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Yuder woke up to a gentle breeze blowing inside the bedroom through the window. The curtains fluttered and the sweet smell of flowers and mud hit his nose. Yuder sat up stretching his arms and yawning.

Looking beside him he slightly frowned, not finding his husband next to him. Yuder pouted unknowingly thinking that the enchanted honeymoon was actually over.

“I have to look over many things now that I am back”

Yuder mentally prepared himself for a long and tiring day and got off the bed. However the moment his foot touched the ground a sense of nausea hit him. Holding the bedside table for support, Yuder stabilised his wavering legs.

Yuder, whose mood was already sour, felt annoyance and anger creeping up. Still taking a deep breath he went towards the bathroom only to find himself hunched over the sink vomiting all the food he ate last night.

‘Ugh…so annoying’

Yuder feeling overwhelmed quickly took a bath to remove the reek of vomit from him. Though even after the bath his nose did not stop picking even the minor scents which really made him want to punch a hole in the wall.

Yuder quickly wore his uniform and went to the attached office of the commander.

All the annoyance Yuder had in him was dissipated when he smelled the calming scent of the blond man who was currently drowned in rows and rows of paperwork.

“Commander…”

Yuder called out though it unintentionally came out like a whine. Kishiar looked up from the document and smiled at his assistant, his wife.

“Good afternoon wifey”

He grinned. Yuder, who had heard the term all throughout their honeymoon, still could not get used to it and did not realize the redness that came to his pale cheeks.

‘wait…afternoon?’

“Did I really sleep that long…? You should have woken me up. We have a lot of work to do”

Kishiar just smiled at him getting up from his chair and going towards him. Holding the shorter man's face in his hands Kishiar kissed the soft red lips and then pressed their foreheads together.

“You are not feeling well. Even last night you weren't eating properly and you vomited just now didn't you?”

Yuder did not say anything long, getting used to the blond man reading him easily. In response Yuder hugged him tightly, rubbing his face on his chest.

“Hmm…I won't ask you to rest cause I know you would not want to rest after such a long holiday. So just listen to my little request and visit Enon okay and don't overwork yourself.”

Yuder nodded at his words but still held him tightly, unwilling to let go. After some time he pulled away.

“Can I have your…handkerchief…?”

Kishiar who was a bit confused by the request blinked at him but handed him his handkerchief. Yuder without any words put in his own pocket and went out.

‘Eh…?’

~~

Yuder went to Enon just as Kishiar said but Enon just shouted at him saying he must have ‘overworked’ during his honeymoon and ate a lot of the sweets Kishiar always gave him.

Yuder not understanding his rambles just nodded and then went to the training grounds. The moment he stepped outside the scent of hundreds of people and things hit his nose.

Swallowing back a retch, Yuder walked towards the group of members training. The members all smiled at seeing him quickly surrounding him saying a lot of things at the same time.

Yuder blinked at them about to say something when Gakane came from behind him placing his arm around his shoulders.

“Yuder! We missed you. How was your break?”

Gakane asked but Yuder wasn't even able to hear him feeling an overpowering scent of an alpha hitting his nose. He quickly brought his hands to his mouth.

Controlling himself, Yuder distanced himself from the members.

“Please one at a time”
“Are you not feeling well, Yuder?”

The members asked and Gakane quickly stepped back. Kanna and Ever arrived.

“I'm fine, just a little…tired. Please continue what you were saying.”

Gakane nodded and smiled once again.

“Have you eaten? We are going to have lunch now you should join us”

The members enthusiastically nodded at him.

“And you can tell us how your holidays were! Ooo I am so excited I got to know you went to a few countries in the east!”

Kanna enthusiastically said. Yuder calmed himself and started accounting his travels from his honeymoon while on their way for lunch.

Sitting down Yuder held back the urge to vomit throughout the lunch as the smell of oily and greasy foods surrounded him. He picked up a piece of bread to gnaw at it.

“Yuder why are you only eating bread? Here have some-”

Gakane smiled and told only Yuder to cut him off.

“Nono I am fine…please continue whatever you were saying”

Yuder said, trying to distract himself from the immense nausea. However he could not hold it for long because the moment they got out of the food hall Yuder ran to the nearest bathroom and found himself emptying out his stomach again.

He washed his face with the cold water and looked at his reflection in the mirror. He noticed his pale face and frowned.

‘What is wrong with me today? Did I eat something bad…?’

Yuder sighed and went back to the training grounds. Looking at some of the recently added members training he frowned at their poor performance.

“You all have really been slacking…what is this poor sword posture..?”

He pointed out to a member who was training with dummies. Yuder picked up a training sword and swung it.

“I would like to see all your progress over the past months.”

The new members who had only heard about the devil trainer of the cavalry could not help but shake in fear. Finally one member gathered courage to attack only to be on the ground before he could even clash his sword with Yuder.

“Your stance is wrong and attacks are so slow and predictable even a child can dodge them. Next”

One by one members tried to attack on the black haired assistant only to be on the ground in defeat. Yuder, who was expecting an okay performance, found his annoyance through the roof at the moment.

“Give me a pen and a few papers. I am changing the training hours from 6 hours to 8 hours and every week from now me or deputy commander Ever will take this test again. Should you fail this horribly again…well you know the consequences.”

Yuder said in a mild tone, writing down training plans for sword users. He couldn't help but sigh, feeling extremely annoyed even though things happened like this before he wasn't this annoyed.

Yuder then proceeded to look over the new training module lest anything wrong occurred. Leaning against a tree, Yuder felt his eyes getting heavy and unknowingly closed them.

However he was startled awake when a member called him out for help. Yuder, who was extremely tired, lost his footing and fell in surprise. Gakane and Ever who were also training near by quickly went towards Yuder when they saw him collapse

“Ugh my head…”

Yuder rubbed his forehead feeling it throb. He was quickly surrounded by the members who expressed their concerns. One brought some water for him to drink which Yuder quickly drank.

“Are you okay Yuder? Since you have arrived you look really tired. Why don't you go and rest and leave the rest of the training to us, hmm?”

Ever said as she fanned him with her notepad. Yuder whose head was spinning continuously nodded and got up to go back.

On his way back he made a stop at a bathroom to vomit again but only a little bit of stomach acid came out. As he walked up the stairs to the commander’s office he felt extremely overwhelmed from the nausea, throbbing in his head, pain in his feet etc.

He knocked on the office door mentally hoping that Nathan wouldn't be there. When he heard ‘come in’ Yuder entered. Thankfully fate has some pity on him as Kishiar was alone in the room.

The blond haired duke who was busy working since morning had slight exhaustion on his face but that too seemed to vanish seeing Yuder.

“Oh Yuder you really are a sight for sore eyes.”

He smiled at him but Yuder who had been holding all of the discomforts he had since he woke felt his defenses breaking in front of his beloved. Holding back tears he went towards Kishiar and sat on his lap.

Kishiar who noticed the bad mood of his beloved was about to ask what was wrong when he felt wetness on his neck.

“Yuder what ha- darling?”

He pulled back from the hug only to find a pair of violet eyes shimmering with tears.

“Oh my what happened…?”

Kishiar asked gently, rubbing his cheek. Yuder finally let out a soft sob as tears ran down his cheeks.

Kishiar felt his heart break. He picked Yuder in his arms and went to sit on the couch. Yuder hiccuped and rubbed his face on his chest.

“Akit…”
“Hmm? Yes darling…what happened? Did you have a dream of the past?”

Kishiar who had almost never seen his beloved cry felt his heart clench hearing the soft and quiet sobs.

“Hurts…everything…I ate a little bit of food but I vomited. My head is spinning. My legs and back hurt”

Yuder whimpered out and hugged Kishiar more tightly. Kishiar heard him and nodded in response and gently massaged his waist.

“Ok…Should I call Enon hmm? You might just have eaten something bad last night okay. Here, would you like to eat some cookies?”

Yuder looked at the cookies offered to him and took it in his hands and nibbles on it. Kishiar called Nathan who was shocked to see the position his master was sitting. Kishiar asked him to call Enon which made him realise that Yuder might be sick.

