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Felicity types furiously at her keyboard trying to find Oliver even with the intel helix gave her its been 2 weeks since Oliver has been taken
Suddenly Felicity typing hears something turning her head seeing Oliver stroll in limping, her and the rest of the team approach him, "Oh my God Oliver" she says,
Oliver drops his equipment and says "chase had me and he let me go"
As he walks up the steps John puts his hand in front and says "go slow man"
Oliver stops in front of them and says " It's over"
Felicity is to occupied looking at Oliver's wounds to say anything.
Oliver is about to walk forward but suddenly collapses as both John and Felicity catch him, each under one arm
John then says "Oliver we are going to get this son of a bitch for whatever he did to you"
As they help Oliver rise. He says"john... it's over fo..for me, I don't want to do this anymore... I'm shutting everything down"
They help him to the medical table, Oliver takes his arms off of John and Felicity putting his weight on the table
Felicity asks "what are you talking about, your shutting everything down? You need to see a doctor "
Oliver says "the only thing I need is for all of you to go home"
John says "we aren't going anywhere"
Oliver replies "not a suggestion John"
Felicity looking at Oliver says " Oliver talk to me, what's going on, what did chase do to you?"
Oliver closes his eyes and opens them saying "chase was right, everyone down here and around me either suffer or they die"
Felicity heart breaks a little hearing this from him and she says "Oliver I can't imagine what you just been through, but you have to know chase is wrong"
Oliver looking down says " he isn't, and I d.. trailing off he continues "would you just go please"
Felicity puts her hand on his chest and says "Oliver I'm not going anywhere please let me. At least let me patch you up"
Oliver still not looking at her says "I have plenty of experience on patching myself up, please Felicity just go"
John then asks "Felicity would you give us the room"
Felicity wants nothing more then to wrap her arms around and help him but she hesitantly walks away
She leaves the bunker and even sees diggle outside.
She asks "so I take it, it didn't go well"
John replies "No it didn't, look we need to call in the team"
Felicity says "good idea text them to met us at the loft"
At the loft after explaining to the team what's going on
John asks "Felicity can we talk for a minute"
Felicity nods as there both upstairs
John says while arms are crossed " I dont know how we are going to help Oliver, but for all I know you need to talk to him"
Felicity sighs and says "I dont think I should, you were there, he wants to be alone"
John says "because he thinks he deserves it, I tried talking to him, and I'm not the one still in love with him"
Felicity looking at John and says "that's all in the past now John"
John sighs and says "fine, but I doubt what your doing off the books is just for Billy"
Felicity takes a breathe and says "look John I still care a great deal about Oliver and yes I maybe still in love with him. I never seen him this broken I don't know what to say or what to do"
John then says "neither have I, but I'm not the one he's in love with. So Felicity just be you"
Felicity gives a small smile and quickly gets a text from helix and excuses herself. Quickly finishing that up.
Then She calls Oliver, he picks up and says "yeah, do you need something?"
Felicity then asks " I need to know where you are"
Oliver almost smiles and then says " no you don't. I don't deserve you Felicity chase was right"
Felicity immediately says "no he is-"
Line gets cut dead luckily enough time to ping his cell. Felicity looking at her tablet shows a block away from verdant"
Felicity heads out and gets to the old foundry, after she walks down the stairs she sees Oliver sitting in the middle looking down.
Felicity walking closer and sees a gun in his lap and asks "Oliver what are you- she trailed off and as the realization sets In Oliver looks up at her but not in her eyes
She immediately says loudly "No"
Oliver replies "Felicity don't worry it's all going to be ok"
Felicity with tears in her eyes says "How? How can it be ok your about to-" she trails off unable to say the word
Oliver with tears running down his face and says " Because, William thea, john, renee,curtis, dinah and yours lives will be better without mine it a-and I'm s- Oliver gulps with tears running down his face and continues "I'm sorry it took me so long for me to get the courage to finally be the hero you knew I could be"
Felicity crying frantically sits down in front of Oliver with a hand on his heart and her other on his cheek and says "then fight Oliver, don't- I beg you please don't do this"
Oliver holds her hand to his chest and says "I have to do this because I love you, please understand"
Felicity staring deep into his eyes says "then help me understand"
Oliver replies "chase was right, I'm a monster everyone around suffers or dies, what you did what digg did what it was based on, was a lie"
Felicity says "what are you talking about?"
