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    Cas comes back. It's not exactly the reunion that Dean is expecting.

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    Dean stares at him, flummoxed. Cas quite literally poured his heart out to Dean, gave a truly sappy and distressingly romantic speech and everything, then proceeded to give his life so that Dean could live his. And he wants to act like he doesn't want to see Dean, be around him, touch him?

    Actually, Dean's ninety-nine percent sure that Cas probably wants to fuck him, and while he has no clue how he feels about that, he's pretty goddamn sure that means Cas doesn't get to act like this and make it authentic.

    It feels strangely real, though, as if Cas wants nothing more than to get as far away from him as possible. This is a blatant contradiction. Even someone as weird as Cas doesn't want to get away from the person they have the desire to fuck five ways to Sunday, that they're in love with. That's not how these things work, so Dean isn't buying it.

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    01 Jan 2025

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    according to all known laws of life
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    Summary:

    Cas comes back. It's not exactly the reunion that Dean is expecting.

    ~~~

    Dean stares at him, flummoxed. Cas quite literally poured his heart out to Dean, gave a truly sappy and distressingly romantic speech and everything, then proceeded to give his life so that Dean could live his. And he wants to act like he doesn't want to see Dean, be around him, touch him?

    Actually, Dean's ninety-nine percent sure that Cas probably wants to fuck him, and while he has no clue how he feels about that, he's pretty goddamn sure that means Cas doesn't get to act like this and make it authentic.

    It feels strangely real, though, as if Cas wants nothing more than to get as far away from him as possible. This is a blatant contradiction. Even someone as weird as Cas doesn't want to get away from the person they have the desire to fuck five ways to Sunday, that they're in love with. That's not how these things work, so Dean isn't buying it.
    Notes:

    This is just me exploring what would happen if Cas, who swallowed down a love confession until he was about to die For Real This Time so he wouldn't have to face it, and Dean "emotionally constipated" Winchester were reunited unexpectedly (not in Heaven).

    As you can imagine, they're both assholes about it.

    Enjoy :)
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  2. Rec *

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    The walls bleed black again, and Castiel is deposited back into the room he was snatched from in a far more undignified manner than he left it. 

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    His face is hot when he pulls the beer away from his mouth, a rising sense of panic fluttering in his chest. He has thought these things, known them, of course, but it feels so different now because Dean will know. He is going to look at Castiel and know exactly how he feels, what he thinks. That is...distressing. 

    Perhaps Dean will avoid it. He is very good at doing those things. When faced with something he simply doesn't want to acknowledge, that's his first method of handling the situation, and Castiel is sure that it will go this way again. He is banking on it, in fact.  

    It will be fine. He has Jack. Sam will be here, a welcome presence and a perfect buffer.

    It's all going to be fine.

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    02 Jan 2025

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    Cas is back from the Empty and Dean is committed to righting every wrong between them, including what Dean considers just morally wrong, which means he's going to give Cas the only thing that he said would ever make him happy; Dean himself. Because Cas isn't super interested in a hostage situation, Dean gets unexpected push back and now he's in for an uphill climb in which he's trying to convince Cas he's in love with him all the while trying to convince himself that he's not.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Cas is back from the Empty and Dean is committed to righting every wrong between them, including what Dean considers just morally wrong, which means he's going to give Cas the only thing that he said would ever make him happy; Dean himself. Because Cas isn't super interested in a hostage situation, Dean gets unexpected push back and now he's in for an uphill climb in which he's trying to convince Cas he's in love with him all the while trying to convince himself that he's not.

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    Just where exactly is the line between “to love” and “to be in love”? What difference is required between “flatmate” and “husband”? (Besides the rings, obviously.) No, the important bit is that they have each other. Thirty years, give or take, in an atypical marriage. Basically a long bit of platonic domestic fluff.

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    03 Mar 2026

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    Right. Of course. Everyone assumed they were a couple and no one would question it. John put his elbows up on the table so he could rest his head in his hands. "You want to pretend to be a couple so we can chaperone a trip to Disney World with Rosie's class and you won't have to share a room with a stranger?"

    "Exactly." Sherlock beamed at him. "Don't worry about the cost. The Birmingham case last month paid more than enough to cover expenses for all three of us."

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