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London, 1941.
The bookstore was silent.
An unusual silence, even for this place. The war rumbled in the distance, the streets bearing the scars of bombings, but inside, the air still smelled of paper dust and over-brewed tea.
Aziraphale was sitting at her desk.
In front of her, a sheet of paper was waiting.
It had been three days.
Three days since the night of the magic show. Three days since the flames, the chaos, and the precise moment when she had believed with chilling certainty that her books would vanish. And then Crowley had saved not only her but also them.
Aziraphale gently ran her hand over the surface of the desk. Her fingers brushed against an old leather-bound volume, as if to check that it was still there.
Crowley hadn't been forced to do that. A demon wasn't supposed to save books. Even less so an angel. And yet…
Aziraphale finally took up her pen, and dipped the nib into the inkwell, and hesitated for a long time… then began to write with her most careful calligraphy.
My dearest Crowley,
As you probably already know, I am a great lover of words. They are my refuge and sometimes my only way of understanding the world.
And yet, despite the affection I have for them, I find myself today in the most embarrassing situation imaginable; I cannot find any words capable of properly expressing my gratitude.
You saved me.
Me, of course… but also something that is just as precious to me.
My books.
I am perfectly aware that you were under no obligation to intervene. A demon could very well have considered the incident as… let’s say… an interesting development.
And yet you did it.
Thanks to you, I can still hold these books in my hands. Thanks to you, this bookstore still has an owner.
I am deeply grateful to you.
If you would ever agree to allow me to return the favor in any way, please know that I would be more than honored.
With my sincere regards,
Yours,
A.F.
Aziraphale reread the letter at least six times.
On the seventh reread, she found that consideration sounded a little cold.
By the eighth she wondered if writing to a demon was an absolutely terrible idea.
On the ninth, she folded the sheet before she could change her mind.
Sending it was surprisingly difficult.
Not because of the danger, although the danger was real. Hell was watching Crowley, and Heaven was watching Aziraphale.
No. It was the waiting that worried her.
Because once the letter was sent… all that would be left to do is wait.
The following days were unbearably long.
Aziraphale's bookstore had never seemed so quiet. Customers came in, browsed the shelves, but it all happened as if in a distant fog.
Her mind wasn't really there.
She was somewhere else.
In an envelope that, perhaps, would never arrive.
Every morning, Aziraphale descended the stairs from her apartment with a hope that she tried, with great dignity, to describe as moderate. Yet her eyes always went to the same place: the desk.
Nothing.
The first day.
Nothing on the second one either.
On the third day, she tried to convince herself that Crowley was probably not interested in this kind of correspondence. After all, a demon had no reason to reply to a somewhat embarrassed letter of gratitude.
But on the fourth morning… She found the envelope. Placed perfectly in the center of her desk. Aziraphale stopped dead in her tracks. The envelope was black. The handwriting, long and elegant, was immediately recognizable. Crowley.
Her heart began to beat far too fast for someone who claimed to be perfectly calm and reasonable, and she sat down slowly. Her fingers trembled slightly as she broke the seal.
My dearest angel,
Your letter had a rather disastrous effect on me.
Imagine me, a respectable demon, receiving such a touching declaration of gratitude from an angel. If Hell were to discover that I receive such polite and admiring letters, I would probably be punished for a blatant lack of malice.
That said…
I must admit that receiving a letter from you was a surprisingly pleasant experience.
Your calligraphy is, as always, unbearably perfect.
To be honest, I think I would have saved your books even without that tragic look you had that evening. Your offer to thank me…
I could accept on one condition.
Invite me to dinner the next time we can see each other without Heaven or Hell deciding to turn this meeting into a cosmic catastrophe.
I promise to be absolutely unbearable.
C
Aziraphale reread the letter once.
Then a second time.
On the third reading, she placed the sheet on the desk and gently pressed her fingers against her lips to prevent a smile from escaping.
Crowley had replied.
That was enough to make Aziraphale's heart beat much too fast.
She spent several minutes rereading the sentence about her handwriting.
A gentle warmth settled in her chest.
It was absolutely ridiculous. She was a six-thousand-year-old angel. And yet…
She felt like a young woman receiving a letter from a secret admirer.
