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    It occurs to Shane, distantly, that he’ll have to wear the defaced jersey and his sweaty uniform pants if he wants to leave the locker room. He really, really wants to leave the locker room.

    His feet won’t move, though, like the bottom half of his body is suddenly made of lead, while the rest of him twists uncontrollably in the wind. His head feels like it’s floating off into outer space.

    Traitor.

    Things get worse for Shane after he and Ilya get outed to the world. Ilya and the Centaurs help soften the blow.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

    -

    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    Scott Hunter came out after winning the cup, and Ilya joined Shane at the cottage. In the aftermath, Shane struggles with big feelings and clings to the only semblance of hope and a future he knows besides his boyfriend. Unexpected conversations and private moments save the days ahead. Or, I just needed more after Shane comes out to his parents and introduces Ilya.

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    24 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 92

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    Doctors come in and out. There isn't much more they can do. She's yelled and screamed and cursed about it. Didn't change anything. They did what they could. All she can do is wait. Fucking useless.

    He's lost so much blood. She wanted to give him some, but they're not the same blood type. Of course they're not. Maybe they would be if she were his daughter, but she's not. She's not.

    He's lost so much blood. So much blood running through her fingers. Ellie wipes her hands on her jeans. It doesn't help.

    He's stilI. Too still. But his chest lifts and falls, and that has to be enough.

    ~oOo~

    Or, the one where Ellie saves Joel from Abby, and they get to try and mend what has been broken between them for so long.

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    31 May 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 84

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    “You know…” says the woman lightly, swirling her drink, “usually when someone buys you a drink, the typical response is ‘thank you.’” She keeps her eyes off of Ellie, a half-smile brewing on perfect lips. A tease. Bait.

    “Oh,” Ellie says intelligently, before clearing their throat, “Right, uh. Th-Thank you.” And then, “S-Sorry.”

    “I’ll forgive you, but just this once.” The woman turns to them then, smiling fully and brightly. Ellie smiles back, practically against their own will. “I saw you from across the bar. You looked like you could use some company.”

    “Am I that obvious?” Ellie asks sheepishly.

    “Only a little,” the woman says with a little shrug and wrinkle in her nose that suggests to Ellie that’s not quite true.

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    After a long and exhausting work week, Ellie gets dragged to the dyke bar by Cat, and goes home with a girl that buys her drink.

    (or, Ellie and Dina (attempt to) have a one-night stand.)

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    28 May 2025