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    No. No, Eddie’s not leaving, he’s going away. It’s not the same thing, it’s not, but Buck can’t swallow past the bitter sting in the back of his throat that warns it is, it is the same, it’s you.
    Buck is not being abandoned. He is not being left behind.
    It just feels that way.

    (or, the thought of dying alone has always terrified Buck, but dying in Eddie’s arms is worse.)

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    17 Mar 2026

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    Buck thinks it must be a habit he still hasn’t dropped from his days in the army, or maybe it comes with the territory of being a dad – but Eddie can nap pretty much anywhere.

    or, Eddie starts casually falling asleep against Buck, and Buck is very normal about it.

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    06 Jan 2026

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    If you asked Eddie he would tell you the hospital waiting room was going to send him insane. He'd been in it enough to know.

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    Sequel to i feel like i could die and that's be ok . Can be read as stand alone.

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    09 Sep 2025

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    Buck doesn’t think that if he were to say, “I’m in a bad place”, that anyone would turn him away. Really, he doesn’t. The 118 has too many good, kind people for that.

    But every time he wants to open his mouth, to say something, to reach out to Eddie or Bobby or Hen or Chim, he hears Eddie yelling, “you’re exhausting.”

    —you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting—

    So each day he does his job and he laughs and he jokes and he pretends he’s the care-free goofball he’s always been. And each day he packs away his bruises and his worries, takes them home to his empty loft with its quiet rooms, and licks his wounds in silence.

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    04 Sep 2025

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    “We should have sex,” Kaoru says resolutely, propping himself on the table next to where Kyoya has carefully laid out his work. It’s loud enough to be a proclamation but quiet enough to not disturb Haruhi, Hikaru, and Tamaki as they begin to make their way to Music Room 3’s doors.

    Kyoya stills, hands hovering over the keyboard of his laptop. His lack of response would have normal people believe Kyoya didn't hear the comment, or perhaps they would believe his lack of enthusiasm is an indication to drop the subject. That would be a normal person’s response.

    But, well. Kaoru isn't exactly normal.

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    11 Aug 2025