Aziraphale took a deep breath, picked up a new sheet of paper and her quill.
This time, however, she remained motionless for a long time.
Because a new thought had just crossed her mind.
If Crowley had answered once…
So maybe…
Perhaps she would agree to exchange more letters.
And this idea, more than anything else, brought an impossible-to-hide smile to Aziraphale's face.
the pen stayed suspended above the paper for a long time..
Aziraphale reread Crowley's letter again and again. The paper had already absorbed the slight warmth of her hands.
She lingered once again on the words my dearest angel.
Crowley had always liked to call her that, “angel”. But on paper… it was different. More intimate. More permanent.
A word spoken aloud could disappear into thin air.
One written word remained.
Aziraphale took a deep breath and finally placed the quill on the paper.
My dearest Crowley,
Your response gave me a joy that I can hardly conceal, although I am certain that a demon would find this kind of emotion extremely entertaining.
However, please don't worry too much about your terrible reputation. I am perfectly capable of keeping a secret.
And I assure you that your heroic gesture, if you'll pardon the expression, will remain strictly between us.
Regarding your dinner proposal, I must unfortunately admit that it fills me with considerable enthusiasm…
…and an equally great frustration.
You know as well as I do that our recent… misadventures have attracted unwelcome attention from both Heaven and Hell. I fear that any meeting between us in the near future will be observed with far too much curiosity.
However, an idea comes to me.
If we can't see each other... perhaps we could continue to write to each other.
Letters have always been, after all, a perfectly respectable way to keep a conversation going.
And I must admit that receiving yours was a real pleasure.
If this idea doesn't seem too terribly boring for a demon like yourself, I would dare to hope that you would agree to correspond with me a little longer.
With all my affection,
Yours,
A.F.
Aziraphale gently blew on the ink to dry it.
Her heart was beating fast.
Faster than it should be for a simple letter.
She carefully folded the paper, slipped it into an envelope, and remained motionless for a moment in front of her desk.
There was something strange about this situation.
Something exciting.
It was as if she had just opened a door, but she didn't yet know what lay behind it.
The following days were even worse.
Because this time…
Aziraphale knew exactly what she was waiting for.
Every morning, she went down to the bookstore with a hope that she desperately tried to conceal beneath a perfectly respectable angelic dignity.
But the days went by.
One, then two, then three.
On the fourth evening, Aziraphale was sitting in her armchair with an open book on her lap… which she hadn’t read for twenty minutes.
She sighed softly.
Perhaps Crowley found the idea ridiculous.
After all, a demon surely had nothing better to do than exchange sentimental letters with an angel.
It was probably a stupid idea. Ridiculous, even. She closed the book. And that's when she noticed the envelope. It was lying on the table.
Aziraphale stood up so abruptly that the chair creaked on the parquet floor.
Crowley. She grabbed the envelope almost immediately, her fingers trembling slightly.
This time, she didn't even wait to sit down. She opened it.
My angel,
Your suggestion of a pen pal made me laugh.
Not because it’s ridiculous.
But because it's exactly the kind of idea I should have had myself.
And yet, you see…
I am a demon.
We tend to prefer dangerous conversations to respectable ones.
That said, receiving your letter had an effect I hadn't anticipated.
I spent an embarrassing amount of time rereading it.
Which, I assure you, is very bad for my image.
Yes, then.
Let's write to each other.
But I'm warning you in advance: I'm absolutely certain that your letters will be full of elegant reflections and literary quotes.
And mine will probably be full of attempts to make you blush.
After all, I have to justify my demonic existence somehow.
And then…
If I have to spend the next few weeks under hellish surveillance, I much prefer to do it while waiting for your next letter.
With all the scandalous affection a demon can feel for an angel,
C
Aziraphale felt the heat immediately rise to her cheeks.
Attempts to make you blush. She reread that sentence at least four times. Then it dawned on her. Crowley was already expecting her next letter. A slow smile appeared on her lips. She picked up her pen.
The letter remained in Aziraphale's hands for a long time.
She reread it again and again, as if the words could change between readings. As if, perhaps, she had imagined the warmth that seemed to lurk between the lines.
