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Chuuya suddenly gets a text from Dazai at midnight, in a rushed panic, he goes to Dazai's apartment---only to find him laying slumped on the bathroom wall, bleeding with arms bloody. After a near encounter with death, Chuuya begs Dazai to open up to him, only for this night to seem like it lasts forever.
or: Chuuya and Dazai when they spend the day together after a suicide attempt.
heavy trigger warning for self harm, suicide and generally just heavy topics !!
im 13 and english isnt actually my first language so i felt like writing fanfic was my calling yk
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Dazai looked again at the reflection: hollow cheeks, bruised-looking eyes, collarbones too sharp, limbs too narrow to pass for anything healthy. Not beautiful. Not masculine. Not feminine. Just wrong. A body that refused to disappear but refused to feel alive. A body he maintained like a crime scene, because that’s what it was— taped off, segmented, handled indirectly.
or: Dazai’s body has never felt like his own—too sharp, too empty, too present. He starves it, ignores it, punishes it; it betrays him anyway.
Chuuya tries to touch him, Odasaku tries to feed him, Mori tries to control him. None of it helps.
A mosaic of vignettes about hunger, shame, and the quiet violence of living in a body you don’t want.BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 - Day two - Eating Disorders, “It doesn’t hurt. That’s the strange part.”, Sadism/Masochism
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- Part 2 of 🕊️🪦 BSD Dead Dove Week 2026 🪦🕊️
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Nothing too dramatic yet, but these two idiots are about to start hurting each other. So
enjoy the calm before the storm. -
The Cute Small Redhead and Pretty Bandaged Boy by orphan_account
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
15 Dec 2022
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"My partner..." Chuuya rasps out again, his uncoordinated hand raising heavily to gesture at his eye, "pretty bandaged boy, kinda skinny. Where...?"
Only when the nurse blinks at what he said does he realize what he actually said.
He must be out of his fucking mind right now, calling that bastard pretty.
Well, he does feel damn heavy and foggy-minded. The drugs have to be strong as shit.
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Chuuya wakes up in the hospital after a mission gone wrong, in which Dazai was tortured and Chuuya had to use Corruption to save him.
The first thing he asks the nurse for is his shitty partner.
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01 Mar 2026
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teenage nightmares commit atrocities by forever_wandering
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
29 Apr 2023
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“Tsushima Shuuji,” Chuuya reads out loud. “A bright, optimistic young man with a pep in his step and a zest for life. Hang on–is this referring to you?”
“Unfortunately,” Dazai laments, sighing dramatically. “You just got away with ‘science nerd’ and ‘soccer player,’ but I’m supposed to be an artist! I hate art! It’s useless!”
“Shut the fuck up. That’s not the problem here. You? A ‘zest for life?’ Looking forward to each new morning? Hah! Rimbaud would sooner come back to life.”
Dazai turns to Chuuya with the barest facsimile of a smile painted over his lips.
“I,” he says sweetly, “am going to gut you open like a fish.”
Dazai and Chuuya are seasoned mafiosos at the ripe old age of almost-seventeen. They’ve fought gang wars, interrogated prisoners, and done all manner of unspeakable things. Now, they face their greatest challenge yet: going (undercover) to a real high school. With regular teens (who may or may not be desperately trying to get them to kiss).
One thing’s for sure: this school is unprepared for the absolute calamity that is Double Black.Written for the SKK Big Bang 2022 feat. art by videogamelover99 & beta'ed by Airini.
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25 Feb 2026
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In another universe where soulmates exist and are identified by marks in the form of whatever injury your partner has- Chuuya Nakahara is about to turn 16, and his best friend Dazai has been endlessly teasing him over the prospect of a mark. However, when he wakes up on his birthday covered in light blue lines he is unsure what to do, or how to approach identifying his soulmate, and his best friend has been acting in increasingly concerning ways since being told about the marks.
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What do you do when your covered in the evidence of your soulmates self harm, and your bandaged best friend (who you are definitely NOT in love with) seems to be breaking at the seams?
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24 Feb 2026