
Dean kept moving, hips rolling in a rhythm that was slow but deliberate, each thrust coaxing a louder sound from Castiel’s throat. His fingers gripped Castiel’s hips, firm and possessive, guiding him through every motion.
Castiel’s arms gave out first.
He collapsed forward, face pressed into the sheets, ass still raised, body trembling. The position was instinctive, submissive, open, and it made Dean groan low behind him.
“Look at you,” Dean murmured, voice thick. “Falling apart already.”
Castiel moaned, incoherent, slick scent blooming in the air like heat.
“Feels… so good,” he gasped. “Dean… I- please…” Dean leaned over him, one hand sliding up Castiel’s spine, the other gripping his hip tighter.
“You’re dripping for me, omega. So damn needy.”
Castiel whimpered, hips pushing back. “I can’t… God! feels…feels too much…”
Dean chuckled. “You’re taking me so well.” Castiel’s body shuddered, his moans spilling out in broken fragments.
“Please… please don’t stop…”
Dean’s pace quickened, hips snapping harder now, each thrust pulling a louder sound from Castiel’s throat. “You want it rough, baby? Want me to ruin you?”
Castiel could only nod, face buried in the sheets, body open and trembling, slick scent thick and golden in the air. Dean leaned over him, voice low and wrecked.
“You think you can come just from this?”
Castiel moaned, loud and broken, nodding without lifting his head.
“Yes-yes, I can! please…”
Dean didn’t touch him anywhere else. Just kept moving, driving into him with steady, relentless force. Castiel’s body was burning, every nerve lit up, every breath a gasp.
And then he felt it.
Dean’s knot; forming, swelling, pressing deeper with each thrust. Castiel’s omega surged, scent spiking in the air, slick rising again in response.
He gasped, voice slurred.
“Knot me-please, Alpha! I need it, need your knot-”
Dean groaned, low and rough. “You sure?”
Castiel nodded, his voice cracking. “Yes! Yes, I need it! Need you inside…please-”
Dean couldn’t hold back.
He could feel it happening. The knot, swelling, pressing deeper, stretching Castiel open in a way that made him whimper, slick rising again in response. Dean gripped his hips tighter, grounding him, holding him still as the knot locked them together.
Castiel cried out, voice cracking, overwhelmed by the fullness, the heat, the claim. His body pulsed around Dean, every nerve lit up, every breath a gasp.
Castiel could only moan, face buried in the sheets. His omega was purring, open and flooded, scent blooming like wildfire.
And when the knot locked fully, sealing them together, Castiel came undone, shaking, crying out, body clenching around Dean as the wave crashed through him.
Dean followed, hips grinding deep, voice low and broken as he spilled into him, knot pulsing, breath ragged.
Castiel collapsed forward, boneless, face pressed into the sheets, body trembling with aftershocks. Dean stayed locked inside him, chest flush against Castiel’s back, both of them panting, slick and heat between them.
After a moment, Dean shifted just enough to ease them sideways, careful not to tug too hard. Castiel let himself be moved, pliant and dazed, until they were curled together on the bed, still knotted, still joined. Dean exhaled, voice rough but amused.
“I’d love to be a gentleman and clean up the mess we made, but sadly, I’m trapped here.”
Castiel snorted, too tired to laugh properly.
“You sound so disappointed.”
Dean grinned against his shoulder. “Oh yeah, this is totally tragic.”
Castiel hummed, eyes fluttering shut. He loved this, being tied to an alpha, held like this. It felt right. It felt good.
Dean shifted slightly, knot still firm, and Castiel gasped softly.
“Sorry,” Dean murmured. “Still awkward?”
Castiel smiled, giddy. “A little. But I don’t mind.” Dean shifted behind him, knot still firm, one arm draped lazily across Castiel’s waist. They lay there in silence for a while, tangled and warm, the knot keeping them close. Castiel’s body was sore in the best way, Dean’s breath was steady against his back, grounding.
“Should we wait for it to go down before sleeping?” Cas asked.
“If you want to stay awake for a few hours more, yeah.” Dean responded.
“Hours?” Cas asked, surprised. Dean snorted in response.
“Yeah man. Hours.” Cas nodded in response.
“Are we just gonna… sleep like this then?” Cas mumbled.
Dean yawned. “Unless you’ve got a better idea.” Castiel snorted, too tired to argue.
“I guess not.”
Dean kissed the back of his neck, and they both drifted off, still tied, still tangled, the room quiet except for their breathing.
Morning came slow and soft.
Castiel blinked awake, groggy and sore, the light filtering through the curtains. He was alone in the bed now, but he could feel the towel beneath him, carefully placed, catching the worst of the mess. Slick. Semen. God.
