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    Unravel me and you by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    01 Feb 2026

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    The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.

    So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?

    Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.

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    Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.

    And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.

    Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.

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    i clutched your arms (like stairway railings). by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    11 Dec 2025

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    He was alone because Ilya had left because Ilya always had to leave. [...] He felt horrible. Ilya had left. Maybe Shane hadn’t been good enough? No, he would’ve left anyway. He always left.

    But maybe he would’ve stayed a little longer if Shane had been better? Maybe if he’d been better, used more of those tricks he’d been trying to learn, he wouldn’t have left so soon. Maybe he would’ve wanted to stay like Shane wanted him to stay. Would’ve wanted to hold him like Shane wanted to ask him to do. Maybe Shane wouldn’t be trapped in this cavernous space between worlds, feeling like he was free-falling, searching for the path out of this emptiness.

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    Shane experiences sub-drop for the first time. Ilya holds him through it.

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    Heated Rivalry by

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    20 Mar 2026

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    12 Mar 2026

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    Hollanov by

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    18 Mar 2026

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    12 Mar 2026

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    good things come by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    24 Feb 2026

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    I want you to jerk off in the mornings, Ilya had said, the first time. He’d been trying to sound casual. Get right up close. And don’t come.

    Shane had still been on top of him, a heavy weight impeding his breath, Ilya kept warm in the snug grip of his hole. At the words his ass had clenched softly, a little fluttering hug.

    Every day? Shane had asked. There had been something close to wonder in his tone.

    Every day, Ilya had said.

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    11 Mar 2026