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  1. Rec 10

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    You’re on top of the world, unbeatable, and when you roar, the whole world bows down.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    There had been a tragedy. The Ottawa Centaurs' plane had crashed in northern Georgia, during the course of their flight from Carolina to Tampa. They didn't know much else yet. All NHL activities were suspended for the next seven days.

    Wait, what?

    At seventeen, Shane Hollander met the love of his life. At twenty-nine, gravity took him away.

    Shane wishes he’d died, too.

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Hayden,

    I know you'll probably be the first person to check on me. I'm so sorry you have to find me like this, I'm so sorry I couldn't give you my explanation in person, but I can't do this anymore. I can't live in this world where not even hockey makes sense because nothing makes sense without him.

    or, Ilyas plane goes down and he doesn't survive. Shane can't cope.

    TRIGGER WARNINGs: Suicide and overdosing

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    30 Jan 2026

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    Ilya cannot help the wide smile that breaks out across his face. "You ran here," he says, reaching out to smooth Shane's rumpled clothes, fingers working the chewed-up hoodie string free from his mouth while he sits very still and watches Ilya with wide eyes. "Across many states and up four flights of stairs—where are your grandma candies?—to ask if I have secret baby.”

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    26 Jan 2026

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    Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father.

    “Do you still read New Yorker?”

    OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.

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    21 Jan 2026

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    Ilya feels like a fish who has been flopping around in little puddles and gorging itself on raindrops, but now has finally come to the ocean. Of course there is no one else. No other water will do.