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  1. Public Bookmark 98

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    In the soft edges of the offseason after the cottage, where midnight airport pick-ups, private rink practices, takeout food, and the warmth of a borrowed T‑shirt live, Shane and Ilya build something tender and secret, something that feels safe.

    But beneath the surface, something in Shane is shifting. A slow unraveling he refuses to name. Fatigue that lingers, bruises that bloom too easily, a body that won’t obey the discipline he’s built his life on no matter how much he tries to control it.

    When everything finally breaks, their world tilts. Love that suddenly has to hold more weight than either of them ever wanted to imagine.

    Or

    Shane's battle with cancer.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    Ilya was starting to get nervous. At first he was confused, and then annoyed, and then he just felt sorry for himself. But now… the situation was becoming a bit concerning. 

    Or, Shane is in L.A., and Ilya is in need of some support.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    On a Monday morning in October, Shane Hollander drops a mug of coffee and doesn't get back up.

    Ilya is upstairs with the twins. He hears the sound — not the mug breaking, but the body. The thud of the person who holds it all upright. He puts the children down. He goes to the kitchen. Shane is on the floor, looking at Ilya, trying to say everything, but nothing comes out.

    Stroke. Left hemisphere. Thirty-eight years old.

    Shane spends six weeks in a hospital bed learning how to say his children's names. Ilya spends six weeks splitting himself into three people — the husband in the chair, the father in the nursery, the hockey player on the ice

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s head swiveled on the pillow, and he wriggled his hips down on a particularly tight squeeze. Something tightened in his back, and suddenly, he was clutching Rozanov for a different reason. “Ah—”

    Rozanov went still. His grip slackened, and the hold he had on Shane’s waist became more steadying than anything. “Hollander?”

    All he had to do was breathe, and the pain would pass. He pinched his eyes shut and dug his fingers into Rozanov’s shoulder hard enough to bruise. 

    “Hollander,” he called, worry seeping into his tone. He touched Shane’s face with his clean hand. “Talk to me.” 

    Shane grabbed hold of his wrist like a lifeline. “I’m fine,” he ground out. What could he say to play it off? How could he not worry Rozanov? “I… um… almost came?” 

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    Or, Shane ignores every warning sign from his body because he doesn't want Rozanov to leave. If he admits to Rozanov that he's in pain, he'll call it off and go back to his hotel room. What other choice is there but to endure?

    Rozanov finds out and stays anyway.

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    28 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 54

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    Shane gets food poisoning, and his already complicated relationship with food becomes even harder to manage, while Ilya stays by his side through it all.

    TW: vomiting, eating disorder themes

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    28 Feb 2026