Attempts to make you blush.
Aziraphale gently placed the letter on her desk, then picked it up again almost immediately.
It was absolutely absurd.
She was an angel. A celestial being thousands of years old. And yet, she behaved like a young woman discovering secret correspondence for the first time.
But the truth was simple. Crowley had written to her. And Crowley wanted to continue. A gentle smile appeared on her lips.
She pulled a new sheet of paper towards her, carefully smoothed the surface with her fingertips, then dipped her pen in the inkwell.
My dearest Crowley,
I must confess that your letter brought me a completely unreasonable joy.
I'm not sure an angel should feel such satisfaction reading about a demon's attempts to make her blush... and yet here I am.
I therefore accept your warning with the utmost caution.
If your letters truly contain attempts to make me blush, I fear you will soon discover that I am terribly easily embarrassed.
Which, I fear, must be very dangerous information to entrust to a demon.
As for me, I fear that my letters are exactly what you imagine: overly long reflections, a few literary quotes, and probably far too many words.
But I hope you will forgive me this weakness.
After all, words are the only way we have left to converse at the moment.
And I must admit…
…that I am already awaiting your next letter with an impatience that I cannot describe as reasonable.
With all my affection,
Yours,
A.F.
Aziraphale put down her pen. She reread the letter twice. Then a third time.
On the fourth reading, she realized something that made her heart beat a little faster.
She had written affection. She hesitated. Should she change that word? Perhaps something more neutral. More… angelic. Her fingers remained still on the paper. Then, slowly, she folded the letter. No, she wasn't going to change a single word.
This time, the wait was almost unbearable.
The days seemed to stretch out like overheated caramel.
Aziraphale spent her time between the shelves of the bookstore, trying to convince herself that she was busy.
She reorganized an entire section of books. Twice. She started three different books and finished none of them. But every evening, before going up to her apartment, she glanced at her desk. Just in case.
The answer arrived on the fifth day.
Aziraphale found it when she opened the bookstore in the morning.
The black envelope was lying on the counter.
Her heart immediately leaped.
Crowley.
She almost instinctively locked the shop door before opening the letter.
My amazingly adorable angel,
I must admit that your last letter caused me a considerable problem.
You see, I read it once.
Then two.
Then three.
And from the fourth reading onwards, I began to wonder if I was developing a deeply disturbing habit.
Waiting for your letters.
Which, you'll agree, is extremely suspicious behavior for a demon.
I am also delighted to learn that you are “terribly easy to embarrass”.
Thank you for this very useful information.
I promise to use it in a totally irresponsible manner.
And now that we have established this charming correspondence, I must ask you a question.
When you write these letters…
Are you sitting at your desk in the bookstore?
Do you frown when you're thinking about your sentences?
And does your hair fall a little in front of your eyes when you lean over the paper?
Because, you see…
I can almost picture you.
And that is perhaps the most dangerous thing in this whole story.
With all the dangerous affection a demon can feel for her favorite angel,
C
Aziraphale's cheeks immediately turned red.
She reread the letter. Then again. Then she pressed the sheet of paper to her chest, letting out a trembling breath. Crowley was flirting. And worse…
Aziraphale loved it. She looked at her pen. Then at the paper. And an almost shy smile appeared on her face. Because this time… She really wanted to reply.
The letter remained open on Aziraphale's desk for a long time.
She reread it slowly, following the lines with her fingertips, as if she could feel Crowley’s presence in the still-fresh ink.
I can almost picture you.
Those words resonated in her mind with a dangerous sweetness.
Aziraphale got up, took a few steps in the bookstore, walked between the shelves… then returned to her desk.
She couldn't concentrate.
Not after a letter like that.
Finally, she picked up her pen.
My dearest Crowley,
I must begin with a confession.
Your last letter had an effect on me that I would readily describe as… disturbing.
And I strongly suspect that you take particular pleasure in provoking me.
Regarding your question…
Yes.
When I write these letters, I am sitting at my desk in the bookstore.
And yes, I frown when I think too long about my sentences.
As for my hair… I’m afraid you’re also right.
It tends to fall before my eyes when I lean over the paper.
