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    Shane knew himself well enough to admit it, there were real feelings there. Complicated, messy, painful feelings.

    And despite everything, despite the rejection, the distance, the confusion, he still craved him.

    Craved the intimacy.

    Craved the softness he had seen in flashes but never fully received.

    Why couldn’t Ilya open up like this?

    Why couldn’t he just… talk to him?

    Because this, this right here with Hayden, was easy.

    Shane looked at Hayden and couldn’t believe how natural it felt.

    Why was it so hard to be like this with Ilya?

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    OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped and hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better, and then things get complicated. Ilya's jealousy soars. He pushed Shane right into Hayden's arms, now he's fighting for him back.

    *No threesomes, some Shayden and Hollanov action - gets a bit messy but don't worry it should all end well

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    24 Feb 2026

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    “How long has this been here?” Shane asked.

    Ilya frowned. “What?”

    “This,” Shane said, pressing gently.

    Ilya flinched, more surprised than hurt. He twisted awkwardly, reaching back, fingers searching. “I don’t feel anything.”

    “You don’t feel that?” Shane asked. His voice sounded wrong to his own ears.

    Ilya sighed, irritation creeping in. “You’re poking me. Of course I feel that.”

    “Ilya.”

    “It’s probably nothing,” Ilya said, already pulling away, sitting up. “Muscle knot. I don’t know.”

     

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    Ilya is used to surviving alone. Shane won’t let him. When illness forces their lives to change overnight, they learn what marriage really means. Not in vows, but in the relentless decision to stay.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Shane skated forward with an intensity he was lacking before, and saw Rozanov closing in towards him fast. His jaw was now so locked that Shane thought it might snap. They stopped short at their mark, their skates kicking up ice. Shane stared at Rozanov’s face, then looked into the man’s eyes. Their sticks thwacked down between them. His eyes were full of an emotion Shane couldn’t decipher, but he could feel the vehemence rolling off him. Rozanov was looking into his eyes right back, and…
     
    Everything was still shades of grey. Nothing happened.

     

    or; their world is black and white until they look into their soulmate's eyes, and then they see color. One of them might be lying.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    “Need a bet to get laid, Rozanov? You’re really that desperate these days?”

    “Nostalgic, maybe.”

    “Wow. Big word.”

    “Shut up, Hollander.”

    Shane shuts up.

    “When I win,” Rozanov continues. “I get you for…twenty-four hours.”

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    Shane and Ilya are in rival frats in their senior year and it's time for the annual Greek Olympiad. A bet is made.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    I forgot what chapter im on

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    “You have no idea who your parents really are, do you?” the Russian asked seriously after a few minutes passed of them staring at one another, though it was really more Shane glaring and heaving while Ilya calmly observed him with an unsure glint in his eye.

    “I have no idea what I’m doing here and what you want with them. If this is some kind of stupid business dispute, I have bad news for you, asshole. I don't know about their business, I don’t even know what their business is, and I’ve never been involved in their business,” Shane seethed as slowly as he possibly could so Ilya could understand that he genuinely had no idea of what was going on. “Now will you please untie me and take me home? I don’t even care if you knock me out again, just fucking let me go!”

    Ilya set the glass down to the side of him on the black leather cushion and rose from his seat, unfolding gracefully until he was towering over Shane with cool indifference. He bent slightly, leaned in close enough to Shane’s face that he could smell the vodka the Russian man had been drinking, then said easily, “I think I will keep you, actually.”

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    25 Jan 2026

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    very good-4 atm