He groaned, face buried in the pillow. He had to clean these sheets.
“I need to burn them.” Cas murmured to himself.
He sat up slowly, body aching in places he hadn’t expected, and just as the panic started to creep in, he left; he’s gone. Of course he’s gone , Dean walked into the room.
Fully dressed. Hair damp. A coffee cup in one hand.
“Hey,” Dean said, smiling.
Castiel blinked. “Hey.”
Dean snorted. “You look wrecked.”
Castiel flushed, full red, suddenly remembering everything.
“I…uh, yeah.” Dean set the coffee down on the nightstand.
“You sleep okay?” He asked. Castiel nodded, still dazed.
“I think so.”
Dean sat on the edge of the bed, watching him.
“I gotta head out. I’m late for class.”
Castiel’s brain stalled. Class? Oh god. I slept with a university student. What is wrong with me?
Dean rubbed the back of his neck. “I, uh… had a nice time.” Castiel looked up, surprised.
Dean pulled a folded piece of paper from his pocket and handed it to him.
“Call me if you want.”
Castiel laughed, still flushed. “Okay.”
Dean stood, gave him one last look, and winked.
“Don’t burn the sheets. They’ve got character now.”
And then he was gone, leaving Castiel in bed, holding the number, smiling like an idiot. He smiled, still groggy, still sore, and whispered to himself.
“What the hell am I doing?”
But he didn’t throw the number away.
The day after Dean left, Castiel floated through work like someone had been secretly replaced with a much happier version of himself. He smiled more. He hummed while making coffee. He even complimented a co-worker's new haircut without being prompted.
He hadn’t stopped thinking about Dean. About the way he’d smiled, the way he’d said, Call me if you want, like it was nothing, like it was everything.
Then Gabriel arrived.
Their mother’s will had finally gone through probate, and there were papers to sign, accounts to settle, and boxes to sort. Gabriel came in like a whirlwind, loud, dramatic, full of half-jokes and real grief, and Castiel barely had time to breathe, let alone reflect.
Gabriel stayed with him, crashing on the couch, helping him unpack the last of the boxes. They built shelves. Argued about lamp placement. Ate too much takeout. Castiel was grateful, even when Gabriel drove him crazy.
One day, it was late, Gabriel was stretched out on the couch, one leg draped over the armrest, sipping beer and watching Castiel wrestle with a stubborn drawer that refused to slide in place.
“You know.” Gabriel started, softer than usual. That alone made Cas’s brow arch. “I’m proud of you.” Castiel paused, blinking.
“For what?”
Gabriel just gestured around the room, like it was obvious.
“All this, man! Divorcing, finding a new apartment, not wearing that shitty scent block stuff that made you smell like a hospital waiting room.” Castiel rolled his eyes. “You seem happier, that’s all.” Castiel looked down at the drawer, then back at Gabriel.
“I didn’t think you’d care.”
“C’mon, man! Of course I care. You are still my little bro, middle-aged and all.” Cas snorted.
“It wasn't all that bad, you know?” Said the omega.
“No,” Gabriel said. “But it wasn’t you. And now you’ve got your own place. You’re unpacking. You’re living like an omega who doesn’t owe anyone an apology for it.” Castiel sat down on the floor, legs stretched out, heart thudding. Gabriel took another sip of beer. “I know I joke a lot. But I see you, Cas. And I’m proud.”
Castiel didn’t speak for a moment. He just nodded, eyes stinging a little more than he expected.
Gabriel grinned. “Also, you finally let me help you decorate. That’s the real miracle.”
Castiel laughed, quiet and real.
And for a moment, the weight of everything, grief, grief, guilt, hesitation, felt a little lighter.
Weeks passed.
The number stayed in the drawer, folded neatly between an old receipt and a half-used notepad. Castiel hadn’t touched it in days, but he knew exactly where it was. He could picture the curve of Dean’s handwriting, the way the ink had smudged slightly at the edge.
And now, Castiel wasn’t just hesitant; he was embarrassed. It’s been too long, he thought. He probably forgot. Or he thinks I don’t want to call him.
He didn’t know what to say. Didn’t know how to explain the silence. The longer he waited, the heavier it felt, like the moment had passed, and reaching back for it would only make him look foolish.
So he didn’t call.
Work piled up: deadlines, meetings, endless emails, and the paperwork for their mother’s estate was a labyrinth of signatures and legal jargon. Gabriel, bless him, had come to help, but his version of “help” included loud music, sarcastic commentary, and a complete disregard for Castiel’s need for quiet. Castiel loved his brother. He really did, but Gabriel had the subtlety of a marching band and the impulse control of a raccoon in a candy store.
The cherry on top was that Cas definitely was starting to get sick.
It started with a vague queasiness.
