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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    19 Mar 2026

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    “Me finding out that instead of mysterious and cool, people think I’m autistic and lesbian.”

    Ilya and Shane get Reddit’s advice under the aliases Lily and Jane. Things spiral from there….

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    17 Mar 2026

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    But it’s true. David Hollander is normal about hockey. He has a life outside it. He goes to work at the Treasury. He goes on long walks. He volunteers at animal shelters. He puzzles. Well—he works on puzzles? Ilya still is not sure how the verbs work there.

    The point is: David Hollander built a life outside of hockey that was fulfilling—that remains fulfilling. This, in its roundabout way, and though Ilya could never admit it, saves Ilya’s life.

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    or, a treatise on grief, depression, and chronic suicidality

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    16 Mar 2026

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    Heated Rivalry fics, a mix of showverse and bookverse but showverse somewhat favored (no shade, I just love the work they did in the adaptation). In my usual fashion, I find sticking to canon as much as possible to be a fun challenge, I try hard with timelines and weird canon details and things, but I ultimately try to serve the characters most of all. I do tend to make people too nice to each other but I try to keep emotions vaguely plausibly-realistic.
    Stories aren't in a sequence but I have also, because this is how I am as a person, largely tried to make them in continuity with one another.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    In a hotel room their first year playing together for Ottawa, Shane and Ilya talk about gay rookies and bad threesomes and how to not sound like you're trying to hook up with Shane's mom.

    "I get that you're trying to say something that's actually kind of sweet, but I cannot emphasize enough how much it sounds like you were trying to hook up with my fucking mom. Also, my mom doesn't just like you, my mom loves you. You know that."

    "Sure, okay, now. But back then? I was very happy to settle for just like. You know how it is with Hollanders. You have to hook up with them for a while before the feelings start to grow."

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    13 Mar 2026