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Mi-sun's words were a poison that refused to leave Aera's system.
"Hickies. They're all over your neck."
The hysterical laugh that had followed was a permanent echo in the warehouse, bouncing off the concrete walls and ringing in Aera's ears. It was a hell of a conversation starter - shoving a stranger's (apparently unknown) trauma in their face before they'd even had a chance to wake up. But it wasn't just the rudeness that ate at Aera; it was the blank space in her memory.
What if Mi-sun had been telling the truth? Cruelly - yes - with a harsh, mocking edge - but the truth nonetheless.
She tried to rationalise it, her mind spinning like a tyre in mud. Maybe they dropped me? she thought desperately. Maybe I hit the bed frame when I woke up? But she knew she was lying to herself. Bruises from a fall don't cluster like that. They don't appear in such a specific, intimate pattern.
A cold, sickening dread pooled in her stomach. She had been passed out, defenceless, at the mercy of men whose faces were hidden behind black mesh. The thought that someone had touched her - had used the cover of gas to do god-knows-what - made her skin feel like it didn't belong to her anymore.
As she shuffled into the line for the game hall, her eyes darted from neck to neck, scanning the other players with a frantic, silent hunger for answers. But everyone else was clean. No marks. No bruises. Just the pale, sweaty skin of the terrified.
Maybe it's an allergy? she wondered, her fingers itching to reach up and touch the skin, to feel for the damage herself. The gas, or the fabric... it has to be an allergy.
"Smile!"
Aera didn't blink. She didn't move a muscle. Her expression remained impassive, a shield of ice designed to hide the frantic, trembling girl beneath. She wouldn't give those men the satisfaction of seeing her break.
Flash.
The camera's white light seared her retinas, leaving a ghost of the room burned into her vision. She turned away without a word, her shoes heavy on the floor as she followed the line.
She was no longer a person; she was a pawn in their game. Waking up in this place had been an exercise in mounting dread, but the marks on her neck were the final, deafening alarm. They were proof in this place that her body was not her own. And yet, beneath the terror, a darker, sharper feeling was beginning to take root: greed.
Six days. That was all that stood between her and a life where no one could ever touch her again without her permission. She didn't want to think about what the "games" actually were. She didn't want to think about the gas anymore. She just wanted the prize. She wanted to buy back her soul with their money.
The Square Mask had said the quantity of money would be disclosed after the first game. Whatever that number was, Aera had already decided. She would win. She would survive. She would take their money and scrub the memory of this place - and those marks - off her skin forever.
Two sets of massive green doors groaned open, and the players began to file in like children being led to assembly. Aera followed, her head tilting back as she looked for a ceiling, only to find the vast, pale blue of an open sky. A few birds drifted lazily overhead.
We've been out for a long time, she realised, her stomach churning. The transition from the night of the van to this bright, midday sun was disorientating, a physical reminder of how much time they had lost to the gas.
The room was a nightmare of forced innocence. The walls were painted with crude, vibrant fields under a cartoon sun, and the entrances were shaped like tiny, welcoming houses. It was a playground for giants. Mi-sun had been right about one thing: the aesthetic was purely, sickeningly infantile.
At the far end of the arena stood a colossal animatronic doll. Its eyes were wide, vacant, and fixed on some distant point. On either side of it, two guards stood like sentinels, their red suits a violent gash against the pastel scenery.
"Isn't she creepy?"
The voice was a splinter in Aera's mind. Mi-sun had managed to find her again, already pointing at the doll with a look of wide-eyed amusement.
"Mhm," Aera muttered, her eyes narrowing as she scanned the arena, trying to find the catch. She had no energy left for Mi-sun's relentless commentary; her mind was a friction fire of survival and suspicion.
"I didn't finish my question earlier," Mi-sun continued, undeterred by the wall of silence. "What's your name?"
Aera's eyebrows twitched. She'd enjoyed the interruption earlier, but apparently, Mi-sun was a dog with a bone. "Aera," she mumbled, the name barely more than a breath, hoping the sheer scale of the room would swallow it. She willed the other girl to drop it, wanting nothing more than to retreat back into the safety of her own anonymity. She didn't want to be bothered, and she didn't want to answer anymore of her relentless questions.
Before Mi-sun could pounce on the name, a woman's voice - smooth, robotic, and devoid of warmth - erupted from the hidden speakers. Aera felt a surge of genuine gratitude for the interruption; if the first interruption had been a lucky break, this one felt like a calculated rescue.
"The first game is: Red Light, Green Light."