Enon entered the room with an angry expression but when he saw Yuder’s teary face he felt his anger melting to concern.

“What happened? Is he injured”
“No not injured, he says that eating anything makes him vomit and his entire body hurts. Also he has constant nausea and head pain”

Kishiar gently caressing his darling's head which helped Yuder calm down told Enon who nodded in response.

“Let him go so I can check on him.”

Kishiar pulled away from the hug and kissed both of his tear soaked cheeks. As Yuder got off his lap a sudden wave of dizziness hit him causing him to fall. Kishiar quickly held him before his head could hit the table.

“Yuder!”

Enon and Kishiar said at the same time. Kishiar made Yuder sit on the couch and Nathan handed him a glass of water.

Yuder with blurry eyes took the water but could only drink a few sips when he again felt the overwhelming nausea hit him. Placing his hand over his mouth he ran towards the bathroom but because of dizziness hit his head on the sink during the process.

Kishiar rubbed his back watching Yuder gag out the cookies he ate earlier along with stomach acid.

By the time he was done Yuder collapsed in Kishiar’s arms letting out a quiet sob. His head which was already throbbing started to hurt even more.

Kishiar rubbed the spot where Yuder hit his head watching it slightly swell up.

Holding him in bridal style Kishiar brought Yuder to the bedroom gently placing him on the bed. Enon first gave him a pain killer and waited before doing any check up.

Kishiar sitting next to Yuder gently patted his head and spread his scent to calm him.

Yuder, who was feeling extremely tired, fell asleep quickly and finally the frown on his face eased. Kishiar worryingly caressed his cheek and then looked at Enon.

“You can check on him now”

Enon nodded and then started his check up. Measuring his pulse Enon realized the messed up energy inside of him.

“His body energies seemed to be tangled. But there are two energies in him? They both are of same form but of different in type”

Enon said thinking deeply when suddenly a thought hit him which made him smack his own head. He raised Yuder’s shirt and kept his hand on his lower belly and then smacked his head again.

Kishiar watching this blinked confusingly.

“What happened? Did you find out what's wrong with him?”
“At what time did you wake up today?”
“...? Just before sunrise since I had a lot of work. How is that relevant to h-”
“When did he wake up?”
“Little past noon”
“Did you two recently…ahem…did that? By recent I mean about 2-4 weeks before”
“...we did…do you want to know the frequency aswell…?”
“No! Absolutely not keep it to yourself.”

Enon pushed Yuder's shirt down and sat down on the couch before continuing

“Did either of you have your heat during that time”
“Both of us actually. It overlapped…”
“Oh wow…ahem well how to tell you this…”

Enon scratched his forehead and then took a deep breath and said

“He's pregnant…”
“...”

Kishiar, who seemed to have been frozen in time, just stared at Enon. Nathan who was standing near the door was equally shocked. And Enon, though speaking, was actually more shocked than both of them.

“Commander, do I get some…sweets? For the good news?”

Nathan said after a long time not knowing how to break this silence but Kishiar did not respond. He just turned his head towards the sleeping beauty and then started laughing.

“Oh my seems like your master has finally lost it”

Enon said but he could not hide happiness on his face either. He was going to be an uncle…!

“Nathan sweets won't be enough, I need to host a banquet. But don't tell the cavalry just now let's wait till tomorrow”

With a big smile on his face Kishiar kissed Yuder's hand.

“However, you need to be extremely careful with him now. Since this brat doesn't know how to take care of himself and will walk in danger without even thinking. Also make sure you stay with him and don't go away for a long time”

Kishiar looked at Enon and nodded. Only recently have there been a few successful male omegas pregnancies which were only possible by taking very good care of the omega. Yuder , who was not at all careful with himself, might just need constant supervision.

“The reason why his condition got so bad is because after a long time of staying together all the time, suddenly both of you weren't. As far as I have read in research papers you provided me for the omegas, they need to be with their partner or as at least have their scent on him”

Kishiar frowned to himself realising that it might be his fault. Sighing, Kishiar nodded and asked Nathan to handle some of the letters for the rest of the day.

“When he wakes up give him something light to eat”

Enon said before leaving. Kishiar took off his coat and laid next to Yuder keeping his hand on his belly. A smile came on his lips feeling overwhelmed by the love and affection he was feeling for his partner right now.

After about an hour Yuder woke up feeling significantly better. Kishiar who was lying next to him just admiring Yuder's face smiled when he saw him wake up. He got up and connected their lips together.

“How are you feeling now?”

Yuder snuggled closer to him burying his face into his chest. He muffled out a ‘better’ and started drawing patterns on his chest.

“That's good. Would you like to eat some light soup? You haven't eaten properly today…”

Kishiar said, patting his head. Yuder hummed in response and moved back thinking Kishiar might need to get up and get the soup but instead he called for Nathan who quickly went and got the soup.

Yuder stared at the soup and then tried to get off the bed to eat on the sofa when Kishiar stopped him and made him sit on his lap.

“It's okay, you can eat here.”

Kishiar said, picking up a spoonful of soup and holding it in front of his mouth.

Yuder pouted at being treated like this but he accepted it. Yuder ate the warm soup feeling the past uncomfortable fading away.

After finishing the soup Kishiar placed the bowl on the side table. He placed a kiss on Yuder's cheeks and hugged him.

“Yuder you make me so happy it's maddening”

Yuder got confused by his words and pulled away from the hug.

“What..?”

Kishiar instead of replying placed his hand on Yuder's belly.

“Why are you troubling your mama so much? Hmm?”

Yuder fell silent at his words just staring at Kishiar's face. He placed his hands over Kishiar's feeling unnatural warmth creeping up his brain.

“Am I…?”

Kishiar nodded, kissing him lovingly.

“Enon said for us to stay together to avoid what happened today.”

Kishiar said, running his hands up and down Yuder's back. Yuder hugged him for a long time and gently touched belly.

He imagined his past self which stood before the gallows. How broken he was then and how whole he felt now. Pulling back he stared at the face of the man who pieced him back together putting his own pieces so Yuder can enjoy this current feeling.

“I love you”

Yuder said and Kishiar smiled like a child kissing his entire face before replying.

“I love you too”

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Kishiar blocked the ray sunshine piercing his eyes the moment he woke up. He used his powers to close the curtains while burying Yuder's face in his chest.

Blinking a few more times Kishiar opened his eyes finally and stared at the sleeping man in his arms. Looking at the calm face of his beloved Kishiar smiled.

Breathing in their mixed scent Kishiar remembered last night's events.

Yuder was pregnant.

He was going to be a dad.

In the past because of his broken vessel he could not have children and since childhood he had thought that he wasn't going to live for long so continuing his bloodline never crossed his mind. After all not even one Peletta Duke ever had an heir.

But now here he was in the future with his vessel healed, his brother also completely healthy and now they will be having a little one soon.

‘I do need to take very good care of him from now on’

Kishiar thought to himself remembering how sick Yuder got yesterday.

‘Ah! I had dinner with His Majesty today. I guess I will give him this good news as well’

His train of thoughts stopped when he felt the man in his arms move. Yuder hugged him tighter as he yawned. Then he slowly opened his eyes to find a pair of red eyes staring at him with affection.

Yuder gently smiled back.

“Good morning Com-mmh”

Yuder was cut off by a pair of soft lips followed by stubborn tongue licking inside his mouth. After kissing for sometime Yuder pulled back taking a deep breath.

“We are late…”

Yuder said, looking outside the window. The sun was shining bright meaning it was probably late morning. But Kishiar seemed to not care as he asked if Yuder wanted to stay in bed for longer.

Yuder shook his head at the tempting offer. There was, after all, a lot of work left.

Kishiar nodded when Yuder insisted on not staying up longer in bed and got up. But before he could get off the bed he saw Yuder bolt towards the bathroom with his hand on his mouth.

‘Crap I forgot about this…’

Kishiar thought as he ran behind Yuder. Hunched over the sink, Yuder vomited out last night's dinner while Kishiar soothed him by rubbing his back.

