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Shane doesn’t know when this started. Maybe he was always like this, but things had escalated since he was drafted. Shane was afraid of a lot of things, but of all the things he was afraid of, the one thing he couldn't push away or hide from was himself. Control was the only thing keeping him tethered to this world. Control made him a great hockey player, and helped him nab a Stanley Cup, but control was also eating him alive.
His search led him to Reddit, where all actually helpful answers came from, and he read a word he had never thought about: chastity. He knew academically what that meant, but in relation to him, he had no idea. Then he learned a new set of words: cock cage.
Was he really doing this? It was impulsive, and he didn't even know if he would follow through when it came, but he felt possessed. He was getting hard at the thought, and wasn't that the fucking problem? He needed time back in his day that didn't involve jerking off to Rozanov, and this was certainly a solution.
or, Shane gets a cock cage and learns a lot about himself and his relationship with Ilya
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- Part 1 of The State of Dreaming
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sandcastles (all the pleasure, none of the burden) by prettyshadow (theaujasmin)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
21 Feb 2026
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“H’rder,” Shane whines into his mouth, not even trying to interrupt the kiss but speaking pathetically muffled and slurred around Ilya’s tongue.
Ilya knocks their foreheads together, smiles.
“Nooooo Ilya, not before the game, Ilya,” he whines, a sweetly mocking imitation of Shane, “and now look at you, mhm? Why should I ever listen to your complaining, baby, when you’re gonna be such an easy, perfect slut for it anyways?”
Or: Shane plays four-dimensional chess to get Ilya to fuck him even when he tells him no, for Shane-typical control freak reasons, in Shane-typical convoluted ways, with Shane-typical unawareness of this being a sex freak thing. Ilya provides, of course.
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- Part 1 of quantum mechanics
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where nobody knows you by dottiedoesotherfandoms (dottie_wan_kenobi)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
29 Jan 2026
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After a moment, Hayden pulls back. Then he hands her the phone—Shane’s phone.
“I grabbed this when I was getting his stuff and I saw, well.”
He looks away from Yuna, briefly glances at David, then looks away from him too. There’s an oddly guilty look on his face that has Yuna suspicious at once.
“Um, has Shane told you guys about Lily?”
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AKA, Yuna and David find out about Lily, Shane’s... girlfriend?, while he's in the hospital. It's a while before they find out about Ilya.
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- Yuna & "Lily" texting
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- Part 2 of heated rivalry social media fics
- Part 1 of i need sunshine (Ilya & Hollanders)
- Part 3 of all dwk heated rivalry fics
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23 Jan 2026
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Scott: I’ve been getting asked if it’s me. I considered denying but if we all deny and one person doesn’t, that sort of gives their identity away and I’m not sure they want that.
Ilya: Everyone thinks is me. My agent asked if I want to comment too
Scott: Wait, it's not you?
Ilya: Maybe 🤔 Or maybe not 🤪
Eric: What?Or: When Adrian Dela Cruz reveals he dated an NHL player, chaos and damage control ensue. A story told through texts, tweets, and one pretentious Variety article.
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- Part 1 of the secret society of stick handlers
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17 Dec 2025
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"Stop asking me if it's okay. If I want it. You're always, like—whatever. I'm not one of your fucking girls, okay? If I don't like it, I'll stop you. I can make you stop."
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