"Aha! I knew it," Mi-sun chirped, bumping her shoulder into Aera yet another time. "Bit strange though, isn't it? Since we're all adults..."
Aera stiffened, her gaze remaining fixed on the giant doll at the end of the field. Adults? Please. She thought bitterly, the word tasting like ash. Mi-sun's brand of "maturity" was evidently just a thinner veil for the same petty taunts she'd already displayed, made all the more ridiculous by that neon-pink hair.
The voice continued, its instructions echoing off the painted fields: "You can move forward when 'it' shouts Green Light. Stop when 'it' shouts Red Light. If your movement is detected afterwards, you will be eliminated."
The word eliminated hung in the bright, sunny air like a threat. Aera took a breath, grounding herself, feeling the gritty sand beneath her soles. It was a sterile, bloodless term - the kind of word used to tidy away a mess - and it made the sunlight feel jarringly clinical.
"Those who cross the finish line within five minutes will pass this round."
"We should do this together," Mi-sun said, playfully wiggling her eyebrows. "Aye? Teamwork?"
Aera didn't even look at her. She stood rigid, her heart hammering a frantic rhythm against her ribs. She wasn't here to make friends, and she certainly wasn't here to play team with someone who treated a kidnapping like a slumber party.
A heavy, expectant silence followed the announcement. Then, the doll's head snapped away, and the mechanical voice shrieked: "Green light!"
The crowd surged forward. Most were cautious, taking hesitant, stuttering steps, but one man - Player 430 - decided his ego was sturdier than the rules. He was built like a tank, his muscles straining against the cyan tracksuit as he sprinted, a cocky grin visible even from behind. Aera watched him, a cynical brow arched. He's going to get himself disqualified.
"Red light!"
The command was a whip-crack. The man, caught mid-stride, tried to kill his momentum. His trainers skidded on the floor, his weight shifting far too forward. He stumbled, arms flailing and crashed to the ground in a tangle of limbs.
Aera fought the urge to smirk. She had been right. He was out.
"Player 430, eliminated."
The sound that followed didn't belong in a playground. It was a sharp, deafening crack that echoed off the painted clouds, a sound so violent it made the air vibrate. Aera flinched, her ears ringing. Around her, players stood like statues, their eyes darting around, trying to find the source of the noise.
Was that... a firework? she wondered, her heart beginning a slow, heavy thud against her ribs.
The game didn't wait for them to process it. "Green light!"
The crowd was slower this time, paralysed by a new, nameless dread. Aera forced her leaden legs to move, Mi-sun trailing at her heels like a shadow. As she inched forward, her gaze remained fixed on the man on the floor.
He wasn't getting up.
A dark, visceral red began to sweep from beneath his chest, flowering across the floor and staining the sand of the arena. The liquid was too thick, too dark to be anything other than it was.
The realisation hit Aera like a physical blow. Her eyes widened, her vision blurring at the edges as her mind finally connected the dots. That hadn't been a firework. It had been a bullet. And Player 430 wasn't "disqualified" - he was dead.
The icy mask she had spent all morning building shattered. Aera's breath hitched, coming in ragged, shallow stabs that refused to fill her lungs. Her hands began to shake - a violent, uncontrollable tremor that travelled up her arms. The blocks of wood that were her legs felt like they were turning to water.
"He's-he's been shot!" An older woman's scream tore through the room, high and jagged with pure, unadulterated terror.
The sound was the breaking point. The fragile silence of the playground dissolved into a cacophony of gasps and frantic, wheezing breath. The "game" had been a lie. This wasn't a children's playground; it was a slaughterhouse.
Panic ignited like a trail of petrol. The crowd broke, a wave of cyan tracksuits surging back toward the double doors. People screamed, tripping over one another, their fingers clawing at the painted wood until their nails bled. But the doors were dead-bolted - an absolute, impartial barrier. There was no exit. They were trapped in a pastel-coloured hell.
Aera felt the cold, overconfident persona she'd spent years perfecting dissolve in an instant. It didn't just fade; it vanished, leaving her raw and exposed. A wave of instinctive self-loathing washed over her as she remembered her smug thought about Player 430 - how she had practically cheered for his failure. Her ego felt like a lead weight, dragging her down into the blood-stained sand.
Suddenly, a feral, protective instinct flared through her terror. It wasn't logic, and it wasn't kindness - it was a desperate refusal to face the end in isolation. She didn't want to die alone, and despite everything, she didn't want the girl beside her to become a permanent part of the ground.
"Mi-sun, we need to go!"
