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    When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane’s relationship first—and decide that instead of letting their captain move to fucking Ottawa, they’ll just kidnap a his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    11 Mar 2026

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    “I was never going to hit you, Hollander!” Ilya blurted out, eyes shining. “You make fool out of me. And worse…” he took a sharp breath, his hands finding his temple. “And worse is, you hit me.”

    The words hung between them, heavy and ugly.

    Shane’s breath caught in his throat. He wanted so badly to reach for Ilya, cling to him like an anchor.

    “I waited,” Ilya continued, voice shaking now, his control beginning to crack. “I waited for you to stop. I waited for you to look at me like you recognized me. You didn’t.”

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    Or the one where Shane fights Ilya on the ice and expects him to fight back.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    For over fifteen years, a strict performance diet has worked for Shane. It lets him play hockey - really good hockey - and it lets him control something in his life, which usually feels so out of his control.

    After a season-ending injury takes Shane off the ice, though, the people he loves start to suspect something might be wrong.

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    Rachel Reid said she didn't think Shane has an eating disorder, and we took that personally.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    The ash from the end of his cigarette missed the ashtray and landed on his arm. It stung, enough to drag his attention back to the present. He brushed the gray flecks from his arm, but paused, marvelling at the sting it left behind. It felt like control. He stared at the cigarette, slowly burning out in his hand.

    Taking a deep breath, steeling himself for the impending pain, he quickly jabbed the hot cherry into the meat of his arm.

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    Or, what if Ilya had another reason for loving cigarettes? It gets worse before it gets better (as with all mental health).

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    09 Mar 2026