After he was done Yuder went back to the bedroom taking a deep breath while Kishiar gave him water to drink.

“Don't run suddenly when you feel like vomiting, just vomit on the floor so it can be cleaned up. Running might hurt you like yesterday.”

Yuder however frowned at his words.

“I don't like making someone clean again and again after me.”

“Then I'll do it”

Yuder blinked at him as if Kishiar just asked him to do a crime.

“What? Doubting my cleaning abilities? I might have been a prince but I can assure nobody in a thousand year of Orr dynasty would come close to my cleaning prowess"

Kishiar said grinning but Yuder dismissed his words quickly.

They took a warm bath and changed into their uniforms. While buttoning Yuder's shirt Kishiar had a thought.

“I will commission a tailor to make maternity clothes for you”

Kishiar smiled as the image of a heavily pregnant Yuder crossed his mind. He chuckled imagining him waddling which made Yuder frown.

“What are you thinking?”

“Nothing. According to Enon you are about 3 weeks now and will start showing at about two months. Also he ask- no ordered me to cut your working hours by half for now and give you maternity leave for the later months.”

“Half might be a stretch…I can still work just fine”

Kishiar eyed him and then flicked his head jokingly.

“Hey! :(”

“I don't want to ever see you in that condition. Ever”

Yuder looked down but nodded anyway.

“Are you going to tell the cavalry today? Also his majesty invited us for dinner today.”

Yuder hugged Kishiar once he finished buttoning his shirt. Nosing at his neck, Yuder took deep breaths taking his husbands scent in.

Kishiar smiled, loving the more vulnerable side of his beloved. Yuder who would barely show his emotions even in front of him was now behaving like a small kitten.

“Hmm…remember don't stay in the sun for long and keep taking breaks. Also Enon said to visit him today so let's go after your shift together. And…yes I will be visiting you from time to time making sure you are not overworking cause if you are…”

Kishiar said in a mocking threatening voice at which Yuder giggled.

After a final Goodbye kiss in the office Yuder went out thinking who he should tell first. He thought of telling Kanna and Gakane since they were his friends from the start and both of them might get offended if they were not the first ones to be informed. Also they both would spread so he wouldn't have to worry about telling many people individually.

~~

“YOU ARE WHAT??”

Gakane, who was with Ever and Kanna preparing for some mission, shouted in surprise while both the ladies hugged Yuder tightly. A bit too tight because Yuder felt like he couldn't breathe.

After a long hug the three of them congratulated him. Yuder excused himself when he saw them discussing a party they would be throwing for him.

On his way to infirmary, Yuder saw Nipollen seated near a window. Sensing Yuder, the kitty went towards him and started to rub itself against Yuder’s leg. Yuder picked him up and smiled hearing it purr.

However he realized soon that Nipollen was a bit too clingy today. Not wanting to leave Yuder alone he gently scratched at his clothes when Yuder tried to put him down.

Yuder sighed and decided to carry the little furry with him for now. Stopping in front of the infirmary, Yuder took a deep breath and knocked. Soon a beaming Lusan opened the door who quickly hugged Yuder saying congratulations.

‘It seems like Enon has already told him…’

“I am so happy Sir Aile! Oh Nippy? Is he sick?”

Lusan asked as gently petted him.

“No. He just wouldn't leave me so I had to bring him with me. Is Enon here?”

“Yes I am brat! come get in quickly”

Lusan laughed and let Yuder in. He saw Enon sitting near a pestle and mortar making medicines. The moment he saw Yuder the grey haired man got up and without wasting a second pulled Yuder's cheeks.

“Oh my god I leave you alone for 3 months. ONLY THREE MONTHS! And you come back pregnant.”

Yuder looked down at Nipollen not knowing what to say or do. Enon after a long time left his cheeks and then forced Yuder to sit on the bed.

“I hope you are no longer working your usual hours. Also did you have nausea or vomiting today aswell?”

Yuder nodded in response.

“Hmm, eat lighter foods….wait did you have breakfast?”

“No, I didn't feel like eating…”

“Okay then I will give you a diet to see if this helps in reducing it though as I studied from other omega pregnancies so far nausea and vomiting will be a common occurrence. For now it would be best to avoid meats and greasy foods. Stick to rice and greens…”

Yuder nodded along at his words, his hands unconsciously petting the cat in his arms.

Enon then kept his hand on Yuder's lower belly, surprising him.

“Hmm from what I can feel with the baby's soul, they are healthy. How's your sleep cycle?”

“I sleep a lot…like 7-8 hours…and I still feel tired”

“7-8 hours is normal sleeping time dumb. You are tired because now you need more than 7-8 hours. If you are not able to sleep I could give some really mild sleeping pills…but I doubt they would affect a beast like you…”

Yuder frowned at his words. He was about to speak up against the blatant insult but was cut off with a stomach growl

Enon laughed and got up shooing Yuder away so he could have his meal.

 

Yuder decided to go back to the Commander’s office because the smell of food in the Cavalry eating area was…well overwhelming for him now.

On his way back, Nipollen left his arms to go sit under a tree and Yuder petted it one last time before going back.

Yuder knocked on the door and quickly entered. Kishiar was sitting on the sofa drinking tea while going through some letters. Nathan was beside him as well.

Kishiar who was seriously reading the letter beamed up seeing Yuder. Even though it had been less than an hour they both had been apart, to Yuder it felt like they were away for hours.

Nathan, who had been there when Enon told about his pregnancy, couldn't help but feel a little awkward not knowing how to approach him.

“Congratulations…”

Nathan said, hiding the awkwardness in his voice. Yuder smiled slightly and thanked him.

“You are too stiff for someone who is about to become an uncle in a few months…”

Kishiar said with a deadpan expression. Yuder sighed remembering Enon’s reaction. Well there are two types of people in the world..wait no three types. How could he forget his majesty who still doesn't know.

“Yuder do you feel like eating something now?”

Yuder hummed while sitting next to Kishiar.

“Enon said I should avoid meat and greasy foods.”

Kishiar nodded in response and placed a kiss on Yuder's forehead.

“I will have something prepared. Do you want to eat some pastry until then?”

Yuder shook his head. Kishiar feeling a little disappointed nodded and then ordered Nathan to have the chef prepare food for him.

“Tell the chef to make vegetarian food and also send some fresh fruits.”

Nathan nodded and left. Yuder kept his head on Kishiar's chest.

“Why didn't you get some meat for yourself? There's no need for you to eat the same things as me…”

Yuder asked to which Kishiar laughed and pecked his nose.

“You get nauseous from even the smell of food and then expect me to eat meat next to you?”

Yuder wasn't able to reply to that.

“Did you tell the other members?”

Yuder hummed hands fidgeting with Kishiar's shirt button unconsciously.

“They were shocked at first but then congratulated me…they are going to throw a party.”

Kishiar laughed, caressing Yuder’s hair. The assistant couldn't help but feel quite overwhelmed by everything happening around him all of a sudden. He was the center of attention for many now and he didn't like it that much.

“Darling? Are you tired?”

“No…I just…Nevermind. You said His majesty invited us for dinner…”

“Yes. They both want to meet us after our long holiday. Also my brother stated he and his empress didn't get to spend time with their new brother-in-law. Can you believe it? They are accusing me of keeping you to myself.”

“And are you?”

“Am I what?”

“Keeping me to yourself?”

“Well…”

Kishiar was at a loss of words. Previously his darling assistant wouldn't have dared to question him like this but after years of constant love and cherishment it seems like his loyal and obedient assistant was also rebelling.

“I am so misunderstood in this household. I am just a simple being who wants to love and cherish my duchess but it seems like I have to wait in line for it. Oh how cruel this world is”

Yuder frowned at the sudden emotional speech from Kishiar who was currently deep in his melodramatic feelings.

“I didn't say-”

“Oh are you apologising? Very well I shall accept in exchange for 10- No 20 kisses.”

Yuder got up from Kishiar’s chest and sat on the sofa cross legged.

“Sir Nathan might come with the food soon. I am not doing 20…!”

