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"And there's already so little you can keep, when you're [in a place] like this. Your possessions aren't yours. Whatever events happen to you aren't yours.
All that's left is you."
- Quote from In Stars And Time, regarding suicide in a time loop.
She can't sleep, because she can't stop thinking about it. The gun. How it felt. Her finger on the trigger, the bullet in her head. Her body on the floor.
She wouldn't do it again. She doesn't have a gun to do it with, anyway. It still... sticks. The idea. Like, she can't stay dead—what's the harm in, say, snapping her neck right now, just to see what it's like?
(A look at why killing yourself in a place you can't die is still bad, and a dive into where it leads and what it means.)Series
- Part 4 of if things start getting bad look out they might be getting worse (horror)
- Part 4 of Author's Picks
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28 Oct 2025
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After the Awards Show, things in the circus feel different. Zooble, usually just an observer, find themself drawn into the breakdown of the one person they like least in the digital circus: Jax. Being forced together in one of Caine’s escape room adventures becomes the unexpected catalyst for a new, complicated connection between them. All while Caine’s games quietly grow crueler in the background.
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12 Oct 2025
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What If Zooble came along to the Adventures in Episode 3.
What If it wasn't Pomni and Kinger who went Through the scary door but instead a very annoyed Zooble and a purple Bunny?Aka. : Zooble and Jax Go Through the scary Adventure and actually Talk about Feelings. They are Like siblings.
Also, what actually happens when Jax holds His breathBookmarked by Bloodluvingirl
12 Oct 2025
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Nothing about this falsified world ever felt right.
Sure, life sucked IRL. A fake freedom that always came at a cost… financial, emotional, physical.
But at least it was real. A gift not afforded to those in this shithole paint by numbers digital fucking nightmare. Jax had pondered this place, its origins and its host and even now he hadn't even the faintest idea on how or why this place existed. He was sure of one thing though. Cain was not to be trusted. Everyone here must of sat awake at ‘night' driving themselves f*c%i£g crazy over it too. Jax can't be the only one trying to tear clumps out of his digitised vessel. Nothing ever hurt here though. At least not physically.
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12 Oct 2025
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“Jax?” She murmurs, not wanting her voice to carry to neighboring rooms. “Your door’s open. You alright?”
There’s no answer. Pomni’s mouth thins, and even as she knows he’d probably string her up by her hat for letting herself in, she gently pushes on the door. It swings inward with a creak that wouldn’t have been haunting had it not opened onto dead silent pitch blackness.
Jax’s blown out pupils.
Pomni shivers. The desire to flee rears its head in her guts again and her breaths become shaky in a way they haven’t since first landing in the Circus. If Jax has abstr—
She hurriedly shakes the thought away. Besides, Jax is the furthest from insane or obsessed with finding an exit out of the whole cast. Just by virtue of his ability to play by the rules of the Circus, every one of them is more likely to lose their minds and fully abstract before he’d even be in danger of it (Plus, the room is dark and silent, no rampaging monster full of glowing eyes to be found).
He’s definitely still not responding to her calling out to him, though. Something is still off.
["I'm fucked up and I don't need you." "You're fucked up and you do need me." ahh idiots: the fic]Bookmarked by Bloodluvingirl
03 Oct 2025