Oliver replies " I'm not the man you fell in love with I'm a monster, (Oliver takes a breath as more tears run down his face) and continues "I put the hood on, using the list as an excuse to kill, because I enjoy killing"
Felicity crys even more as her heartbreaks and says " Oliver I wouldn't have fallen in love with or wanted to marry you, if I didn't know exactly what kind of man you are, chase tortued you for 2 weeks, your the toughest person I know and anyone, I mean anyone would've admitted to being a tap dancing flamingo after what you been through"
Oliver looks at her fondly and says "Adrian chase didn't make me a killer"
Felicity replies" No 5 yrs in hell did that, 5yrs dealing with cities worst did that, you've spent a decade dealing with horrors that most people don't realize exist and the fact that didn't turn you into a monster proves exactly the kind of person that you are"
Oliver replies "I dont know what kind of person I am"
Felicity looks at Oliver fondly and points to the gun and says "that isn't going to help, but I can help"
Oliver almost smiles but doesn't and says "you've been pushing me away these past months, your not in love with me anymore"
Felicity crys a bit more and says "I'm done running, I'm done pushing you away, and-
Oliver interrupts "it's okay you don't have to say it back, I'm not going to force you to"
Felicity nods gratefully and says "but you still have that gun, Oliver understand that even tho we aren't together anymore I can't lose you, I won't survive it, I need you, my life is better with you in it, please don't do this" Felicity gently grabs the gun
Oliver still holding it, let's Felicity take it, she says "thank you" and slides it as far away as she can and launchs into his arms as they just hold each other after feeling like hours passed and Oliver almost drifting to sleep.
Felicity says "come on big guy"
Oliver nods following her to the bed in back, as Oliver slides in, Felicity follows, with Oliver giving her a hopeful but concerning look Felicity replies "I can't let you out of my sight, Oliver you nearly- she trails off unable to say the words as Oliver nods in understanding moving as far on one side as he can, Felicity slides in holding on to him with her head on his chest
After a few hours, Felicity wakes up entangled in Oliver's arms *oh I missed this* she thinks but her phone rings with an alert, she quickly checks it and sees alena texting her its time.
She quickly gets up, and grabs her phone
Oliver wakes up and asks "what's going on?"
Felicity says "a new mission I have to go"
Oliver immediately gets up and says "alright I'm coming with you"
Felicity says "no your not your still injured"
Oliver says "I'll manage, I need to get back out there"
"Show me your wounds" she demanded
Oliver unbuttoned his shirt groan while shrugging it off
Felicity says "getting a shirt off hurt, how can you shoot your bow?"
Oliver replies " I dont need the bow Felicity"
Felicity says "I still won't let you go out there like this, I can't lose you"
Oliver replies "you won't lose me, I'll be fine"
Felicity says "your safe and even then your not fine!! A few hours ago I found you almost- she trailed off and continues "how can I trust you to keep yourself safe only hours after that. I need you to be safe"
Oliver says " I'm never safe out there"
Felicity says " maybe not, but the state of your body and especially especially your mind is far from 100%. Please you still have that limp" she stares pleading at Oliver
Oliver about to say something but nods
Felicity says " thank you" and she walks away it hurts, she wants nothing more then to stay with Oliver she can't lose him. But she'll never let chase hurt him or anyone else no matter what
After Felicity left, Oliver immediately gets to the bunker changing his clothes and injecting lots of lidocaine and using the tracking nanites follows her feeling guilty, he trusts her but helix is dangerous.
Once he gets there at an argus black site in the glades and sees Felicity help some mercs get Cayden James out of a shipping container, lyla wouldn't do this without good reason even though it's shady he knows lyla and she won't do this unless absolutely necessary. He moves to follow and shoots a warning shot and says "stop or the next one goes through his head"
"Then it’ll have to go through me.” Felicity retorted, running to stand between Cayden and Oliver.