Kishiar laughed at the complaint pulling Yuder closer and onto his chest.

“Hmm then may I talk..to the baby…?”

Yuder was taken aback by the request. Blush crept up his cheeks as he tore his gaze away from Kishiar.

“T-they cannot hear you…”

“It's fine. I just want to talk to my little bean”

“Bean?”

“Hah…yes little adorable bean who is going to be as cute as their mother”

Yuder became red at his words and Kishiar, not getting any more rejection pulled Yuder on his lap. Slowly raising his shirt, Kishiar kept his hand on Yuder's belly.

“N-not there”

“Hmm?”

Yuder placed his hand over Kishiar and adjusted it so that it was directly above his womb where Enon had touched.

“They are here..”

“Oh! I see. Well hello there my little bean. This is Daddy, I hope that you grow up quickly and come out of Mama soon so we can play a lot. But also don't trouble your Mama a lot okay, even though he is very strong but still don't be too naughty.”

Yuder pouted at his words and buried his face in Kishiar's chest.

Just then Nathan knocked on the door before rolling in a food cart filled with different food filled with vegetables and fruits along with breads and rice. Yuder not feeling repulsed by it felt his mouth almost water and his stomach growl.

Kishiar smiled seeing his beloved eager to eat for the first time. He took a plate to take out some rice and vegetable stir fry for Yuder. Though the food looked simple it tasted delicious and Yuder who had not been able to eat anything properly since yesterday couldn't help but devour it.

~~

Yuder woke up to soft kisses on his nose, lips and cheeks. Kishiar was crouched in front of him, hands gently caressing his head. Seeing him awake Kishiar smiled and placed one more kiss on his lips.

“Good Evening my dear…how are you feeling now hmm?”

Yuder hummed in response, slowly getting up and sitting on the sofa he was sleeping on. After their breakfast Yuder had wanted to go back to work but Kishiar insisted for him to stay for some more time in case he gets nauseous after eating.

That some time however turned into the entire afternoon since Yuder in Kishiar’s warm embrace and surrounded by their mixed scents fell asleep.

Feeling annoyed for sleeping so much, Yuder huffed out. Kishiar smiled at him as he sat next to him and pulled the pouting man in his arms.

“Hmm, are you angry because you fell asleep?”

Yuder nodded though he could not deny the fact that he was feeling super refreshed.

“Well don't be angry about it. See you woke up just in time for dinner at the palace.”

Yuder hummed, rubbing his face in his neck. After 5 minutes of cuddling, they got up. Kishiar finished his paperwork while Yuder went to take a bath.

~~

The carriage stopped in front of the gates of the Palace and Kishiar got off. Turning back he offered his hand to his dear wife who took it getting off the carriage slowly. The moment Yuder stepped down he took a deep breath to shake off the nausea he got from sitting in the carriage.

“Are you feeling better, would you like to stroll around for sometime…?”

Yuder shook his feelings a lot better just by getting off the carriage. Kishiar gently rubbed his back and Yuder took a few more deep breaths to ease himself.

“I am fine now..let's go”

Yuder said to which Kishiar nodded and smiled. Once inside Yuliver greeted them with a smile and took them to the dining room.

Sitting there was the Empress, she was wearing a lavender dress which made her pale skin and light hair color glow. The lady was busy in her book about herbs when she saw the couple walk in. Closing her book she got and smiled at them.

“Ah! It has been so long since I last saw you two, oh my Yuder you look pale… are you not feeling well. Yuliver please get some water for him”

“Ah I am fine your highness I just felt a little nauseous in the carriage ride but I am fine now…”

Yuder said but still accepted the water. They soon sat on the table with Yuder and Kishiar seated on one side and Empress seated on the other while a seat remained empty next to her.

“His majesty is just finishing up his work and will join us shortly”

The Empress said and gave her book to a servant to keep it in her room. Kishiar pulled out a small pouch from his coat giving it to the Empress.

“These are some dried herbs you requested from the Western Countries.”

The Empress smiled, taking the pouch to see the herbs. After taking a look at them she thanked Kishiar and gave them to Yuliver to keep it safe.

Just then the door opened and a man with blonde hair and red eyes identical to Kishiar walked in. The Emperor looked healthy. His cheeks were no longer sunken in and his eyes were no longer dull like that of a dying man. Instead his face showed with brilliance befitting a Sovereign of an Empire.

Kishiar smiled at seeing his brother who in turn also smiled back. Taking a seat beside the Empress he took off his heavy coat and gave it to a servant.

“Ah Yuder, I hope you are well. How were your holidays?”

“They were great, Your Majesty..”

Yuder, still feeling slightly nauseous, gave a short reply. The Emperor smiled at the reply as he asked the servants to serve the dinner.

“My older brother won't even ask if I enjoyed my holidays. I know my dear wife is very much adorable but is a little love from my own brother too much to ask for?”

Kishiar said, shaking his head making the Empress chuckle. The Emperor just sighed at his brother's fitting dramatic attitude.

While both the brothers enjoyed their banter Yuder was fighting back nausea as food was rolled into the room. Taking a deep breath he closed his eyes trying to focus on anything else but it didn't seem like it would help.

Finally when the food started to be placed on the table did Yuder pull on Kishiar's sleeve to gather his attention.

“Commander…”

Kishiar stopped his conversation to look at Yuder and immediately realized what was wrong seeing his pale face.

He quickly got up taking Yuder outside the room in hopes it would soothe his overwhelmed nerves but it didn't help as Yuder gagged keeping a hand on his mouth.

Yuliver guided them to the bathroom where Yuder quickly hunched over the sink vomiting out whatever he had eaten during the day.

Kishiar rubbed his back as he asked Yuliver for a glass of water which the butler quickly brought.

After Yuder was done he stepped out of the bathroom taking deep breaths before taking the glass of water from Kishiar.

“My is he that unwell, you both should have stayed back then. Wait Yuliver fetch the imperial physician quic-”

“Ah…that won't be needed”

Yuder said to the very concerned looking Keilusa. Yuder dabbed on his mouth with his handkerchief and looked at Kishiar to continue.

“I wanted to tell you both at dessert, well I guess now is fine…ahem…Hyung?”

The Emperor could not hide his shocked look hearing his younger brother call him that after a long time.

“What happened? Is Yuder really that sick?”

“Hyung you…are going to be an uncle..!”

Keilusa and the Empress next to him both blinked at Kishiar who had a huge smile on his face. While Yuder had turned his face away feeling embarrassed.

Empress was the first to recover from the shock as she went to Yuder and hugged him tightly laughing in joy.

“Oh my goodness, I am so happy for you two.”

Yuder smiled softly and hugged her back. Keilusa also smiled brightly and hugged Kishiar, patting him on the back.

Soon they went back to the dining room with joy on everyone's faces. Yuliver brought cake for everyone to celebrate the news.

 

“Ah Yuliver ask the chef to prepare some milder foods for Yuder”

Yuliver nodded and left.

Everyone with their spirits lifted now chatted away. Yuder even giggled at a particularly funny comment from Kishiar.

Chapter Text

Kishiar blinked open his eyes when he felt sunlight on his face. Instinctively he pulled the blanket over his sleeping omega and used his powers to close the curtains. Only after the room was completely dark did Kishiar pull the blanket down from his beloved's face and look at the adorable sight.

Yuder was sleeping soundly with lips slightly pouted making Kishiar's heart flutter. Today Yuder was officially 3 months pregnant and had started looking like the part for a few days. His cheeks were now squishy and soft, making Kishiar bite into them whenever he could. His belly has grown over the months now having a gentle bump on his lower belly though it wasn't visible through his clothes.

The omega was now tired easily and would would almost sleep anywhere making him spend most of his time either in the bedroom with both of them skipping work or in Kishiar office where the commander could not focus on his work for long and just sit and stare at his beautiful assistant.

However the probably the best thing that happened was increased clinginess. Yuder would almost always be with Kishiar hugging him or if they had to be separated for a period Kishiar would have to leave his shirt with him otherwise his beautiful assistant would have tears in his eyes which the Commander could not stand.

