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Sirius Black is 19 when he finds out Remus Lupin has been recruited into the Order, and he hates him. He hates him. Doesn't matter if he hasn't seen him in years, or what he believed then, or what kind of person he is. He hates him.
Remus Lupin is 11 when he meets Sirius Black on the Hogwarts Express, and he loves him. He loves him. Doesn't matter if his life has changed, or that it kept changing for a lot after that too, or what kind of person he became. He loves him.
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Remus and Sirius reunite in the Order three years after the fall-out that has ruined both of their lives. Time jumps back and forth between a young, innocent Remus narrating from the very start, and an older, bitter Sirius during the early years of the war, as both of them try to learn how to exist around each other without burning down.
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23 Jan 2026
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When he was seventeen, Remus Lupin watched a boy dance at the Prix de Lausanne, and fell rather tragically in love. Six years later, and working as rehabilitation coach at the Fidelius Ballett, Remus has long since contented himself with watching Sirius Black from side-stage.
Only, when Sirius is injured mere weeks before his principal debut, Remus finds himself abruptly yanked from his place in the wings, and thrust centre stage, right into the star-bright spotlight of Sirius’ life.
Remus doesn’t see it exactly, too enraptured as he is by Sirius’ face, but he hears it. A harsh pop! that echoes unbidden ghosts of pain in his mind, sends discordance clanging down every xylophone-rung of his spine, his entire skeleton reverberating with each chilling strike. Frozen, Remus watches as that face—that beautiful face—drops its grin, turns paper-white, and then Sirius is on the floor.
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14 Jan 2026
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It was then that Sirius Black realized he had spent the entirety of his life thus far submerged underwater, a slow and painful suffocation that had carried on for so long he hadn't even realized he was drowning. Not until Remus Lupin showed him what it was like to truly breathe.
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16 Oct 2025
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Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
09 Jun 2021
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“I don’t know,” Remus whispers. “I missed you. And I wish I hadn’t. I wish I didn’t. I wish you’d died. I wish I could kill you myself.”
“Makes two of us,” Sirius says. His hand on his throat tightens until it’s painful. “We could.”
“But we won’t.”
Sirius presses harder, thumb carving into his airway. “But we could.”
Remus makes a choked noise. He grabs a fistful of Sirius’ hair and tugs, trying to pull him off. “Let— go—”
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27 Aug 2025
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When Remus can’t get over his lifelong crush on his best friend Sirius, they devise a set of rules which they both must obey—so they can still be friends while Remus gets over Sirius. What could go wrong?
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Remus’s first semester at university is eventful; too many exams to study for, divorced lecturers, missing roommates, and a contract with Sirius which neither of them can really seem to follow...
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08 Jul 2025