Oliver felt his heart shatter, He’s aiming a gun at her. Oliver Queen is pointing a gun at Felicity Smoak. He’d never knew how much he could hate himself more until now
“GO!” Felicity yelled out to her friends. They loaded Cayden into the van.
“Get out of the way!” Oliver yelled. He needed her be anywhere but here.
“You know I can’t do that.” Felicity replied. Oliver watched as Helix and Cayden drove away. In a last-ditch effort to stop him from getting away, he moved to run after them
“I was really hoping you wouldn’t!” Felicity yelled.
Oliver stopped dead in his tracks when the laser that was behind him was suddenly in front of him. Oliver turned to find another way out but there was none. She trapped him. He felt his inside starting to close in on him. He’d never been claustrophobic before, but he’d spent to much time in small cells to be okay being trapped.
“Oliver, don’t move. That is a 30-kilowatt spectral beam laser. It will cut you to the bone.” Felicity cautioned, concern and worry lacing her every word.
Oliver thought how dare she be concerned, this isnt the Felicity smoak he knew, it's his fault chase was right, I corrupted her with my darkness I'm a monster if Felicity never met me she wouldn't be doing this, she has been destroyed by my darkness
“dont worry I’ll have Curtis let you out.” She reassured.
Oliver thinks all that she told him a mere few hours ago is void, he shouldn't have listened to her, chase was right I'm a monster I even corrupted the love of my life, Felicity wouldn't do this until I ruined her. It's my fault, no wonder she doesnt love me anymore why didn't I do it sooner, I should've shot myself when I had the chance
“I’m sorry. I am. I’m really hoping that you’re gonna understand after we get Chase.” Felicity said.
Oliver yanks off his mask with tears in his eyes with the same anguish he had when he had the gun in his hand and he knows what he's going to have to do, to be there hero he should've been
Felicity is expecting to see anger so shes very suprised to see guilt, anguish, pain but acceptance and resolve and Oliver says in a broken tone "you didn't have to do this"
Felicity says nothing and leaves with a heavier heart then she ever has felt this is the right thing to do but it sure doesnt feel like it. As she follows the helix pals back to hq
Alena greets her and says "this plan went perfectly thanks to you and some more people want to thank you personally as well"
Felicity suprised but follows alena into an office upstairs Alena on the radio says "she's here"
All the sudden Adrian enters the room.
Felicity immediately says "alena we have to run Helix got compromised"
Alena unable to hold back any longer laughs loudly along with Adrian and they both shake hands and Adrian looking at Felicity and says "suprised to see me"
Felicity unable to speak stares daggers at them and says "why"
Adrian pulls out a gun and forces Felicity to sit in a chair in front a computer as alena handcuffs her to the chair.
Felicity finally found her voice again looks at alena and asks " ally with this physcopath"
Alena laughs and stares daggers at her and says "I never told you where I was from did I? I'm from Havenrock Felicity ya know that small city ya destroyed. And when Adrian chase approached with the plan to hurt the green arrow I was skeptical I don't care about Robin hood but his it girl/ex fiance Felicity smoak now that's someone I wanted to hurt"
Adrian puts a hand on alenas shoulder and says" you know miss smoak your dangerous, after what almost year since you walked out on him, yet he still loves you, that was the only reason he didn't kill himself was because you talked him out of it. But don't worry Mrs smoak you've redeemed yourself by finally putting the monster Oliver queen the green arrow down. You've proved once and for all that I'm right"
Felicity overwhelmed with grief and sadness says"your wrong Oliver will keep fighting I know him"
Alena laughs and says "no Felicity you just lost him and the fact that we barely even had to do anything , even if he somehow lives even then, will he ever love you again? You chose a hacktivist group that you barely knew about only for a few months over the man you say you love? And he doesn't even know you love him but by far the best part you trapped him all that work in telling him to not kill himself down the drain"
Felicity in tears but with eyes full of hate says to alena "I'm sorry about havenrock I truly am, I have nightmares constantly about it, but it was either that or Washington DC of over a million, I had no choice"
Alena slaps Felicity as hard as she could and says "there's always a choice, no I'm sorrys will bring them back, there gone and that's on you"
Adrian laughs and says "wow so both you and Oliver are monsters, I must thank you ms smoak but for now let's watch"
The computer turns on showing a live feed of the bunker and all three watch
Meanwhile
Oliver truly has never hated himself more." I corrupted Felicity" he says to himself
After sharing drinks with the team and they all head out, leaving him alone, he stares at the picture of him and Felicity in Bali that he keeps in his wallet and starts crying knowing he failed, he thinks back to what Adrian said "do you really think John diggle and Felicity smoaks lives are better for having known you?"
