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Though it might not seem like Tommy but the quite is something he loved. There was always that part of him the feared not being heard so he had to voice him self by yelling and screaming so people could hear him. He hated that part of him. But what he hated more was taking about it. He never new why he couldn't bring him self to talk about him self not even for self prize. He tried to remember what triggered this habit of his but there was a voice in the back of his head saying “forget”. He never fingered out why that specific voice was something he could always fish out of the crowd because well to say it simply he had a lot of them… another thing Tommy never told anyone.
Tommy looked up just in time to see the sun just barley show it self on the horizon. It was always beautiful but he much preferred the sunset. Tubbo always said its just the sunrise put on revers which is technical right but to tommy it was a big difference. Because the sunrise to him represented hope, a new start, literally anything good… everything Tubbo wanted…but Tommy though he wished for the same thing he new deep down its not were he wanted to go. The sun set to him represented time running out, slowly but beautifully going away… he always told him self to stick around for… for who again?… why did he want to stay? Was it Tubbo? Ranboo? The SBI? Maybe his son Shroud? He cant tell…he only realized he was crying once he heard a sob brake through his throat. “God fucking damn it”
Sitting up form the bench tommy turned away from the most beautiful part of the sunrise, hedging back in to his dirt house? Hut? Thing? What ever it was. He looked im his chest seeing Techno’s cape Tommy always wondered how that man always was seen in a clean cap no mater the occasion. Turns out he had a lot of them, to the point that he never new that Tommy took one… he picked the cap up and wrapped him self with it. He pressed his face in to the fur lining the top of the cap trying to ground him self a bit because his thoughts were too loud at the moment.
Something that only Tommy knows and will never tell the SBI was that he had something from each member. Form Phil he had a bucket hat though it was red and white tommy at the time snickered at the fact that Phil had different way cooler colors but refused to ware any of them. Form Wilber he had a bright yellow sweater like seriously why did the man have so many to begin with. He purposefully left something of his to replace what he took. Tommy left a newly made gold crown that he hand made for Techno. For Wilber he left a maroon bene he would have left a bright red one but he new that Wilber would never ware it. For Phil he gave him a red feather, one of his own. He smiled when each of the members had worn the items he’d left behind for them. Phil probably new it was him because no one else on the SMP had red feathers. Phil new that the feather was a sign of respect and trust, so he wove it in to his hat.
He had stuff to do but of course didn’t want to to them. He new dream was coming after him. He new that his ‘home’ wasn’t safe anymore…hell has it ever been safe.it blow up like what three times now he didn’t count (aka I as the writer don't remember). He needed to get his things from exile and build a house somewhere else. As well as move Shord there which is a hassle. Shroud was still asleep when he checked up on him he tapped the glass window to his room twice to let him now hes going out. He wanted to take the cape of but he also wanted comfort from throughs he considered family. Funny enough non of them had a good relation ship with him. Wilber didn’t care not even gave him a huge when he was revived, Phil cares about everyone just enough to want them to live, Techno… he could never tell that man is a mystery to him. He could never tell if he hated or loved him.
He left the house after deciding to keep the cape on. He headed to the communal nether portal and immediately regretted waring the cape but refused to take it off. Once he found the portale that lead to exile he stood in front of it for a couple of minutes contemplating it was worth it. He took a deep berth and waked in.
Through the portal he saw the remainder of Logstitshier (who do you spell it) and the once upon a time bright white tent. Like who the hell has a white tent made out of wool. He will keep in mind for the next time… will lets hope there isn’t one. He waked over to the cobblestone cross and dug down to find his chest. Sighing in relief that it was still there and looked Farley untouched. Once he opened it he could feel the panic rising in fast… it wasn’t there. Fuck were was it. There was nothing in the chest. He quickly gout out of the whole he dug just in time to see the portal go out. Shit shit shit. He pulled his shield up and held it close to his chest.
“Hello Tommy, welcome home.” a green hooded man waked slowly towards him like a lion in the savanna just about to hunt down a Gazala.
“What the fuck. Dream” Tommy started shaking his voice was hushed barley audible form the distance to were dream was standing.
“I'm not going to hurt you Tommy… Not yet.” there was a menacing chuckle at the end of that sentence.