However, I am very curious to know how you were able to imagine that with such precision.
Perhaps you've simply spent too much time observing me.
Which would be a thought that is both flattering and… slightly worrying.
However, I must also confess something to you.
You wrote that you were starting to expect my letters.
I think I do the same thing.
Every morning, I go down to the bookstore hoping to find one on my desk.
And when that's not the case…
…the day seems strangely longer to me.
With all my affection,
Yours,
A.F.
Aziraphale remained staring at the letter for a long time after she had finished it.
Something was changing. She could feel it. This correspondence had begun as a simple thank you. But now… It had become something else. Something more intimate. More dangerous. And yet, she absolutely did not want it to end.
This time, the answer came faster. Just three days.
Aziraphale found the black envelope slipped under the bookstore door. Her heart leaped immediately. She didn't even wait to reach her desk before opening it. Crowley's letter was longer than the previous ones. And as soon as she began to read, Aziraphale felt her cheeks flush.
My beloved angel,
Your last letter confirmed several things for me.
Firstly: I was absolutely right to think that you were frowning when you write.
Secondly: I think I enjoy imagining the scene far too much.
You, sitting in your silent bookstore.
The light falling gently on your desk.
Your fingers stained with ink.
And that focused expression that appears every time you think about what you're going to write.
Do you see what you did to me?
A respectable demon who spends her evenings imagining an angel writing letters.
This is absolutely catastrophic for my reputation.
But since we are already engaged in this dangerous correspondence…
I decided to answer you in a slightly different way today.
I wrote something for you.
For my angel
There are stars that no one can see.
Lost behind the daylight.
But sometimes,
at the bend of a silent sky,
They appear.
Gentle.
Impossible.
And whoever sees them
can no longer claim
that he doesn't know they exist.
I think you're a bit like that.
A star I should never have looked at.
And now that I've done it…
I fear I will no longer be able to look away.
I'll let you imagine how embarrassing this revelation would be if someone from Hell were to read this letter.
I am therefore counting on your discretion.
With all the scandalously sincere affection a demon can feel,
C
Aziraphale remained motionless.
The letter trembled slightly in her hands. She reread the poem three times in total. And suddenly, something became perfectly clear. A truth she may have sensed from the beginning.
She was completely and irrevocably madly in love with Crowley.
Aziraphale gently placed the letter against her heart and closed her eyes. It was terrifying.
Angels and demons were not supposed to fall in love.
Even less so one with the other. And yet… Each letter brought her a little closer to that impossible feeling. She opened her eyes. Looked at the desk. Then at the pen. And a soft, almost dreamy smile appeared on her face.
Because this time… Her answer was going to be much longer. And much more sincere.
Aziraphale sat down at her desk, Crowley's letter placed before her. The words, the poetry, every line... everything vibrated in her mind.
She took a deep breath. A shiver ran down her neck. Each letter from Crowley was like a warm breeze in her chest, a whisper that only she could hear.
She picked up her pen. The sheet of paper was blank, ready to receive her thoughts. But this time, she didn't just write to say thank you.
My sweet demon,
Your poem left me speechless… or almost.
I would never dare say that your words make me blush, but I think that my ink itself has decided to betray my feelings.
I find myself imagining the scene: you, in your dark apartment, smoking your cigarette, in a black silk dress, writing these lines with this almost… unbearable precision.
And I wonder, with delightful curiosity… if you smile when you think of me, as I smile when I read each of your letters.
I have to confess something to you: writing to you has become the most anticipated moment of my day.
With all the admiration an angel can have for such a captivating demon,
A.F.
Aziraphale reread her letter, a gentle smile on her lips. She could almost hear Crowley's laughter behind the lines, guess her reply… and it made her shiver.
Three days later, Crowley replied. Her letter still smelled of smoke, and the writing seemed to dance on the paper.
My angel,
Hell has entrusted me with a mission by placing me on this planet. But to you alone I pledge my allegiance.
I must confess that your letters haunt me in a deliciously unsettling way. Every word you write obsesses me; I linger on your sentences, on the way your words wrap around me like an invisible caress.