No definitely not tonight proved it
he's no hero, he corrupted everyone including Felicity, he doesn't deserve to live, Felicity was wrong her life will be better off without him. He loves her, how could he let this happen? after writing suicide notes for thea, Felicity, John, William and one for the rest of team and updating his will he drinks some more but nothing drowns the thoughts out he's a monster, chase is right, everything Felicity said was wrong, him crying some more and with one more shot of vodka he grabs a pistol all the sudden the elevator opens revealing thea, and she runs to stop Oliver, Oliver puts the gun to his head and says "I'm finally being a hero" and a shot is fired
Back at helix
Felicity watched the scene unfold in absolute horror says "NOOO!, Oh god what have I done, what have i done, "* Oliver's gone and it's her fault she couldn't lose him, but turns out it wasn't Malcom merlyn, the count, Cyrus gold, slade Wilson, Ra's, Damien dhark or even prometheus it was me I killed the love of my life*
Adrian is absolutely thrilled says "Felicity smoak you've done what I never could. Thank you, you've my gratitude, you've rid the world of the monster Oliver queen, who knew all it took was a blonde it girl"
Alena looks disturbed but sees Felicity's reaction and smiles sadistically and says "did you really love him Felicity?"
Felicity tears rolling down her cheeks says in a broken voice "I did, I still do,what have I done, I'm sorry Oliver I'm so sorry"
As she breaks down completely unable to hold back any longer knowing it was all her fault
Meanwhile
Thea, john and lyla with the rest of the team are sitting at starling general waiting to hear back
doctor shwartz walks in and says "Oliver is incredibly lucky, he'll live the bullet only grazed badly almost to the brain"
Thea spoke in a hopeful voice "can we see him?"
The doctor nods leading them to Oliver's room.
Once there Oliver is awake with tears in his eyes thea immediately hugs him and yells "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING OLLIE- after taking a deep breathe shes calmer and says "I almost lost you, your the last family I've left Ollie don't you dare leave me alone"
Oliver tears running down his as he hugs his sister and says "I'm so sorry speedy, chase was right"
John says "no Oliver he isn't, I was going to wait until well you had a better mindset but Felicity is missing we don't know where she is"
Oliver breathe is lodged in his throat he can't fail Felicity not again
Suddenly curtis's phone rings and he checks it, "got a ping, wait several pings on Felicity's location"
John then says "let's head to the bunker and suit up, thea keep an eye on Oliver for us"
Oliver then says "thea please help them find Felicity I'll be fine"
Thea looks at Oliver and says "no way, you just attempted suicide you shouldn't be left alone"
Oliver says "I'll be fine, I promise and I'm not alone there are plenty of nurses and doctors here"
Thea then says "fine but I'll have them update me on everything I dont care If it's a stubbed toe or a paper cut got it"
Oliver nods and with one last hug thea runs out of there to the bunker.
Oliver falls asleep an hour later his phone rings and sees a new location update that the team didn't hit yet, so he quickly dislocates his left thumb gets out of his restraints and relocates it quickly sneaking his way out of the hospital he borrows a spare scrub and calls an Uber getting to the bunker he decides on his backup field gear with a M4,Bionoculars, three grenades and a side arm instead of his green arrow suit, he doesn't deserve that hood, injecting lidocaine and adrenaline repeating *its for Felicity* in his head and Grabbing his bike he drives towards to the location
He sees the location a small warehouse building, he disembarks with his M4 in hand approaching with caution he using binoculars sees several mercs with guns in the building and guarding the entrances, and in the 2nd floor window he sees Felicity handcuffed to a chair with Adrian and alena.