“No no dream stay back” Tommy said voice getting louder and shakier. “Get back”
“Tommy I already told you before I'm going to make your life a living hell” he laughed. “I told you in the person that i wanted to now more about the limbo… Tommy im going to KILL you again and again and again.” his words were cold, menacing. Tommy had to RUN.
RUN
PHILL
GO TO PHILL
TECHON
ANYONE OTHER THAN HIM
GO NOW DON’T JUST STAND THERE
I say let him kill you… you wanted to die anyway might as well am I right
RUN TOMMY RUN
And as that voice said he ran and ran as fast as he could… why was he fighting to live again. Shit not the time. As he felt the weather getting colder he realised he was getting close to the snowy tundra. Knowing were Phil and maybe Techno are he ran even faster
“COME HEAR TOMMY” Dream yelled his voice echoing in the clear and emptiness of the tundra. As Tommy reached the trees he new he was close to Techno and Phil's house.
“PHIL PHIL HES GOING TO KILL ME PHIL” he yelled braking though the branches seeing Phill looking strait at him “I CAN”T DO THIS AGAIN PHIL” he ran in to the arms of the person he considered his father.
“Tommy? Are you okay what happened. I need you to calm down breathe”
“DREAM HIS AFTER ME, HE WANTS TO KILL ME PHIL” Phil pulled Tommy behind him looking at the direction Tommy came form.
“Go inside tommy. I swear to go the first thing that man dose after leaving the prison is traumatize a child. I swear to god I'm going to kill that green Teletubby peace of shit” Phil said a slight growl in his voice. Phil helps Tommy to a chair in his house.
“Its okay your okay I'm hear if he even dares wake through those gate I will kill him” Phil said rubbing circles on the shoulder. “There you go better?” Phil asked as one of his ash grey wings gently wrapped around Tommy facing the window just in case dream shows up.
Phil turned to face Tommy “mate?” usually that would catch Tommy's attention but Tommy didn't react.., he just looked at the ground complete terroir in his eyes. “Mate? Dreams gone” nothing Phil pushed tommy closer to him “Tommy? Are you okay” just then he notices that Tommy had tears running down his face. Phil immediately hugged Tommy. “Shhh everything is okay, I'm hear. Its just me and you Tommy” still nothing. He stayed there hugging Tommy waiting for the boy to snap back in to reality. When he heard Tommy whisper in a voice barley audible “please stop” Phil didn’t know what was happening he new Tommy wasn’t taking to him because he wouldn’t be holding on to Phil so tightly. “Tommy?”
“Why are you so loud” Tommy’s even though hushed voice hit Phil with a realization. Tommy wasn’t taking to him. Tommy was somewhere else.
YOU SHOULD HAVE LET HIM KILL YOU
YOU COULD HAVE BEEN FREE
He’s watching you and he always was
DREAM IS GONE STOP BEING A CHILD
DEATH WOULD HAVE BEEN SWEETER AND YOU KNOW IT
Tommy could only feel hand raped around him. Nothing else. He can’t hear Phil shouting for him to snap out of it.
Phil didn't know what to do he only had to deal with crows he needed Techno. Phil carefully stood up Tommy in his arms. He has seen Techno in a similar state when he was a kid but never new what to do. Walking in to Techno’s house Phil realises that Techno was definitely hear because of the sound of potions browning though no one was attending to them.
Phil set Tommy down on the ground because apparently the man (techno) decided that yes no chairs in a house was a good idea. Steve just looked at Phil before looking at the lar up to techno’s room and falling back to sleep. Phil sighed and climbed the ladder.
Techno was asleep with what looked like four blankets on top of him. Phil new the only way to wake techno up was to take the blankets of then again Phil doesn't have any lives to spare. If the situation wasn’t desired Phil would have just left the man alone.
“Techno I need your help” Phil said taking one of the blankets of of techno…
“Techno?” second blanket. Techno ground
“Please” Third one off and techno held on to the last one title
“Kristen I will be seeing you soon” he tugged on the last blanket just barley taking it out of Techno's grasp. Techno simply sat up eyes still closed.
“Techno buddy you now I would never wake you up unless its important” Phil said
“Agh Phil unless its the butcher army situation all over again don’t wake me up” Techno even though his tone sounded simply tiered you can feel the anger radiating of him.
“Techno its about Tommy” Phil began before being interrupted
“Don’t care give me the blankets I'm going to sleep” Techno interrupted with an angry huff.