Just a flutter in his stomach after coffee or a wave of nausea when he stood up too fast. Castiel blamed stress. He blamed the greasy food. He blamed the grief.
The nausea got worse.
He started throwing up in the mornings. Then in the afternoons. Castiel tried to fix it; he tried to eat more healthy and leave the takeouts only to Gabriel, but the nausea didn’t go away.
One night, Gabriel came home to the sound of retching. Castiel was in the bathroom, hunched over the toilet, pale and shaking. Gabriel leaned against the doorframe, sighing.
“Again?”
Castiel couldn’t answer. Just groaned, forehead pressed to the cool tile. Gabriel crossed his arms.
“You know, if you actually got laid once in a while, I’d ask if you were pregnant.” He laughed at his own joke.
Castiel didn’t.
He froze.
Gabriel’s smile faltered. “Cas?”
Castiel turned his head slowly, eyes wide, face drained of color.
Gabriel stared at him. “Oh my fucking god.”
Castiel whispered, “I didn’t use protection.”
Gabriel blinked. “Wait, hold up. You got laid?” Castiel nodded, barely breathing. Gabriel’s mouth dropped open. “With an alpha?” Castiel nodded again.
Gabriel stared at him for a long. He blinked, then raised both hands like he was calming a skittish animal.
“Okay, okay. Don’t panic. You’re pushing fifty, bro. There’s no way you got pregnant. That’s not how biology works. I mean, what would even-”
He paused. Castiel looked up, eyes wide. Gabriel narrowed his gaze.
“Did you get laid more than once?”
Castiel flushed. “ No! ”
Gabriel threw his hands up. “Okay! Okay. One time. Got it. Then it’s really improbable you’re pregnant, man. Must be a coincidence. Stress. Food poisoning. Bad sushi. Something.”
Castiel didn’t respond.
He just sat there, pale and silent, the bathroom tile cold against his back. His stomach churned again, but this time it wasn’t just nausea; it was dread.
He thought about the night with Dean. The knot. The heat in his belly. The way his body had responded, slick and open, like it had been waiting for this. He hadn’t used protection. He hadn’t even thought about it. He’d been too overwhelmed, too caught up in the moment, too desperate.
And now he was throwing up every day. Exhausted. Moody. His scent had shifted; he’d noticed it, faintly, but hadn’t wanted to name it.
What if-
“Gabriel,” he said, voice hoarse. His brother looked at him. “Go buy a pregnancy test.”
Gabriel blinked. “Wait, seriously?” Castiel nodded, eyes wide, throat tight.
“Please.”
Gabriel stared at him for a beat, then muttered, “Oh my god. Okay. Yeah. I’m going.”
He grabbed his keys and disappeared down the hall, still mumbling to himself. Castiel stayed on the bathroom floor, heart pounding, mind racing.
It's not possible, he told himself. It’s not.
His doctor had mentioned the early signs of menopause not so long ago. He was too old for this. His body was winding down, not gearing up.
And even if he wasn’t menopausic, even if his body had one last heat left in it, he’d been on heat suppressants for years. Long-term use was known to cause fertility issues. Everyone knew that. It was practically a guarantee.
Male omegas didn’t get pregnant easily. It took planning. Timing. And he’d had none of that.
It was one night, he thought. One night. No way.
But his stomach twisted again, and he groaned, curling tighter on himself.
He tried to breathe. Tried to reason. Tried to convince himself that this was stress, or food poisoning, or grief. That it was anything but what Gabriel had joked about.
And then the front door opened.
Gabriel’s footsteps echoed down the hall, and a moment later, he appeared in the doorway, holding a small pharmacy bag. He tossed a box toward Castiel, letting it skid across the tile.
“I brought extras. In case you want to be really sure.”
Castiel stared at it.
“Thanks,” he said quietly, voice hoarse. He picked up the box, stood slowly, and closed the bathroom door behind him.
The click of the latch sounded louder than it should have.
And then it was just him. And the test.
Castiel sat on the toilet, the box open beside him, the test in his hand. He’d read the instructions twice, then again, just to be sure. His fingers trembled as he followed each step, breath shallow, heart thudding.
He set the test down on the counter and stared at the wall.
Minutes passed.
The tile was cold beneath his feet. He could hear Gabriel pacing in the living room, muttering to himself.
Castiel didn’t move.
When the timer buzzed on his phone, he reached for the test with slow, deliberate hands.
One line.
Then another.
Bold. Unmistakable.
Positive.
Castiel stared at it, throat tight, stomach twisting.
His mind went blank. Then loud. Then blank again.
He looked down at the result, eyes wide, breath caught somewhere between disbelief and dread.
And then he whispered, barely audible.
“Fuck.”