Taking deep breaths of their mixed scents Kishiar gently kissed his forehead and then gently whispered in his morning voice-

“Darling…my dear… *kiss* wakey wakey”

Yuder stirred slightly and poked his head out of the blanket to look at Kishiar. Yawning, he moved closer to Kishiar, rubbing his face on Kishiar's chest. Kishiar kissed his head and his hands caressed his back.

“Commander…”

“Hmm..?”

“Akit…”

“Yes..?”

“Kishiar…”

The blond man just laughed and pulled away from the embrace to kiss Yuder's entire face only stopping when the latter started whining.

“What does my dear duchess want?”

“... Strawberry cake with chocolate cookies…”

Kishiar hummed remembering Enon saying that food cravings would also be a new thing.

“Alright I will ask Nathan to get some from your favourite bake-”

“Nooo….”

Kishiar paused when he heard the whine. He looked at Yuder with confusion when he noticed a light shine coming in his eyes.

“Oh darling…”

Hugging him tightly Kishiar pampered him with kisses until the soft sniffles didn't go away. Then breaking the hug Kishiar got up and pulled Yuder on his lap.

“Now tell me what made my strong and beautiful assistant upset…?”

“Can…you make…”

Kishiar blinked for a second and then smiled brightly, kissing his cheeks. God he really will kill him one day with so much cuteness.

“Oh my darling, you are so adorable. Yes I will make the cake for you”

Yuder smiled as well, nose slightly red from the crying but made him look cute.

~~

“Uhhh…Your highness..?”

Nathan said, confusion clearly visible on his face. He kept the bag of goods on the counter of the cavalry kitchen and stared at his master.

Instead of the usual royally dressed Duke there was a man in a simple white shirt and black pants with a white apron over it.

“Nathan!! Right on time as always..did you get everything?”

Nathan nodded and took out the stuff from the bag. A few cavalry members poked their heads in to see what was happening and the chef of the cavalry was horrified realising that a member of the imperial family was gonna cook in his kitchen.

“Ahh..your highness, how about I make the cake.”

Kishiar smiled at the chef and laughed making both him and Nathan worry.

“I appreciate the offer but I need to do it myself though your guidance would be much appreciated”

Just then Yuder walked in with his eyes widened. The poor assistant didn't think that his husband would take the request seriously.

“Commander…I didn't mea-”

“Hmm?”

However, seeing the bright smile and unshakeable determination, Yuder didn't try reasoning with him.

Taking a seat in the kitchen Yuder sighed mentally making a note to be careful when making requests from Kishiar (P.S- he has made that note multiple times however Kishiar's love makes him forget it sometimes)

Taking a deep breath Kishiar looked at the recipe the chef gave him.

—In a bowl whisk together flour, sugar, cocoa, baking soda, baking powder, and salt.

Kishiar opened the packet of flour and sugar and poured two cups of each in the bowl. After mixing it he put cocoa powder followed by baking soda, baking powder and a pinch of salt.

—Then add eggs, buttermilk, oil and vanilla to the bowl and then beat the mixture for 2 minutes.

Kishiar started whisking the mixture for 2 minutes.

“Uhh that's enough your highness”

The chef was clearly distressed by the whole ordeal but could not offend a member of the royal family.

Kishiar smiled and put some melted chocolate in the mixture along with chocolate chips just the way his Yuder liked. Once he was done he put the pan in the oven and then started to prepare the cream.

First he melted butter which was made easier with him asking Yuder to help him. Then measuring a ¾ cup of cocoa powder Kishiar put it in the bowl followed by 3 cups of sugar and ½ cup of butter milk. After mixing it thoroughly he put the vanilla extract and mixed that as well.

Kishiar blinked at his creation of cream and without a word used a fork to taste it. Once he was sure it tasted absolutely perfect he turned towards Yuder who was watching him with keen interest. Taking another fork with the cream Kishiar gave it to Yuder who smiled gently and tasted it.

“Wow…..have you baked before Commander?”

Kishiar shook his head smiling cheekily. The chef, a bit shocked, tasted it himself and mentally cursed himself realising a person who has probably never even entered a kitchen made food better than him.

Once the cake was finished baking Kishiar filled a bag with the cream. Cutting the cake in two halves from the middle, he spread cream on the lower half and then put the other half over it. Then he started with his decoration.

Making small hearts around the edge followed by chocolate chips and strawberries. Once the cake was fully decorated he turned to the chef who clapped in pure admiration.

“His highness and Sir Aile can sit on the counter. I will bring the cake to you.”

Kishiar nodded and went towards Yuder who fought the urge to kiss those flour covered cheeks. Taking a deep breath Yuder wiped the flour with his hand with a soft smile on his face.

“Can we eat…in your office, I wanna tell you something?”

Kishiar nodded and asked Nathan to bring the cake slices to the office and quickly went to his office.

Once inside the closed doors Yuder kissed Kishiar, shocking him. The blond quickly recovered and supported Yuder’s back so that he didn't put a strain on himself and softly responded to the kiss.

“I love you…so much”

Yuder said after breaking the kiss and quickly buried his face in Kishiar's chest. The latter simply smiled and hugged Yuder back. He knows if he said things like- “oh it was simple stuff of course I can do it for you” it would not please Yuder so accepting his praise was the best option.

Kishiar pecked his head a few times before breaking the hug and making him sit on the sofa. Just then Nathan walked it with two plates of cake slices. Kishiar took it and sat next to Yuder to feed him. However before feeding he asked Nathan to have some cake for himself as well as the chef.

Nathan nodded and left the room giving the couple some privacy. Once the door closed Kishiar picked up the spoon and fed Yuder the cake.

“Soo…how's it?”

Yuder blinked and then fed Kishiar from the same spoon who himself got shocked at the taste. Yuder could probably never go back to the usual cakes from the bakery.

“It's perfect..”

Yuder said not having words to describe it. Kishiar smiled and kissed Yuder's nose feeling gratitude with his perfectionist attitude for once.

After finishing the cake Kishiar laid on the sofa with Yuder on top of him. The latter kept his head on Kishiar’s chest listening to his heartbeat trying to sleep.

However there was an issue, Yuder got up and stared at Kishiar who just looked at him with confusion.

“What happened dear?”

“I…I cannot lay on my belly, it's uncomfortable…”

Kishiar smiled and picked Yuder up in his arms to bring him to the bedroom. Once he was comfortable lying on his side did Kishiar cuddle him tightly.

Kishiar hummed a soft tune lulling Yuder to sleep. Once he was sure that the omega was in deep slumber did Kishiar slowly get out of the bed. Taking off his shirt he placed in the same place he was sleeping in and got away from the bed.

Quickly putting on his uniform he went out to continue his duties as the Commander.

~~

Yuder woke up and yawned slowly getting up. Looking outside the window he noticed the orange sky and frowned realising he had once again slept the entire day. However before he could feel anymore annoyed his stomach growled. Sighing he got off the bed and walked into the Commander’s office and looked at the blond haired man going through some files.

Kishiar also noticed him, got up and went towards him. Kissing Yuder's lips and nose he placed his hand on Yuder's belly and gently whispered a ‘Good Morning’.

Yuder pouted at the greeting but didn't hold a grudge. Mumbling out that he's hungry he hugged the taller man who hummed in response.

~~
Choco cake choco cake~

Chapter Text

Yuder sat in the Commander's office going through a stack of papers. Kishiar didn't allow him to do standing work like looking over the training so for now he was stuck with paperwork which he had to ask Kishiar multiple times to let him do.

He looked at a report sent by Ever.

Multiple small scale monsters sighted near the outskirts of the capital. Residents have reported damage to property and some injuries. Knights stationed have requested back up from Cavalry.

‘Monsters..?’

Yuder thought as he read through the report carefully and kept it aside so that he could talk to Kishiar about this as soon as he returned from meeting with the Deputy Commanders.

He read through other stuff which were just invitations to parties and incident reports. Once he was done he sighed and rested his head on the sofa.

