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  1. Public Bookmark 8

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    serial kilya. gore, snuff, smut, dead dove: do not eat, ooc. truly my most dastardly works.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    Shane had agreed readily. Yes, he wanted. To be hunted by a stranger with twenty dogs and a knife on his belt. To see him again. To find the source of the squirming thing in his chest and bring it to light.

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    04 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 13

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    This is not a love story.

    There are moments in the man's life that he would describe as love stories. When he first started playing hockey. When he met his wife. When they started their family together.

    But this — this long, jagged, almost-but-never-quite-healed injury of a tale — is not one of those moments. It's not a single moment, either. It's months and years and decades of feelings that twist like knives, of memories that pang like bruises.

    This is not a love story. This is a war wound.

    Like most wounds, this one owes its life to the weapon that created it. The weapon that birthed this wound is not a weapon at all, not in the physical sense, but rather a name:

    Hollander.

    The man — Brandon Wiebe — has not thought about that name in twenty years.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    In 2008, Shane Hollander lost to Ilya Rozanov. Fresh-faced, hungry. Like he’d been living off victory points that were scraps compared to the real thing, compared to beating Rozanov, the first man in the world to make him feel second-best. Back then, he’d thought that was the only thing he felt, too. That the electric pulse jostling between them in the gym some time later was a trick of the mind. It was like seeing sky above for the first time. See you at the draft. Life in that paper body.

    or: Ilya comes back. This is the crux of it.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is a young man in America. Here he is in the off hours.

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    29 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander, captain of the Boston Raiders, is the the undisputed best hockey player of his generation. But he’s lonely. His relationships with women have never worked out, and he’s afraid he knows why.

    Ilya Rozanov is a charismatic, openly bisexual personal trainer and influencer. His Insta is half thirst traps, half brutal and perceptive hockey critique.

    It’s no surprise, really, that Shane falls for him so hard and so fast.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    13/?
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    21 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    19 Mar 2026

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    In the video playing on the little screen in Shane’s hand, Hunter gets up with some help, his left arm cradling the elbow of his limp right one. That shoulder is probably dislocated, something that Shane distantly recognizes is going to suck tremendously for him to have to let heal practically at the start of the season. Ilya still isn’t moving.

    Ilya is injured during a game. Not only does Shane’s world not end in the aftermath, it gets a little bit brighter.

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    18 Mar 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    16 Mar 2026

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    Ilya is in charge of when Shane gets off. Shane is testing the limits of that deal.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    Odd-Man Rush: The situation that occurs when a team enters the attacking zone and outnumbers the opposing players in the zone.

    Or,

    Shane doesn’t know why he still feels so off-kilter. He should be the happiest he’s ever been—he won the Cup, he feels like he’s maybe starting to have a few friends on his team, and he’s finally starting to believe his parents when they tell him he won’t get traded again. He should be on top of the world, but sometimes he still feels like the lone defender on an odd-man rush, skating as fast as he can to prevent what feels like an inevitable outcome.

    The problem is that he’s not quite sure which outcome it is that he’s trying to stop.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    Do you want something, Ilya had asked. The answer was, as it always was, yes. But that had not been the question.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    "Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."

    "You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"

    "I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."

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    Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    “Okay, no, you’re right. Fuck the Admirals. But fuck their stupid gay-kiss Stanley Cup win, too.”
    What?
    Another moment of quiet, then:
    “I never kissed my boyfriend on the ice, though,” Shane muttered resentfully. Hayden’s heart thudded at the bitterness in his tone. Shane didn’t talk like that.

    As Shane becomes more comfortable in his and Ilya’s relationship, he starts letting his guard down, bit by bit. Hayden is subject to some very confusing one-sided phone conversations.

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    101,905

    28 Feb 2026

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    The Boston Raiders tease Rozanov about his mystery long distance girlfriend, sending Jane stories and embarrassing pictures of Ilya. Shane and Ilya don’t think much of it - until Theo Michaud gets traded to from Boston to Montreal and updates his contact list.

    Set during Ilya's last year as a Raider and Michaud's first day as a Metro.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Did you figure anything out? Shane writes, and flips the page around for Ilya to read it.

    Wont like the answer, Ilya’s written, in his quick hand.

    So he doesn’t have to take the pen back, Shane just shrugs. What?

    Ilya sits down at the desk for a steady surface to explain.

    3 things
    1 its curse. if true we can break it
    2 its spell. if true we can break it
    3 we are soulmates. if true we are fucked

    “No,” Shane mutters, before he can stop himself. Immediately, he slams a hand over his mouth.

    or: Ilya and Shane are soulmates, and their bond prevents them from both talking and being apart. Unfortunately, the only thing that’ll make the pain stop is confessing the one thing they can say: that they’re in love.

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    47,838

    27 Feb 2026

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    your fave is problematic - yourfaveisproblematic.tumblr.com/post/6453061/ilya-rozanov

    Admin note: POST IS WIP
    1. Admitted to using the f-slur during his rookie year in the NHL and doubled down with ableist remarks on Twitter.
    2. He’s a stalinist and supports the unlawful slaughter of children.
    [cont…]

    rozanovdefender replied to yourfaveisproblematic
    “the unlawful slaughter of children” YOU MEAN THE ROMANOVS??

    habsbluntrotation reblogged ⇄ yourfaveisproblematic
    girl not to be a bolshevik on main but the romanovs sorta deserved that one

    or,
    Ilya Rozanov lands himself on yourfaveisproblematic for—well, quite a few reasons.

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    2/?
    Comments:
    458
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    1,087
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    52,469

    26 Feb 2026

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