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  1. Summary

    “If you love said characters, why do you make them cry?”

    “Suffering is kinda fun.”

    This is just a bunch of angst about my faves because them crying brings me joy.

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    They call it a Lucid Interval. A brief moment of clarity after a traumatic brain injury where the patient appears fine. Awake. Alert. Happy.

    ​After the hit, Shane Hollander wakes up. He jokes with the nurses. He smiles at Ilya. He makes plans for the summer.

    ​Ilya Rozanov just outed himself to the entire world on live television to save him, but he can't save him from this. Shane isn't getting better. He is dying. And these are the last conversations they will ever have.

    ​A story about the hit, the confession, and the long, slow silence that followed.

    They weren't saying goodbye to each other; Ilya was too confident that Shane would win.

    Shane loved winning.

    He lost, the first lost that Ilya didn't enjoy.

    Because he only left Ilya to suffer more.

    (finished, all done)

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    24 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has a "tiny car accident" (his words). Shane Hollander has a full-scale, system-shutdown panic attack about it. Meanwhile, a horrified Hayden is praying for someone to throw him in a lake and tell him that this is all just a big joke, or maybe for a meteor strike; he is really not picky. J.J., on the other hand, is trying to bleach the image of his sweet captain making out with Ilya fucking Rozanov from his brain.

    It's a very normal day for the Montreal Canadiens.

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    23 Mar 2026

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    Shane and Ilya's relationship is the best kept secret in all of professional hockey. That is, until an ill-fated Christmas party brings it all crashing down.

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    23 Mar 2026

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    Svetlana knows about Jane. It's frankly insulting for Ilyusha to think otherwise.

    She just never expected to have to call him for help. During the Olympics. In Russia. In the dead of night.

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    Or, it's Sochi 2014 and Russia has lost to Latvia. Grigori Rozanov, not yet compromised by illness, punishes his son for shaming the family. When Svetlana finds an injured and emotionally fragile Ilya, she knows she needs somewhere safe for him to recover. And there's only one person in Russia who Sveta trusts with her Ilyusha: Canada's Golden Boy, Shane Hollander.

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    21 Mar 2026

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    A devastating on-ice collision changes everything for Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, and everyone who loves them.

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    19 Mar 2026