Aera's voice was a ragged, unrecognisable sob. All the irritation from ten minutes ago - the hickeys, the laughter, the childishness - had been incinerated by the heat of the moment. Mi-sun was no longer a nuisance; she was a lifeline, the only thing anchoring Aera to a world that still made sense.
But a hand clamped onto her wrist with surprising, bruising strength.
"No, Aera. Stay still!"
The change in Mi-sun was jarring. The high-pitched chirp was gone, replaced by a low, steady command that sounded years older than the girl who had been mocking her earlier. She gripped Aera's hand, a violent anchor that kept her from sprinting into the line of fire.
"Red light!"
The command was ignored by the frantic crowd at the doors. They kept pounding, kept pleading.
But the game showed no remorse.
The air was suddenly obliterated by a rhythmic, mechanical roar. Ear-piercing pops mixed with the guttural screams of the dying, the sounds rising toward the mocking blue sky.
Aera's vision pulsed, her eyes stinging as she fought a losing battle against her tears. It was impossible not to look. The arena was being repainted in a gruesome, visceral red. Blood stained the walls and the floor, and small, warm specks splashed against Aera's cheek. She felt a scream building in her throat - a physical pressure that threatened to shatter her teeth.
"I know you're scared," Mi-sun whispered. The provoking, irksome girl from earlier had vanished. In her place was a voice that didn't tremble, a hand that didn't shake. "I am too."
Aera didn't care about the mockery anymore. She didn't care about the lies. She just clung to Mi-sun's hand, her mind a static-filled void, watching the girl stand like a statue against the slaughter. Aera stared down at the sandy floor, unable to compute how Mi-sun was being so brave. The only sign of her fear was the rapid, frantic blinking of her eyes.
Then, the gunfire stopped.
The playground was carpeted in bodies. The only sounds left were the ragged, wet gasps of the survivors and the distant, haunting sob of someone who had lost everything.
"All we need to do is follow the instructions. We stay still, okay?"
Aera could only offer a jagged, microscopic nod. She had spent her life trying to be the one in control, the one who didn't need anyone, but in the face of this senseless slaughter, she was a child again - lost, terrified, and clinging to the only hand that offered a way out.
The robotic voice of the woman erupted again, sterile and mocking. "Green light!"
Aera's internal system was short-circuiting. She needed her coping mechanisms - the ritualistic digging of her nails into her palms, the rhythmic breathing - but her body refused to obey. The only thing she could bring herself to do was grip Mi-sun's hand with a bruising intensity, her knuckles strained to a ghostly pallor.
"T-Together?" Aera whispered, the word hitching in her throat.
Mi-sun didn't reply, but Aera felt a subtle, firm squeeze in return. A silent pact made in the shadow of a massacre.
Then, Mi-sun lunged. She pulled Aera with a sudden, violent force. Aera stumbled, her trainers skidding over the sand, nearly tripping over the outstretched arm of a corpse. She was in shock, but she knew that without that forceful yank, she would have remained rooted to the spot until the timer hit zero. They ran with a frantic, uncoordinated desperation, the countdown clock on the wall bleeding seconds like a wound.
"Red light!"
Aera's heart nearly leaped out of her chest. The halt was precipitous, her muscles screaming as she threw her weight backward to stop her momentum.
Crack. Crack-crack.
The gunshots were rhythmic now, exploding into the blue sky like a sick parody of pyrotechnics. Aera's eyes were wide, fixed on the doll's head as it rotated. She felt that warm pressure on her hand once again. Mi-sun was squeezing back, a small, sad smile ghosting her lips as she watched Aera's chest heave.
"It's okay," Mi-sun breathed, the words barely a vibration.
"Green light!"
They lunged again. The finish line - a thick, neon-pink stripe on the sand - was tantalisingly close. Aera's muscles were burning, her blood singing with adrenaline, but the floor was a minefield of bodies. In her haste, her foot clipped the heel of Mi-sun's trainer.
Aera gasped, the sound lost in the wind. She pitched forward, her balance shattering. She fell headfirst into Mi-sun's chest, her weight nearly taking them both down into the red-soaked sand.
"Red light!"
Time stopped. Aera was frozen, draped against Mi-sun, her face pressed into the rough polyester of the other girls tracksuit. A single tear escaped, hot and stinging, trailing down her cheek. She didn't dare swallow. She didn't dare breathe. She could feel Mi-sun's heart hammering wildly against her own ribs - a frantic, staccato rhythm that proved the girl wasn't nearly as brave as she looked. They were two castaways clinging to a piece of wreckage in a sea of blood, the only thing keeping each other from sinking into the sand.