He quells his rage Felicity needs him, and approaches quickly getting behind a merc
Pistol drawn and puts the merc in a headlock and asks "what's the code to enter? You can either get knocked out temporarily or permanently your choice"
The merc quickly says "the code is 8457"
Oliver says "wise choice" and knocks out the merc out with his pistol grip enters the code and his behind a pillar seeing several computers and people working on then with a massive screen infront of them, with one grenade he throws it at the generator at the opposite side of the building the explosion is small and takes out the power.
Quickly he runs towards the stairs, two mercs stand in his way, he quickly shoots one in the knees, and runs slamming the stock against the mercs face knocking him out, and sprinting up the stairs, and kicks open the door to see Adrian shooting an arrow at him, Oliver quickly lets go of his M4 and grabs the arrow, Felicity is still handcuffed with alena behind pointing a gun at her
Adrian then says "tsk tsk Oliver you can't even kill yourself properly, so where's the hood" Adrian nocks another arrow
Oliver says "let Felicity go, it's between us, you can kill me but let her go she has nothing to do with this"
Felicity cannot believe what's happening Oliver is alive the amount of relief is overwhelming not only that but still came to rescue her even after everything I don't deserve this man she thinks, but the huge amount of Oliver's words set in, he can't die for her she won't let him
Alena then says "no can do queenie it has everything to do with her, havenrock never forget"
Oliver says" that wasn't Felicity's fault she was given an impossible choice"
Adrian then laughs and let's the arrow fly, Oliver dodges it and run towards Adrian, they both engage hand to hand, Adrian drops his bow, Oliver punches left, Adrian blocks they mirror each other's attacks blocking blow for blow,
Felicity is watching this unfold very worried, how is Oliver fighting when he shot himself only 8hrs ago? He can't die not now I have so much to apologize for
Adrian delivers a tornado kick, Oliver moves to the side and elbows his face hard, Adrian staggers back, but before Oliver can re-engage, alena aims at Oliver's head but before she can shoot Felicity yells "NO" and pushes her chair over falling against alena causing her shot to hit Oliver's left lower back, Adrian takes advantage, quickly closes the distance and elbows Oliver's face flipping over into a headlock, Oliver using his legs jumps up standing and judo throws Adrian over him, Adrian recovers flips back up, grabbing a ninja star
Alena pushes Felicity and chair off of her, slapping her and uncuffs her yanking by her ponytail with gun hand points it at Felicity backing away,
Adrian throws the star at Oliver, who catches it and throws at alena who shoots back at Oliver but misses as the star stabs into her forearm. She crys out in pain and Felicity throws her head back breaking her nose and then delivers a right cross knocking alena out
Adrian grabbing his sword and slashes at him, Oliver barely misses it and when Adrian goes with a up to down diagonal slash, Oliver grabs his arms delivering a high knee to his chest. Knocking the air out of him, quickly disarming him, Adrian recovers and quickly delivers a strong push kick pushing Oliver back two feet, and then throws a ninga star at him, all the sudden Felicity gets infront of Oliver getting a star to her shoulder, Oliver suprised but recovers when Adrian pulls out and throws another Ninja star, Oliver quickly wraps an arm around her waste and turns around with Oliver protectively sheilding Felicity and she is yelling "Oliver don't not for me please I can't lose you"
Oliver replies " I can't lose you either"
Felicitys heart swells at the reciprocation
The ninja star stabs Oliver in his upper right back, he quickly grabs it and throws it at chase who blocks it with his sword. Oliver quickly stands painfully the lidocaine is running low, he has to finish this fast
Adrian then yells "well as much as I love to see monsters love each other ya still both monsters especially you, don't you remember what we learned with the time we spent together?"