“Techno I don’t know how to help him he won’t snap out of it. Techno please-” Phil gets interrupted again
“Phil I don’t care give me my blankets back” it was Phil’s tern to get angry
“TECHNOBLADE YOU LISTEN TO ME THIS INSTANT” that made Techno jump a little bit snapping his eyes to see a very angry Philza Mincrafte. “Tommy is not responding to anything I say, Techno I think he has voices… YOU KNOW DAMN WILL they listen to no one. So you will go down the ladder and help me help Tommy.” Techno was speechless. He didn’t know what part of the whole thing was more surprising to him. An angry Philza Mincraft or Tommy having voices.
Techno with not another out a word went down the ladder to see Tommy sat at a wall knees to his chest and his hands covering his ears. Techno jumped down form the ladder and went over to Tommy. He only could hear “shut up” and “please” spilling out of the boys mouth. He grabbed Tommy’s hands pulling them of his ears then went close to his ears and said “YOO Tommy” which surprisingly could Tommy's attention. Not another second Tommy had jumped to Techno hugging him Tightly. Techno Just looked at Steve and said “this teenage boy hug’s titer than you…improve” Techno sat up hugging Tommy back waiting for him to realizer were he is and who he’s actually hugging right know. Which took tommy a minuet before jumping back.
“What?” Tommy looked around to see Phill coming down the ladder and Technoblade sitting cress cross on the floor. “Were? How? Techno..? What am I doing hear”
“Retrace your steps Theseus. What did you do this morning to how you got hear” Techno said flatly.
“I was going to get my stuff from the…shit where is dream? Please tell me he’s not hear.” Tommy said in a panic.
“Your fine Dream isn’t here” Phil said jumping down form the ladder.
The realization hit Tommy late. They saw him in the middle of a panic attack. “Shit” Tommy said in a hushed voice.
“Phil woke me up the least you and do is explain why I didn't know about this earlier” Techno said calmly.
“Phil you could have left me there for a while and I would have been fine you didn’t have to wake Techno up” Tommy said trying to avoid the conversation
“Will sorry you weren't responding and I panicked. Not important. Answer techno’s question”
Tommy sighed “Shit… what do you want me to explain”
“The Voices Tommy” Techno said
“Umm right shit.” Tommy said. He didn’t really know what to explain about the whole thing. “What do you want to know about them?”
“Number estimate, most common want, were you got them from” Techno couldn’t possibly be more blunt. Tommy respected Techno for his bluntness though.
“God why could you have not asked anything else…” after seeing the narrow look Techno gave him he decided to answer. He knew that lies wont work on the man so he answered truthfully “ there most common want is wither me dead or alive, they don't really care if I'm happy or anything. Not anymore. Numbers hmm that's a hard one I would say in the thousands. And were they cam from. I have no idea wat so ever. Honestly didn't know you get them from somewhere” techno only lessoned, Phil showed more concern.
“Did you have them before Phil found you or after” techno asked
“Ummm before I think… yah.” Tommy said trying to remember form were.
“Okay… was it form a mystical creature, or something.” Tommy looked at him with a puzzled look. Techno sighed “I got mine from some random demon who calls him self the blood god, obviously took his title. Sound better on me anyways. He promised me a good life after an incident so I agreed. Didn't get what I wanted but did get a horde of angry pieces of shit, that I deliberately call them chat. Very creative I know.” again blunt as ever.
Tommy giggled a bit at his way of saying things. “Honestly I don't know, never really remember much form before Phil found me. When ever I try and remember there this one voice that no mater how quite they are I can always hear them, thought it was weird. Anyways they always tell me ‘forget’... hey there just as blunt as you techno” techno just face palmed.
“Phil the boy is hopeless. I'm going back to bed” techno said standing up and making his way past Phill to the ladder.
“Dose that voice sound familiar to you. Can you try and remember that much.” Phil speck this time
“Hmm know that you mention it yah they are. Don't remember form were though” Tommy said not really in the mood to try and remember anything right now.
“Oh my god Phil we have another Ranboo situation. Next thing we now he will start to ender walk” techno sound from upstairs. “Your his sensei I'm already bound to die not with me being Ranboo’s sensei apparently. You can have tommy.” Techno said collecting his blankets to go back to sleep.
“God dame it Techno”