Desirae



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    Sequel to Loved You Forever verse.

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    A post-canon fix-it series set after Jack's return, where the finale was just a horrible dream Dean had on the road. Cas is alive and nearly human, and he and Dean are finally together, and just living life.

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    A series of stories, mostly domestic bunker and Case fics. Set after the defeat of the Darkness, canon divergent season 11.

    Fallen Castiel, established Dean&Cas and poor, often traumatized by Destiel's sex life, Sam.

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    A series about the lives of happily married Professor Castiel and Mechanic Dean, who went from childhood best friends, to lovers to husbands. Please read to enjoy unconditional love, crazy Thanksgivings and lots of smut. And Cas's smart assery, of which there is a lot. This story is on going, and each part can be read on it's own, though I recommend reading them all:)

     

     


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    Dean Winchester moved to North Jersey on a whim a few years ago.
    Charlie, his high-school bestie, scored him a paramedic job in one of the most violent areas in the country. Dean didn’t even blink. He’s wanted to be a medic ever since he spent his childhood patching up his dad’s various open wounds. He could tell you it’s because he’s noble, but nope — Dean just likes digging around in the squishy parts.

    Also, Dean’s an idiot.
    His adrenaline addiction sends him straight into a dark alley one night, where he ends up on his knees in front of an ocean-eyed mafia god who looks far too eager to let (force) Dean explore the insides a bit more.

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    09 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 93

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    A beat. “You… prayed for me?”

    “Must’ve been an accident. Now’s not really a good time, Cas,” Dean strains out. He doesn’t dare let his eyes stray from where they’re locked on the kitchenette table in front of him, like if he can’t see Cas then Cas can’t see him. “Sometimes a man needs his privacy.”

    “Is that what you yearn for, Dean? Privacy?”

    He gulps down the sinking, sinking feeling that he has been caught with no way out. It’s not the first time in his life that he’s been trapped in a half-truth, and he bears this with as much grace as he ever has in situations like it. Jaw clenched. Ungraceful. “I’m not sure what you’re getting at.”

    Cas’s voice is all unflinching divinity from a creature that watched the Library of Alexandria burn. “I feel your longing.”

    or the one where dean is so touch-starved that less is more

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    There was a photo on the wall that Cas Novak loved looking at when he was little, a love that turned to embarrassed complaining about its presence once he was of the age when everything, even an innocent kiss, was the most humiliating thing ever.

    The photo was beloved by his mother, Naomi, and the kiss recipient's mother, Mary. The best friends cooed over it every Christmas Eve, when the families got together to celebrate the holiday and the night they met.

    Even at twenty-five, the kiss was embarrassing, but not because it was “unmasculine” or because it was a cutesy toddler thing. No, it was because the affection behind the sweet smooch Castiel gave his best friend, Dean Winchester, had grown into much, much more.

    Their families, spearheaded by Castiel's brothers, wanted them to recreate that kiss, thinking it was the only one they'd ever had. But that wasn't quite correct.

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  4. Rec 41

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    Five times Castiel kisses Dean Winchester for the sake of others, and one time Dean kisses Castiel because for goodness' sake, they deserve this.

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    Jack pulls Cas out of the Empty, just in time to save Dean. With Dean unable to live without him, ready to die on that rebar, neither of them expected to live to speak about Cas’s confession. But he’s back.

    After six months of pure hell without Cas, Team Free Will deserves a vacation. Along the road, with the confession looming and Cas unabashedly in love, Dean is forced to confront his own feelings and the trauma that made him the man he is. He’s tried for years to show Cas the worst of him, to warn him. To prove that he is not worthy. And yet, Cas always came back. He didn’t want the perfect, clean, Righteous Man. In his final moments, from the very first meeting, he saw straight through to the core of Dean.

    And he loved it anyway.

    This is the story of how Dean Winchester learns to be free.

    This is how Dean learns to be loved.

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    11 Dec 2025