Oliver says "yes, but I'll stay alive long enough to stop you"
Adrian smiles even more attacks with slash to the right, Oliver backs away but doesn't fully miss it, carving a quarter of an inche, but Oliver grimaces and delivers a right jab to his face, chase drops his sword and punches Oliver back, but he blocks it, kicking behind Adrian's knee forcing him to kneel down and then puts chase into a headlock. Adrian then says "do it Oliver show her the monster we both know you are"
Oliver struggles for a moment and says "no I refuse to be that monster anymore" quickly chokes Adrian out then injects him with 2 tranq darts
Oliver with the adrenaline of his body fade with the lidocaine also gone and bleeding he collapses. Felicity immediately catches him but he's heavy with her wound making it more painful but perseveres lowering to the floor with her arms around him and says "Oliver please stay with me Oliver"
Oliver then says "I have to tell you something"
Felicity interrupts and says "you can tell me later, just please stay awake"
Oliver then says " I might not have a later"
Felicity trembling with worry and tears in her eyes says "don't you dare talk like that"
Oliver with a hand on her cheek then says "I need to tell you the truth,... the reason I didn't want you to join helix not because of you or a lack of trust, ...it's because of me ..., Its not about not trusting you, I'll always trust you, i dont trust myself... i couldnt let my ...darkness,... corrupt... you" he passes out
Felicity tears flowing down her face says "Oliver no don't, stay with me, you said I won't lose, I'll be damned If I lose you now"
She pulls out Oliver's phone and dials John telling him to get Oliver and her out of here
John with the team immediately drives there and picks them up taking them to Argus . And while argus detains Adrian chase and Alena
Felicity hasn't stopped touching Oliver since she dialed John, when the doctors are about to do surgery Felicity hesitates on letting Oliver go, John says "Felicity it'll be fine, Oliver is strong but we have to let these doctors and nurses do there job, and you should be checked out by a doctor"
She nods finally letting go.Then gets stitched up, then goes back into the waiting room Felicity finally gets a good look at the team there bruised and battered, thea sees Felicity's curiosity and says "I'm sorry it took us so long for us to get to you, we were fighting Thalia, Evelyn and her students"
Felicity is suprised but says "you got to us just in time at least I hope"
Thea clearly frustrated says "I can't believe Oliver did that, he said he'll be fine but no he ran out half cocked what was he thinking"
John sighs "It's who he is thea if he is able and when one of us are in trouble Oliver would stop at nothing to help"
Felicity says "its one of the things I love about him but also makes me want to hit him"
Thea, john and the rest of the team laugh as renee, curtis and dinah head out for the night and ask to be updated. John says "Felicity you should go to, your tired and held captive for 12 hrs please get some sleep"
Felicity says "I can't leave not yet, Oliver has to live John, I can't lose him"
Thea then says "okay then sleep here and we will wake you up if there's any news"
Felicity nods passing out.
A few hours later a doctor says Oliver is out of surgery and conscious and ready for vistors. She barely says thank you. Once she gets to the room and sees Oliver sitting in the gurney smiling at truly smiling. John and thea also enter the room
She feels instant relief and she says "Hi"
Oliver replies "hi"
Felicity then asks "what were you thinking? You attempted- she tails off and says " why would you do that and go into danger after it?"
Thea also agrees "do you have any idea how worried I was? Oliver your my only family left"
John then says "we were worried man, talk to us about this stuff I don't want to have to bury another fallen brother"
Oliver feels incredibly guilty and replies" the attempt was because I felt like I failed you all, that I corrupted you with my darkness and I... I couldn't live knowing in doing so I'm not only hurting but also corrupting people I care about, I felt like chase was right and I wanted to be the hero you all knew I could be"
Felicity in awe and incredibly guilty *I should've known Oliver would take it like this*
Thea then sighs and says " we all care about you and it hurt us hearing you say those things about yourself, even tho I'm 22 full grown woman I still need my overprotective big brother in my life, and believe me when I say all of our lives are better off with you in it"
John agrees saying "we all need you Oliver just like you need us, you don't corrupt us you inspire us to be better and not only us this whole city is inspired by you and i dont just mean the green arrow"
Oliver with tears in his eyes says "I'm starting to believe you, but I'm going to need time to be worthy of wearing that hood again, and I can only do that with all of your help"
Thea says "we wouldn't have it any other way"
Oliver smiles even more and asks "can me and Felicity have the room?"
Thea nods with a quick careful hug and beads our. John give Oliver a fist bump and says "call us if you need anything" and heads out.
