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    stay alive, open wide by

    Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)  

    27 Nov 2025

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    He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
    And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
    Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.

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    OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.

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    Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".

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    courage [it couldn't come at a worse time] by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    22 Feb 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    Take the Moon and Make It My Ring by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    22 Jan 2026

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    “Come on, baby, once in a while does not hurt. Rookies say that drunk cigarettes don’t count, have you ever heard that? I think is funny,” Ilya tries, his kisses softer now, trying to work Shane into the soft, pliant mess he loves.

    It doesn’t work. In fact – “What’s that, Ilya?”

    Ilya is biting anywhere he can find, “I don’t have gun license, so I must be happy to see you.”

    But that doesn’t work either. Shane finally moves – only to grab at Ilya’s collar, pulling it so that it digs into the back of his neck, which has Ilya pausing as Shane inspects. “That, Ilya. What’s that.”

    or, Shane finds some (perfectly explainable) lipstick on Ilya's collar, and they both go through emotional saw traps

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    26 Jan 2026

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    Duty of Care by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    09 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    To Be Cared For by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    24 Dec 2025

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    It's Ilya and Shane's first Christmas together as an actual couple, and Ilya is a bit nervous to spend it with Shane's family. Of course, when he wakes up sick a few days before the holiday, that won't do. He can't ruin Christmas.

    Or, Ilya learns what it means to be cared for.

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    24 Jan 2026