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Years later, Eddie would wonder exactly what the first sign was. If it was the cough or the fatigue. If it was the way that Buck always seemed to be just a little short of breath, or got dizzier than usual when standing up. He wondered if he had recognized the signs then, could he have changed things? Stopped the ticking of the clock, the slipping of the grains of sand into the bottom of the hourglass?
Years later, he would realize that once the symptoms started to show, it was likely already too late.
But that wasn’t what he had been paying attention to. No, Eddie had been focused on what had been simultaneously the easiest and (second) hardest thing he’d ever done: realizing he was in love with Evan Buckley.
Or, how Eddie realizes that Buck is hiding a secret from the 118—one that could fundamentally change everything forever. This is a story about hope and grief, about coming to terms with oneself and learning to accept love, and about what losing someone can look like. This is a story about love, loss, and all the messy things in between.
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14 Mar 2026
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After Chimney becomes Captain, changes occur at the 118 due to HR's concerns about Buck working under Chimney, and Chief Simpson backs Buck up and hears appalling comments. What happens when there are people who aren't happy with getting in trouble?
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14 Mar 2026
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“I’m Bobby, by the way.” The man looked at him expectantly, waiting for Evan to answer. Bobby then raised an eyebrow, further trying to prompt an answer out of him. But instead of giving him his name Evan simply muttered “Doesn’t matter.”
“Of course it matters.” Bobby told him, smiling kindly before the pair started walking.
Evan shoved his hands in his pockets, “No, it really doesn’t.”
“Well, is there a nickname I could use instead?”
“Why do you care?” He huffed.
“I need to call you something.”
Evan frowned, no one had ever cared enough for that, but then again the only people he knew were his family and they didn’t care about him, at least not about him as a person. ‘Evan’ was the name of the thing they’d created to keep Daniel alive, and now ‘Evan’ wasn’t needed, he’d been discarded, so he might as well get rid of the name too.
He hesitated for a second before saying “Buck, you can call me Buck.”
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At 17 Buck's brother dies.
At 17 Buck meets a man on a bridge.
At 17 Buck moves to LA.
At 17 Buck begins again.
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08 Mar 2026
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Following Bobby’s death and the Season 8 finale, Buck starts to develop some worsening pain in his bad leg. He ignores it, at first, the pain always comes and goes after all.
Though when he finally gets to the doctor and gets diagnosed with cancer, his situation really hits him. He really doesn’t have anyone right now and is going through it.
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25 Feb 2026
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Post-lawsuit, Buck fights to reclaim his place at the 118. But the team he came back for doesn’t quite feel like home anymore, and the distance between him and Eddie keeps widening.
Buck feels himself slowly disappearing - first from the team, then from himself.
He's always been good at saving other people.
He's never been good at saving himself.
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A Buck and Eddie post-lawsuit fic.
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Please heed the tags! This fic explores alcohol and substance abuse and may be triggering for some readers. If these themes are difficult for you, please put yourself first.
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