With Oliver and felicity in the room, they both start saying "I'm sor- they both laugh and Felicity says "let me go first"
Oliver nods. Felicity says " Oliver I'm sorry-
Oliver Is about to say something but Felicity says "please let me oliver- he nods and she continues "I'm sorry for going after Cayden James and without telling you, I should've realized how much it was going to hurt you, you said you think your corrupted me with your darkness but Oliver, you inspire me. That instance I was willing to do anything to get Chase not only justice for Billy but justice for you, Oliver he broke you more then I have ever seen and I wanted to make him pay, I just wish I realized I was smart enough to deduce they were working together, I played right in there hand" feeling tears in her eyes and shame, regret in her heart
Oliver in awe and grief and he says " Felicity I'm sorry for not understanding with helix and for Billy he was a good man,- Felicity is about to say something, oliver says " please let me" Felicity nods and he continues "I'm also sorry I wasn't there for you then, I know I wouldn't have been the person you wanted to see. But I should've tried anyway, even tho we arent together any more we still are partners, and partners are there for each other.
So I can tell you feel like my attempts were on you. They weren't they were on my demons and insecurities that chase brought to the surface and to be honest apart of me still believes him and I don't think that's ever going to change, but I do know that I want to continue to live for the team for thea, for William, for you and continue to help this city. So please Felicity we are partners talk to me, i still want to hear you tell me about your day"
Felicity is in tears but smiles and in awe of this man that she still is very much in love with and says " I will Oliver, I should've told you about helix I just thought you had to much on your plate and I was afraid of how would you react and I knew you'd disagree"
Oliver says "There will always be room on my plate for you, if its important if it's hurting you or you just dont see any other way talk to me. yes we might not always agree but that's okay, and it's important to hear about those disagreements that's one of the reasons why teams are so important, you call each other out and understand each other, we help each other that's what teammates do, its what partners do"
Felicity smiles even more and says "thank you for being understanding about this and I can respect that and I promise to talk to you about stuff like this, but this is a 2 way street"
Oliver smiles and says " I wouldn't have it any other way. Felicity I meant what said in foundry, i still love you"
Felicity not expecting that is shocked. Oliver takes it as rejection and says" its okay of you don't fe-
Felicity interrupts "Oliver I'm in love with you, I was just so suprised when you said it back there plus ya nearly died."
Oliver says "I should be used to nearly dying, but I truly didn't think I would make it but I was ok with that"
Felicity says "please don't ever get used to it. But Oliver what about that stuff you said you have to live for?"
Oliver says "oh Felicity I don't want to die, what I meant was as long you were safe and I said what I needed you to hear that's all that mattered"
Felicity concerned but visibly less worried "you really scared me back there, I had the smallest taste of what you been through the smallest, you were right I was becoming like you not in the heroic muscular way but the way you thought you were since chase captured you a monster. But you Oliver queen pulled me back from the brink and I understand why you didn't tell me about William."
Oliver smiles with tears in his eyes and says " I dont deserve you"
Felicity smiles and says "I dont deserve you"
Oliver replies "we can not deserve each other together, only if you want"
Felicity smiling happier then she been in a long time kisses Oliver on the lips, Oliver reciprocates immediately, deepening the kiss, they only pull back when the need for air is to great, leaning there foreheads against each other. Oliver happier then he's been in a long time says "when I'm good enough to be the green arrow again, I was hoping you can help me find william?"
Felicity almost frowns wanting to say your good enough now but instead says "of course I would"
Oliver almost sensing it says "His life will be better with you in it just like mine, so only if you want" immediately Felicity kisses him saying yes without words and once again breathless Oliver pats the side of his gurney and moves over allowing Felicity to cuddle up next to him and she says "you better be the green arrow soon I can't wait to meet him"
Oliver laughs and says "with your help ill be there sooner then youd think" Felicity smiles more and snuggles closer
As they let sleep take them. Oliver is so grateful that those two attempts didn't work. With the woman in his arms always worth living for , and Felicity so happy she's in Oliver's arms and grateful that he's alive and happier then shes been in along time. Both thinking theyre undeserving of each other's love but will grow to realize together they always did deserve each other