‘I am sleepy…’

He thought to himself and kept a hand on his belly. Gently rubbing the small bump he smiled softly. These past three months have been anything but easy for him. Morning sickness, nausea, vomiting, mood swings, tiredness etc. However as much as he despised all of these symptoms he also felt butterflies in his stomach whenever he had them.

Enon had been keeping a close eye on him since the day he found out. He made elaborate meal plans along with some herbs and medicines to make sure Yuder didn't become too weak. Apart from his Diet, Enon also established strict working hours for him, cutting it to half. And even during that he wasn't allowed to do a long list of things including- Lifting heavy objects, standing in the sun, standing for too long, excessive use of power etc.

Yuder sighed to himself thinking that it might be a stretch considering he felt fine most of the time. And his other symptoms were annoying but bearable.

Just then Kishiar walked in with Nathan following him. Nathan was holding some papers reading them out to Kishiar however he stopped as soon as he entered the room and saw Yuder.

Kishiar who had a serious look immediately smiled brightly upon seeing him.

“Darling! When did you wake up? You should have ca-”

“I was fine and didn't experience any nausea.”

“Still and did you hav-”

“Yes I had some fruit for breakfast since I didn't have much appetite…”

“...”

“...?”

“I have asked you these too many times…right..?”

“Yes, but it's fine…more importantly what was the meeting about?”

“Nothing important, just a routine check up”

Yuder looked at him unimpressed. Kishiar was a good liar but not in front of him.

“You are not convinced are you?”

“I at least want to know what's going on even if I cannot accompany you.”

Kishiar smiled and walked towards the couch and sat next to him. From the side of his eye Yuder saw him signaling Nathan out.

“I will tell you but can you not stress yourself with it?”

“I will try but I cannot make any promises”

“I knew you would say that.”

With that Kishiar pulled Yuder into his lap and gently kissed his cheek.

“In the northern part of the capital there have been monster sightings. Imperial soldiers had been stationed but the never ending wave of them is causing them trouble. Emperor has requested the Cavalry to look into the matter”

“I have read this much from the report Ever has sent. However you found something new today didn't you?”

“Yes. I had appointed some Cavalry members however they too are not able to get to the bottom of this. The area around the sightings has been reported to be densely packed with vegetation making navigation and vision difficult. These abnormal situations might sound familiar to you.”

“A crack…”

“Yes. My suspicions were proved correct today, Cavalry Members who I had sent there confirmed seeing a crack there followed by an increase in monsters.”

“We need to immediately report to the region before it gets worse.”

“Yes I have already sent the Deputy Commanders with a unit and I will be leaving soon as well.”

“You are not going to allow me to accompany you right?”

“Yes.”

“Even if I request you and promise not to intervene?”

“Darling when a situation gets dire you cannot be stopped from entering the battlefield. Please just stay here. Trust me and the cavalry you have trained yourself”

“Okay…However, can I make one more request…”

“Yes”

“I request you to take Enon and Priest Lusan with you.”

“...Fine as you say.”

Kishiar kissed Yuder softly momentarily distracting him from thinking about the crack. After a few minutes they broke the kiss and connected their foreheads together.

“If I sense you are injured through our bond I will come to you.”

“Hmm…”

“Don't over use your powers”

“I won't”

Kishiar agreed to whatever conditions Yuder put up. He knows how uneasy Yuder must be feeling. His hands soothingly rubbed the sides of his waist and his lips would occasionally kiss on his neck. Once Yuder was done he hugged Kishiar for sometime before getting off his lap.

Kishiar smiled and gently guided him to lay down on the sofa. Trailing kisses from his forehead all the way to his ribs Kishiar stopped at his belly.

Slowly pulling the he was wearing up he kissed the small bump on his lower belly and smiled.

“Take care of your Mama while I am gone, okay?”

Yuder pouted at his words but let him talk to the baby. Kishiar kept his head on his belly feeling his heart overwhelmed by love and affection.

After sometime Kishiar got up pulling down Yuder’s shirt and then got off the couch. Placing one last kiss on his lips Kishiar promised to return before dusk.

“Alright…”

Yuder said, watching as Kishiar got up and blew him a final flying kiss and then left. The black haired man got up from the couch and went towards their bedroom.

The bed was still a little messy since neither of them bothered making it when Yuder would sleep in the day multiple of times. Going towards the wardrobe he picked one of Kishiar’s shirts and laid in the bed holding the fabric close to his nose.

Yuder rubbed his nose on the collar taking in the minty scent and tried to calm his raging brain. However, surrounded by their shared scent, Yuder fell asleep quickly.

(⁠/⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠(⁠-⁠ω⁠-⁠)

Kishiar sighed in relief when he felt no discomfort from Yuder's side. He knows how much his dear assistant was concerned about his and the cavalry safety however he had to do what he had to do.

“Nathan, once we come back from the North please get some sweets from the bakery. I know you would be tired but I think I would need them while coaxing one very angry kitten”

Kishiar smiled softly and walked out towards the training grounds. There he saw Kanna issuing orders that he told her to the remaining Cavalry members.

“Commander. I have already sent two units along with Ever to North. I also prepared a back up team in case of an emergency.”

Kishiar nodded and held the notepad which had names of the Cavalry members according to their deployment.

“What about the evacuation of the civilians there?”

“It's already been done. We have also secured the area surrounding the region with shields in case there's a rampage.”

“Good. Then let us leave. Steiber, stay here and wait for any further orders for back up.”

With that Kishiar went off to the northern part of the capital along with a few members of the cavalry.

(⁠(⁠(⁠;⁠ꏿ⁠_⁠ꏿ⁠;⁠)⁠)⁠)

As soon as he reached there he saw only pure chaos everywhere. There were small monsters running around while the cavalry tried to quickly subdue them. The area was completely destroyed, covered in monster blood.

“Ever, what's the situation?”

Kishiar asked when he saw the deputy commander.

“It's still under control, Commander. However we can sense something bigger lurking in a deeper part of the forest. Every civilian has been evacuated along with any livestock."

Kishiar nodded and looked at the forest. Sure enough there were weird noises coming from deep inside the forest.

“Commander should we go and check it out”

Kanna asked to which Kishiar nodded.

“Ever stay here and control the situation here. I will take a few members with me and see the situation inside the forest.”

With that Kishiar went deep inside the forest towards the place where the noises were coming from along with Kanna, Gakane and the Eldore twins.

༼⁠⁰⁠o⁠⁰⁠；⁠༽

 

Yuder's eyes opened to a cloudy afternoon. It seemed like it would rain soon. He snuggled himself in the blanket feeling nausea creep up his throat. His head was loud with thoughts feeling utterly helpless.

It was the same feeling he had in the Great Sarain Forest when Kishiar had left him with the mages and had gone to escort the Prince of Nerlan. The same dread and fear of the future.

Getting up he rushed to the bathroom and hunched over the sink letting out whatever fruits he had for breakfast. He should probably eat. But he wasn't hungry.

‘but the baby is hungry’

A voice said in his head. Yuder sighed and went inside the room picking up the basket of fruits kept on the table. Picking up an orange, Yuder peeled it slowly before popping one slice in his mouth.

Sweetness exploded in his mouth but it didn't make him feel better. He had only finished the orange when he felt nauseous again. He went to the bathroom again vomiting out the orange he ate a few moments ago.

Taking a deep breath he washed his face and went inside the bedroom. Looking outside the window Yuder stared at the darkening skies. He wasn't a strong believer of prophecies or foreshadowing but as much as he knew dark skies meant something bad was about to happen.

‘Why am I thinking this way?’

Feeling tired, Yuder laid on the bed and pulled the blanket over him. However, sleep didn't come as easily as it did before. No matter how much he turned he could not sleep. After about half an hour of laying in bed he decided to go down.

He got up and started wearing his uniform. As he tried to button his pants close he felt the tightness from the fabric. Once he was done he went out of the room into the connecting office. He looked at his sword which was kept near Kishiar's table on display.

‘Should I take it with me just in case…’

After debating a little, Yuder decided to take it in case he really had to go. Going down the stairs Yuder stared at the ominous dark sky not liking it one bit.

