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    “You are very angry at me. That is okay.” He looked up and met Shane’s eyes. “Tell me. I can take it; I will not get angry. But please, say it all, so I know, and so you do not keep carrying it. I do not want it to rot in here,” he said, jabbing a finger at his chest.

    Ilya took another deep breath, “Please. I cannot fix it if I do not know. Is it because I was too needy?”

    “No, it fucking wasn’t, Ilya!” Shane shouted, eyes shining. “There is quite literally nowhere else that I would rather be. I have moved heaven and earth to have you in my life. You make me. Do you understand that? Loving you makes me who I am. It is a privilege to be here when you are having a hard time. But oh my fucking god, I am so tired of you treating me like absolute dog shit when you get sad. It has to fucking stop."

     

    Ilya Rozanov is being a vicious asshole, and he won't let himself think about why. But after a fight with Yuna and Shane, he's forced to confront what's actually below the surface. Shane Hollander shows up to take good care of his sad lover.

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    13 Mar 2026

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    Shane and Ilya's peace is hard-won and devastatingly fragile. A phone call from Russia threatens to bring the whole house of cards down around them.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Shane loses his game to a blizzard and his boyfriend to a bad hit, all in the same night.

    Snowed in with his parents in Montreal, he watches Ilya get stretchered off on live TV, and discovers that when your relationship is a secret, no one at the hospital thinks to call you.

    In Ottawa, Ilya wakes up with broken bones, a serious concussion, and a neatly edited brain. The months where he was lonely and depressed and fighting with Shane? Gone. He’s mentally living in the soft, hopeful beginning of things—and the more everyone tiptoes around him, the more wrong it feels.

    The Centaurs step up. The Hollanders dig in. Shane tries to convince himself that “temporary amnesia” is not the same thing as losing him.

    They’re still together. They’re technically fine.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Yuna has let go of a lot in her life, including her own dream to play professional hockey. But that's alright; she has Shane and David and they have built a storybook legacy together. Then Ilya Rozanov gets hurt and suddenly Shane's calling her asking if they'll go pick up his archrival from the hospital.

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    15 Feb 2026