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    ✅ freak4freak hollanov
    ✅ heavy kink with tons of consent
    ✅ good bdsm practices
    ✅ extremely, embarrassingly in love
    ✅ autistic shane representation

    welcome to penalties, baby

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander, an 18-year-old rookie for the Montreal Metros, meets Ilya Rozanov at a sporting goods store. The charming, wealthy Russian stranger buys him nearly $5,000 in equipment, a gesture Shane thinks is just kindness. But Ilya wants more than that. Through careful texts, gifts, and planned run-ins, Ilya tests and pursues Shane, who doesn't see what's happening. As Ilya plans his next move, a fake team-required suit fitting, his dark obsession becomes clear: he doesn't want Shane's gratitude.

    He wants Shane himself, completely.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    When Ilya says “Shane” instead of Hollander, something shifts in him. Panic hits fast and hard, and Shane’s first instinct is to run before the moment can turn into something real.

    Ilya doesn’t let him.

    “Don’t leave,” Ilya says. “Talk to me.”

    Panic and the emotional crash comes to him. Shane feels exposed, needy, and embarrassed by how much he wants to stay, but Ilya keeps him exactly where he is, grounding him.

    “You’re not going anywhere, da?”

    Held in place and forced to face what he’s feeling, Shane has the chance to finally ask for what he wants.

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    23 Dec 2025

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    After Ilya feeds him a delicious tuna melt and breathes his first name when he comes, Shane realises that this has gotten too personal. He flees… At least he tries to.

    Or, Shane doesn’t leave Ilya’s home in episode 4. Instead he experiences his first subdrop.

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    03 Apr 2026

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