“Ah Yuder!”

Yuder looked away from the sky and saw Steiber standing there with a smile.

“How are you?”

“I am feeling fine. Thank you…”

“That's great. Would you like to join me for some tea? If you want to, of course.”

“Sure. I have nothing to do anyways.”

Yuder went along with Steiber feeling grateful for finding someone to help him distract himself.

“Here.”

Once they reached the Cafeteria Steiber quickly brewed some tea and gave it to Yuder who silently took a sip.

“This tea…”

“Ah yes my wife used to drink this tea during her pregnancy. She said it helped her a lot with nausea. I also started keeping this with me whenever I felt uneasy or just tired. It works like a charm.”

Was he looking that sick or Steiber just had good senses?

“Hmm? What happened?”

“Nothing. Thank you for the tea. It's really helpful.”

“Hahaha here have some cookies”

Steiber pushed a plate full of cookies towards him and Yuder took one eating silently.

“You look…stressed”

Steiber said after a long time.

“...”

Yuder did not know how to reply to that. For someone who rarely showed emotions suddenly having periodic mood swings along with increased emotional sensitivity he couldn't help but be overwhelmed and not know what to do.

“I- Did you get any news from the Northern parts?”

“Not until now. The commander said he would communicate with me if back up was needed. If they haven't, that means it's still under control.”

Yuder who had a breath stuck in his chest since he woke up finally breathed out in relief.

“How is your family..?”

Yuder said feeling much lighter than before. Steiber smiled and started telling him about recent incidents his family wrote about.

~~

After an hour of chatting Yuder decided he should probably be a little productive and get some work done for Kishiar. However when he was about to get up a bird flew and tapped on the glass of the Cafeteria.

Yuder felt his heart drop seeing a messenger bird. Not any but Cavalry’s messenger bird which was used during missions. Did something happen? Clutching tightly on his sword, Yuder waited for Steiber’s reaction.

Steiber got up and let the bird in. He took the message tied to its leg and opened it. However instead of facing Yuder while opening it he instinctively turned the opposite way and quickly read it.

“...”

“What does it say?”

“Ah mission was successful. However they are requesting a few members to clean up. The commander said he will be coming back once making sure the entire perimeter is safe.”

Yuder blinked and then held the table to make sure he didn't slip with the sudden relief. Feeling the heavy stone which was laying on his chest getting lifted he almost felt like crying.

“I see. That's great. I guess I will go back to the office and look through the paperwork the commander left. Thank you for the tea”

“Sure any time”

With that Yuder left the cafeteria. Steiber sighed and opened the paper again.

“Requesting back up from the headquarters. Send the last unit to the front and arrange imperial physicians at the cavalry. The commander is severely injured”

 

“I am sorry, Yuder.”

(⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠)

 

Yuder sat in the office staring at the orange cloudy sky. It was dusk. He said he would be back before dusk.

‘He must be busy. Didn't Steiber say they needed members for clean up. He must be making sure civilians are fine. Yeah. After all, the mission ended long ago.’

Yuder thought as he wrote responses to the letters the cavalry got. Tapping his feet which echoed in the entire office he focused his mind on the task at hand.

Just then he heard a knock. Yuder's dull eyes almost lit up with life. Getting up he quickly opened the door however instead of seeing the bright blond hair and the red ruby eyes he was expecting he saw Nathan.

‘well of course Kishiar wouldn't knock on the door…’

“Yuder uhh. Come with me please. The commander is requesting for you.”

Yuder nodded and went inside the room to arrange the things before walking out of the room.

‘Why hadn't he come himself. Is he that busy…?’

Yuder thought but decided not to dwell on them as long as he saw Kishiar it was fine if he didn't come himself.

Nathan stopped in front of the medical and pointed towards the door gesturing him to enter.

Wait. Medical room. Why-

Yuder's eyes widened in fear as he opened the door quickly. As looked at the sight in front of him he felt chills creep up his spine.

Enon looked at him and quickly ran towards him holding him.

“It's okay, he's fine. He's stable now. It's nothing to worry about- Yuder!”

Yuder lost his footing and fell into Enon's arms. Why? Why is he finding out about this now?

“Yuder hey- hey look at me!”

Enon forced Yuder's eyes away from Kishiar who was lying on the hospital bed. His entire torso was covered in bandages. However it was not just that. To the normal people it looked like that was the biggest wound but Yuder could see. His energies were almost depleted.

“His energies-”

“Yes yes I have seen that, he has just used too much of his powers. Nothing a little rest can't fix. Okay? He's going to be fine. Heck I am sure he's going to wake up in like half an hour.”

Yuder didn't know what to say the more he looked the more wounds he was finding. His right arm seemed to be burned and his shoulder had a bite mark from a monster. Skin around the bite had turned purple because of the poison. His golden hair was matted with blood and dirt and his face had scratches.

He looked around the room finally noticing other people present. All the three deputy commanders, the imperial physician and..the Emperor.

The room smelled heavily of medicine and blood. However there was no smell of Kishiar's scent. He was tired and sleeping so the release of his scent was probably low. He could probably smell it if he went closer. However before he could do that the other overwhelming smells hit him first.

Gagging he tried to get up however lost his footing and fell down. He placed a hand over his mouth feeling bile rising in his throat.

“Kanna, give me that bowl quickly.”

Enon ordered and Kanna quickly picked up the bowl kept near her and gave it to Enon who placed it on the floor. Yuder, who was not able to hold back anymore, bent forward and vomited into the bowl. Enon rubbed his back soothingly, noticing how a bunch of liquid and stomach acid was the only thing coming out.

“Have you not eaten anything since morning?”

Enon asked once Yuder was done and slumped back. Ever took the bowl from Enon's hand to clean it while Nathan and Enon helped him to sit on the bed next to the one Kishiar was on.

“Nathan get something to eat. Something solid like bread and soup.”

“I don't want to eat anything right now please”

“Are you stupid? Do you want to get sick?”

Yuder didn't reply and just looked at Enon with an expression which said ‘Not now please’

Enon sighed and nodded and asked for him to eat once Kishiar woke up.

“Now…will anyone…tell me what happened? Please…”

Yuder said looking at Kanna and then at Enon and then at Nathan. Enon sighed when he saw nobody wanted to speak up and decided to speak.

“When Commander reached the area the situation was still under control. There were only small monsters which were easily being handled. However everyone could tell there was something more dangerous lurking inside the forest. The commander decided to check it out with some members. From what I have heard, the monster was under the ground and was about 10 feet in length. The reason why he got injured so badly was because there were two of them and one of them was trying to head towards the capital.”

“...why did no one decide not to inform me sooner? Have I become useless now?”

“No Yuder. Please don't say that. At that moment calling you didn't cross our mind-”

Kanna said feeling horrible. She could have probably used her powers to determine the exact location of the monster however because of so much confusion it didn't come to her mind. She felt the guilt eating her as she looked at both the commander and the Yuder.

“What about when you all got here and started his treatment? Not even one of you thought that I should be informed?”

Everybody looked down not knowing what to say. However, Yuder knew why they hadn't informed him sooner. After all, he was known for jumping into danger. And now that he was pregnant everybody worried more about him. If he had been there during the treatment Kishiar probs wouldn't have gotten quick treatment. It seems like he really had become weaker so he couldn't hold himself together.

 

So he didn't hold a grudge. Instead he turned towards Kishiar who was sleeping and stared at his face before uttering out-

“It's fine…i know why you all decided to wait until the situation was under control. Having me here would have just increased your worries and shifted your focus from immediate treatment he needed…”

Yuder said and looked at Enon who sighed and nodded. Enon asked the deputy commanders and imperial physician to leave, letting only him, Yuder and the Emperor stay back.

“Yuder”

The Emperor who was silent until now spoke up. Yuder looked at him. He wasn't in his royal robes and rather some simple clothing that he wore when he was working from his room. His hair shined under the light of the setting sun just like Kishiar's did.

“Your majesty? When did you find out?”

“The deputy commander - Steiber - was his name. He requested me to send the imperial physician to the cavalry because Kishiar was injured badly.”

