Chronically_dead_user
Recent bookmarks
-
Tags
Summary
What if Kim Dokja tried again and succeeded, leading to his early end?
Bookmarked by Chronically_dead_user
09 Apr 2026
-
Tags
Summary
He was going to watch her find the two seconds of nothingness.
And he was going to want it. He was going to need it.
He was tired of fighting. He was so unbelievably tired of being strong, of being good, of taking the punishment and hoping that someone, someday, would decide he was worthy of forgiveness, of love.
Bobby didn't want him back at the 118. Eddie wouldn't look at him. His parents had never loved him.
I wish I could say I feel nothing, Buck thought, a tear finally slipping through his fingers and dropping onto his jeans. But I feel everything.
He sat in the darkness of the loft, listening to the shower run, waiting for the ticking clock to strike zero.
He was going to relapse tonight. He had already made the choice. Now, it was just a matter of waiting for the moment to arrive.
Or,
Buck has been sober for six years, during the lawsuit, Buck relapses.
😭🥹💔💊
[You don't need to watch Euphoria to read this, based in the 911 universe, will have enough context about Rue to understand.]
Series
- Part 6 of Lawsuit Fics
- Part 4 of Crossover Fics
Bookmarked by Chronically_dead_user
26 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Post-lawsuit, Buck fights to reclaim his place at the 118. But the team he came back for doesn’t quite feel like home anymore, and the distance between him and Eddie keeps widening.
Buck feels himself slowly disappearing - first from the team, then from himself.
He's always been good at saving other people.
He's never been good at saving himself.
Or
A Buck and Eddie post-lawsuit fic.
-----------
Please heed the tags! This fic explores alcohol and substance abuse and may be triggering for some readers. If these themes are difficult for you, please put yourself first.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 48,090
- Chapters:
- 13/30
- Comments:
- 263
- Kudos:
- 708
- Bookmarks:
- 205
- Hits:
- 17,092
Bookmarked by Chronically_dead_user
25 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
In his front pocket, his phone buzzes.
Now he remembers. He remembers saying goodbye to Eddie and Chris, watching them drive away at last with a shaky sigh, the guilt twisting in his gut that he was relieved to see them go. Stumbling over here to shake out some pills, probably the right number. Sinking down onto this bench because he couldn’t bear the weight of his thoughts for one more second.
He must have fallen asleep. The meds can cause drowsiness, but it’s more than that. Sometimes once the pain, the stress, the panic is gone, the bone-deep weariness is all that’s left. Pretending to be okay all the time takes a toll.
He hadn’t dreamed, thank God.
Series
- Part 9 of 911 Season 9 Codas
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,691
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 13
- Kudos:
- 129
- Bookmarks:
- 8
- Hits:
- 1,157
Bookmarked by Chronically_dead_user
24 Mar 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Based on the prompt: The trope of Buck on the outs with the team after the law suit. Buck is totally miserable and lonely. His birthday happens to be on his day off so he's basically alone and only Maddie wishes him. He goes for a run in the park and this stray dog attacks him. He almost bleeds to death, gets stitches, and a nice rabies shot. He asks the hospital not to contact anyone. He goes home and is stunned when the team surprises him for his birthday. The team's horrified, Buck is pissed, they fix it.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 2,536
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 2
- Comments:
- 31
- Kudos:
- 1,736
- Bookmarks:
- 292
- Hits:
- 46,038
Bookmarked by Chronically_dead_user
19 Mar 2026