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  1. Public Bookmark 89

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    Hollander makes a strange little noise, half a laugh. “I jus’ got back to my room. I fucked someone.” Another blurry laugh, before Ilya’s fully processed the words. “No, no. Someone fucked me.”

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    Shane drunkenly calls Ilya after sleeping with someone else in Mexico. Ilya yearns and makes a tuna melt.

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    The text arrives a second later. Being stuck in the airport is almost as boring as you

    Another text from Lily: Send me a picture. I’m sooooo bored.

    Shane lifts his phone and snaps a photo of the screen above the airline kiosk instead. JFK -> PHX - CANCELED. He hits send.

    The phone rings immediately. “You are at JFK,” Rozanov says. Not a question.

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    “What is grailed dot com?” Shane reads out loud from the computer screen.

    “How have you spent almost fifty grand on it in the last year?”

    Ilya doesn’t reply.

    “Is it a-” it’s like Ilya can hear the gears turning in Shane’s head, “Is it a porn website?”

    Ilya laughs lightly, endeared by Shane's choice of words, “As if you would know.”

    “Fuck you, I’ve watched porn.”

    Ilya turns to face him, a look of pleased incredulity painted on his features. He watches as Shane processes what he just said and then shakes his head as if to rid himself of the trance. Shane both hates and loves these moments when Ilya gets him to say ludicrous things in his own defense. As if he even needs to defend himself.

    Shane and Ilya talk about personal finance, porn and they are in love.

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    Shane returns from the showers to find the locker room far more animated than when he left it. Everyone has their phones out, and when he sees Shane coming, JJ says, “Câlisse, Hollander, about fucking time! Ilya Rozanov got caught kissing a man.”


    After the tuna melt debacle, but before Rose, Ilya makes the reckless decision to go to a gay bar to take his mind off of Shane. When photographs get published, Shane has a realization and devises a plan: he's going to ask Ilya Rozanov to marry him.

    Ilya's going through enough without things he can't have being dangled in front of him. He needs to figure out a different way to avoid going home, because eventually Shane Hollander will realize what Ilya already knows: Ilya isn't worth what Shane wants to do for him.

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