For a heartbeat, Aera was certain the sensors would pick up the tremble in her knees. She waited for the pop of the rifle, the cold kiss of the bullet.
But it never came.
"Green light!" The final shout was the signal for a last, feral sprint. Mi-sun didn't just run; she practically threw Aera toward the finish line, a final, selfless shove that sent Aera sprawling across the pink marker. Mi-sun tumbled over a split second later.
They hit the floor on the other side, the pain of the impact dulled by the sheer shock of survival. Aera rolled onto her back, her breath coming in ragged, wet hitches. She slammed her palms over her face, trying to press her eyes back into her skull, but she couldn't block out the images. Her first sob wasn't a release; it was a visceral, guttural howl that tore through her throat. It was the sound of a person breaking in half.
This is my fault. This is all my fucking fault.
The thought didn't just circle her mind; it pecked at her, a vulture tearing at live meat. Every decision she'd ever made - every lie to her parents, every won she'd borrowed, every moment she'd spent thinking she was smarter than the system - had led to this blood-soaked sand. She had played a game with her life, and the house had paid out in corpses. She could feel the cooling specks of other people's blood drying on her cheeks, a permanent mask of her own selfishness.
She felt a weight on her hand - Mi-sun's palm, steady and grounding - but the touch only made Aera's breakdown more violent.
"Are you okay?" Mi-sun's voice was small, cracked with its own exhaustion.
Aera shook her head violently, her whole body racked with erratic, convulsive tremors. She wasn't okay. She would never be okay again. The girl felt a phantom pressure in her chest, as if the hundreds of lives lost behind that finish line were sitting on her lungs, suffocating her.
Curling into a foetal position right there on the sand, she clutched her stomach as if she'd been shot herself. She had survived the game, but the girl who had walked through those green doors ten minutes ago was gone, buried under the bodies in the sand. And the girl left on the floor was nothing but a hollowed-out shell, shaking in the shadow of a massacre.
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The atmosphere had undergone a violent, jarring shift. The nervous, electric excitement that had pulsed through the room before the first game had been hollowed out, replaced by the stagnant air of a morgue. The warehouse vibrated with a gut-wrenching silence so heavy it felt physical, pressing against the eardrums of the survivors. Most players sat in a glazed, catatonic state - broken porcelain dolls unsuccessfully glued back together, their seams showing in the way they stared at nothing. No one dared to speak; the only sound was the occasional, breathy mutter of a prayer or a sob.
Aera sat huddled on her bunk, her knees pulled tight against her chest as if she were trying to occupy the smallest amount of space possible, as if being compact might make her invisible to the next horror. She leaned her cheek against her knees; her eyes fixed on a tiny scratch in the metal bedframe. She was caught in a trance of memory: the rhythmic, mechanical thud of the doll's head, the deafening cracks of the rifles, and the sea of cyan tracksuits being repainted in blood.
"I got your dinner."
The voice broke through the fog. Mi-sun stood at the edge of the bunk, her shadow falling over Aera's curled form. She placed a tray at the foot of the bed and slid it forward. Aera didn't even look at it. The very thought of swallowing felt like a betrayal to the hundreds of people whose lungs would never draw a breath again.
"I don't want it," Aera said. Her voice was flat, hollowed out.
"Aera, you need to eat-"
"I said, I don't want it." The interruption was sharp, a jagged edge of ice. She wasn't angry at Mi-sun; she was just... done.
A profound, aching gratitude for the girl pulsed in her chest - a debt she knew she could never truly repay after Mi-sun had anchored her through the worst of the terror. But that warmth was a heavy, complicated knot she wasn't ready to untangle. Right now, she just wanted to be alone with her ghosts. She didn't want to be nurtured back into a world that allowed for decimation; she didn't want to eat, and she certainly didn't want to move. All she had the strength for was to sit there in the wreckage of her own mind, letting the silence swallow her whole.
"Why won't you eat?" Mi-sun's tone shifted. Her voice lacked the artificial cheer of the morning and the steady authority of the massacre; it was something else entirely. It was more guarded - clinical. She tilted her head, her gaze sweeping over Aera with a blunt, unsentimental practicality. She looked like a mechanic assessing a piece of machinery that had suddenly stalled.
Aera bit the inside of her cheek until she tasted the metallic tang of iron, fighting back a fresh wave of tears. She didn't respond, her gaze fixed stubbornly on the floor. Every time she closed her eyes, she felt the weight of the people she'd stepped over in the sand, their bodies becoming nothing more than obstacles in her path to the finish line. She hadn't pulled a trigger, but she had used their deaths to buy her own life, and the guilt felt like a heavy, suffocating shroud.