Yuder hummed in response. His brain had been fuzzy since the moment he entered this room and now he felt eyes getting blurry. However he blinked away any tears coming to his eyes. Not here. Not right now.

He will wait until he sees Kishiar talking before he falls weak.

The emperor looked at him. Since the day he has met Yuder he has never seen him lose his composure. Not in front of any nobles, knights, dukes and even the Emperor.

He always stood straight and calmly assessed the situation. Even as the Emperor, Keilusa himself was very good at keeping his emotions away from his work, however he still slipped even after years of practicing it. On the other hand he had never seen Yuder be the same. Well until now.

The person who always looked emotionless, cold and composed was right now fiddling with his wedding ring and biting his lips in anticipation as he stared at his sleeping brother. He has seen this look, this anticipation before. Faria often looked at him like that from afar or from close.

This look of helplessness. This look of knowing you might lose the person you love any moment.

He hid his pains from his empress too. He had to but he also deep down knew that she knows he's in pain but is letting him do it. Because she knew this act was the little ray of hope keeping him sane. Allowing him to continue fighting rather succumbing to his pains.

‘Maybe I should have brought the empress with me’

Keilusa, however, couldn't dwell on it for long when he saw Kishiar's eyes twitching and opening slowly. Yuder almost threw himself off the bed and stood next to his bed.

Holding his bandaged hand in his own he stared at the red eyes waiting for them to recognise him.

“Y-ud-er?”

Kishiar said in an almost unheardable voice. Yuder nodded, swallowing the sob he was about to let out.

“Yes. It's me. How are you feeling?”

“Well for a moment I thought I was in heaven because I saw an angel the moment I opened my eyes.”

Kishiar said laughing weakly. Enon groaned in anger and got up from where he was sitting.

“If you can joke around then I think you are completely fine. Do you even know how serious your condition was?”

“I know I know. I am sorry. I will not make jokes anymore.”

Kishiar said feeling defeated by the wrath of Enon. He then turned his attention towards Yuder.

He slowly moved their joined hands towards his lips and kissed the gloved hand. He stared at the violet eyes, noticing the shimmer in them. A storm of emotions which seemed to be very difficult to control but he was doing it. Enon told him during pregnancy emotions became difficult to control. He had seen it himself; however he also remembered the fact that Yuder was still Yuder. When the situation wasn't ideal, when he wasn't in a comfortable situation he would revert back to his usual self. Cold and uncaring.

He was holding back. He can do it for a long time because this was his assistant. The same one who shaked the entire Sarain Forest. Whose stories rang through every house either of nobles or commoners. Yes he was pregnant and more vulnerable but if the situation required he could be the same cold emotionless Commander of the Cavalry, Yuderain Aile.

“Kishiar, are you alright? Speak up if you feel any pain or discomfort?

“Actually your majesty, he cannot tell pain right now because of the high amount of pain killers I have given him. We will find out tomorrow morning now.”

Enon spoke up to which Kishiar agreed saying he felt no discomfort right now.

Enon did one final check up and after making sure he was stable did he sigh in relief.

“If everything is done may I request some privacy?”

Kishiar said to which Enon and the Emperor nodded and left. Once the room was empty except him and Yuder did he spoke up.

“Darling, can you help me sit up?”

“Your wounds are very severe, it would be best if you don't…”

“I am fine and laying down like this is really hurting me more.”

Yuder blinked at him and then nodded. He got up and helped Kishiar sit up and placed pillows behind his back to support him.

Once Kishiar was sitting straight he quickly grabbed Yuder's hand before he could sit away from him again. Pulling him closer, Kishiar made him sit next to himself.

Now that he was within arms reach Kishiar caressed Yuder's cheek. Not saying anything he just stared at his beloved. Yuder looked back at him. Those eyes were seeing everything. The wall that he had built around himself the moment Kishiar left for the Monster raid was completely transparent for Kishiar.

Kishiar did not say a word, just stared at him. Waiting patiently for Yuder let that wall collapse on his own. He wasn't forcing out his emotions, he was coaxing them out.

His eyes burned with tears but some part of his brain refused to let it go. He stared at Kishiar's eyes. He still sees the same determination he saw the day they got married. A silent promise of forever.

“K-Kishiar…”

Yuder’s voice came out broken. Pent up frustration and sadness weighed his throat not letting him speak.

“Yes, I am right here.”

“I-I…am in pain…”

Yuder stuttered out. He knows had it been his before pregnancy self he could have at least voiced out his pain but right now he could not do it. He had been strong since the moment he heard Kishiar is going to an area where a crack has appeared. He had not let his emotions cloud his mind for too long pushing them away as much as he could. But he could not do it anymore.

“Yes? Where is it hurting?”

“E-verywhere..”

“Well I have just the cure for your pain”

With that Kishiar pulled Yuder in a hug. His own body protested a little because of the stiff muscles but it was nothing he couldn't endure for now. He moved Yuder onto his lap which he protested at first saying he was injured. However Kishiar was quick to reassure him that he wasn't in pain at all. Even asking him to feel their bond if he was lying.

“You said you would be back before dusk”

“I am sorry for not keeping my promise.”

“You should have told me if the situation was that serious”

“At that moment the only thought I was having was how to make sure this horrible being did not reach inside the capital and hurt my beloved. I am sorry still I should have at least informed you of the situation. After all you still are my assistant and are still working”

Yuder blinked at him. Kishiar still considered him a working member of the cavalry. The reason why he didn't tell him was because at the moment he was thinking about his wife who was pregnant with their child rather than thinking of him as a pregnant and vulnerable person who couldn't protect themselves.

Tears had long started running down Yuder's cheek without him realising it. He hugged Kishiar gently making sure not to hurt his wounds. They stayed like that for an hour, not moving at all.

After sometime Kishiar broke the hug and wiped the dried tears on his face. Just as he was about to say something he heard a low rumble. At first he was confused where it was coming from but when he saw the embarrassed look on his beloved’s face he laughed and kissed his cheek.

“You haven't eaten anything..?”

“I had but all of it came out due to frequent nausea…”

“Oh my, seems like the baby won't eat unless their mama and papa both are together”

“Hmm…I will ask Enon to send some food…”

However before he could get off Kishiar pulled their lips together in a deep kiss leaving Yuder breathless. With flushed cheeks the black haired beauty quickly got off Kishiar's lap while the criminal just laughed heartily.

After asking Enon for food, Yuder got back inside and sat on the chair beside Kishiar's bed at which Kishiar pouted like a puppy denied head pats.

Nathan soon entered with a food cart wheeled it inside. Two bowls of soup, some bread and 2 glasses of fresh orange juice. Nothing fancy but it was perfect.

Nathan left after wheeling the cart to the center of the room and closing the door behind him. Yuder picked up a plate of food and then sat next to Kishiar. Breaking the bread into smaller pieces he slowly fed Kishiar with his hands.

Kishiar also picked up broken pieces of bread and fed Yuder. Once the bread was finished from one plate Yuder and Kishiar both drank half the soup each before Yuder went to get the other plate.

After finishing that plate too and finishing the juice Kishiar requested to go back to their own room since the medical room was making him (Yuder) sick.

Yuder went to ask Enon who grumbled but said yes anyways however not until Lusan had healed his physical wounds with divine power.

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Kishiar laid back on his bed sighing in relief. Finally away from that herb smelling room. Yuder had gone to take Kishiar's medicine and then they decided to take a bath together since Kishiar was still covered in filth.

Yuder walked in holding a packet full of medicines which he placed on the side table.

“Wife wife, where's my dear wife?”

“I am right here”

Kishiar grinned like a child at his words. Yuder shook his head thinking it must be Kishiar's new antic and decided to help him get into the bath instead of paying attention to him.

He had already filled the bath tub before going using his powers to make sure it stayed at the perfect temperature. Kishiar leaned against the edge of the sink and loosened his pants; however instead of taking them off he looked at Yuder for help.

‘This is going to one great night’

 

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I will continue this trust me I am motivated rn.