I find myself imagining your fingers gliding across the paper, your breath held when you find the perfect word, your brow furrowed in concentration, and that little smile you only wear in secret to yourself…
If only I could tell you this in a way other than ink, my sweet angel… but I suppose for now, we must continue. And know that I already yearn for your next letter, for your replies, for every syllable you will utter to deliciously torment me.
And even though we must remain cautious, I have no doubt: every word, every line you send me brings me a little closer to you.
You make me curious, excited, impatient… and I don't want it to stop.
C
Aziraphale put the letter down, her cheeks red, her breath short.
Every word from Crowley made her vibrate, every suggestion was a thrill she had never felt before.
And yet… nothing was said. Nothing was explicit.
Just words, innuendo, veiled promises.
And it was perfect.
My sweet demon,
Your words reach me like a warmth I cannot ignore. Every line you write is a promise I read with an attention I never thought possible.
I linger over each sentence, rereading your suggestions and implications as if I could grasp the secret thrill you left behind your pen.
And I assure you… I’m not pretending to be reasonable. On the contrary, every word makes me blush, worries me, makes me smile and inflames me all at the same time.
You have had the power to obsess me forever, my sweet demon, and I find myself awaiting your letters with an impatience I cannot name.
Each letter becomes a breath, each word a touch, each suggestion a shiver that I feel even through the paper.
Know that I will be there, ready to read, reread and savor every line of your letters, as if it were a forbidden secret that only we can share.
My only wish is that you come and see me at the bookstore. You can't kiss paper, even the highest quality paper.
A.F.
Days passed. And no answer. Aziraphale tried to convince herself it was nothing. Crowley was busy, perhaps being watched, perhaps simply unable to respond at the moment. But despite all her attempts to remain rational, worry was creeping in.
Had she been too bold?
Had she made a mistake?
Perhaps this sentence…kissing paper… had been a line crossed.
She was sitting at her desk, her fingers clasped around a cup of tea that had grown cold, when the small bell on the door suddenly rang.
Aziraphale raised her head, and her breath caught in her throat.
Crowley was standing in the doorway.
She wore a form-fitting black dress that perfectly accentuated her figure. The streetlights highlighted her silhouette with an almost unreal elegance.
For a moment, none of them moved. Then Crowley crossed the bookstore with a quick step. Aziraphale stood up.
The demon grabbed her by the shoulders and gently but firmly pinned her against the shelves behind her.
And kissed her.
The kiss was burning, hurried, almost desperate, as if Crowley had waited for this moment far too long.
When their lips finally parted, Crowley remained close to her, breathless.
Her hands were trembling slightly. So was her voice.
"Oh my love... tell me that you love me as I love you... tell me that none of this was a lie."
Crowley’s golden eyes searched hers with an almost painful intensity.
Aziraphale remained silent for a moment. Then she gently raised her hand and caressed Crowley's cheek. Her fingers slid through her hair with infinite tenderness. She kissed her again, more gently this time. Then she whispered:
"Oh, darling... if only you knew."
Her gaze shone with deep affection.
"My demon... my starmaker... you are the most wonderful being in this universe. How could I not have fallen madly in love with you?"
She rested her forehead against Crowley's. A tender smile appeared on her lips.
"You are temptation incarnate. And I don't think I've ever really tried to resist it."
A slight smile stretched Aziraphale's lips. She met Crowley's gaze, and in that golden, mischievous glimmer, she read everything that didn't need to be said.
Time seemed to stand still. The sounds of the bookstore faded away, leaving only the rhythm of their hearts, their shared breaths, the touches that made every fiber of their being vibrate.
Aziraphale felt a gentle warmth wash over her, an excitement, a delicious dizziness that only Crowley knew how to evoke. And in that complicit silence, they remained there, motionless but intensely present for one another, aware that each moment was but a prelude to all those that would follow.
The bookstore, the books, the whole world seemed frozen around them, as if time itself had decided to grant them this perfect, forbidden and infinitely precious stolen moment.
And as Aziraphale placed her hand on Crowley's, she knew, without a doubt, that she never wanted to let go of this contact, this shared breath, this exquisite shiver…
Their world had just shrunk in that instant, and they were fully aware of the delicious danger they were promising each other.