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   I'll Sleep When I'm Dead by Perrydise

   Fandoms: LEGO Ninjago (Cartoon 2011-2022), LEGO Ninjago: Dragons Rising (Cartoon 2023)  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Gen
   • Complete Work

   16 Oct 2025

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Kai & Jay Walker (Ninjago)
   • Kai & Rogue (Ninjago)
   • Kai (Ninjago)
   • Jay Walker (Ninjago)
   • Rogue (Ninjago)
   • Mentioned Ninja Team (Ninjago)
   • Kai Angst (Ninjago)
   • Jay Walker Angst (Ninjago)
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • LEGO Ninjago: Dragons Rising Season 03
   • LEGO Ninjago: Dragons Rising Miniseries: Ninjago Legends: Monstrosity
   • Kai Needs a Hug (Ninjago)
   • Kai Needs Therapy (Ninjago)
   • POV Alternating
   • Amnesiac Jay Walker (Ninjago)
   • None of the ninja hate each other
   • they just think they do
   • But they connect in the end
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • The Merge (Ninjago)
   • is this plasma?
   • You Decide
   • Temporary Character Death

   Summary

   In the Land of Monsters, Kai's everyday struggles against horrific creatures and unforgiving terrain created a passive habit of suicidal thought, a habit that didn't fade on his return to the monastery. With all of his support systems in havoc since The Merge, he sees no reason to keep going. Every day is a struggle to find some tiny reason to stay, knowing that one day, he'll run out of reasons.

   He misses Jay dearly. Maybe he'd be able to talk Kai out of these terrible thoughts, just like Kai did for him years ago, but this person in the monastery isn't the Jay he knows. Is he?

   A spiritual successor/sequel work to Vyoleya's work, "maybe i'll never sleep."

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   13,323

   Chapters:

   4/4

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