"Look," Mi-sun said, her voice dropping into a low, coaxing hum. "We have to be grateful, Aera. Out of everyone in that room, we were the ones meant to walk away. We're the lucky ones."
Aera blinked, the frustration inside her beginning to simmer. Lucky. The word felt like a slur. Mi-sun said it with such airy, desperate optimism, as if they had merely weathered a passing storm rather than a systematic slaughter.
"Luck doesn't feel like this," Aera whispered, finally looking up. Her eyes were rimmed with red, her expression a mask of raw grief. "They were people, Mi-sun. And now they're... gone. How can you look at that and call it luck?"
Mi-sun didn't flinch. She didn't offer a soft word or a sympathetic look. Instead, she stepped closer, her hand landing on Aera's shoulder. It wasn't a comforting touch; it felt disturbingly possessive. It carried a trace of that sharp, almost seethingly familiar bitchiness that Aera hadn't thought about since secondary school - a look that said I am the one standing, and you are the one falling.
"Why can't you just be glad you survived?" Mi-sun asked, her voice dropping to a low, airless hiss.
"Glad?" The word exploded out of Aera, louder than she'd intended. A few hollowed-out faces turned toward them, but Aera didn't care. The dam had shattered. "Glad for what, Mi-sun? For being alive because a hundred other people were wiped out in five minutes?"
Mi-sun's eyes widened, her mask slipping for a fraction of a second.
"I'm thinking about anything but myself right now," Aera whispered, her voice cracking as the anger dissolved into a hollow, aching despair. The words tasted like ash on her tongue. "They had lives. Families. Children who are waiting for them to come home. And they died for moving. For a game. It's absolutely inhumane."
She looked at Mi-sun's hand on her shoulder - the hand that had quite literally dragged her back from the edge of the grave - and felt a sickening wave of conflict. She was indebted to a person who seemed to have no room left for empathy.
"Do you even care?" Aera asked, her voice trembling with a mix of disappointment and genuine disbelief. "Do you even feel anything for them?"
Mi-sun remained utterly composed, her expression as stagnant as deep water. She leaned in closer, her grip on Aera's shoulder tightening just enough to be felt. "I care about you," she said, her voice dropping. "I'm saying that at least we're not dead."
Aera looked at her - at the pink streaks in her hair, the sharp eyes, the mask of unshakeable pragmatism. She felt a surge of cold rejection. "You don't even know me."
Mi-sun didn't miss a beat. Her gaze remained locked on Aera's, flat and unapologetic. "And you don't know them," she countered, gesturing to the crowd of empty vessels, already drained of all life.
The words hit Aera like a physical blow. It was the ultimate dismissal - a reminder that in this place, a stranger's life was worth nothing more than the space they occupied.
Mi-sun let out a small, sharp breath, a smirk beginning to play at the corners of her mouth - the same look Aera had worn when she first arrived. "Besides," Mi-sun added, her eyes gleaming with a focused, singular greed. "We're one step closer to that money."
The words were a mirror, and Aera hated the reflection. Sounds like easy money to me. Hearing them thrown back at her in the wake of a mass murder was nauseating. Her own thoughts from hours ago came back to haunt her, to mock her. She felt a wave of pure revulsion - not just for Mi-sun, but for the person she was before the game.
Without another word, Aera wrenched her shoulder away. Mi-sun's proximity felt like a cold, creeping infection - a numbness that threatened to swallow Aera's remaining humanity. She didn't want the alliance, and she certainly didn't want the logic of a survivor who could look at a field of bodies and see only a bank balance.
She stood up, her legs still feeling like lead, and started walking toward the massive steel door at the end of the room.
"Aera! Where are you going?" Mi-sun shouted after her, but Aera didn't look back. She needed to be somewhere - anywhere - where she didn't have to endure the cold, rhythmic pulse of Mi-sun's justifications anymore; it was a special kind of madness that dressed itself up as common sense while standing in a pool of blood.
She reached the door in the corner of the room and knocked twice, her hands shaking. A guard's masked face appeared behind the small window.
"Can I go to the bathroom?" she asked, the words catching in her dry throat. She didn't need the toilet. What she actually needed was to stand before a mirror and confront the stranger in the reflection. She needed to know if she could still find a trace of herself under the mask of dread and gore that had settled over her skin like a second, unwanted soul.
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