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The rain comes down hard on the back of Tanjiro's neck, drumming through leaves and branches, pooling in the folds of his and Giyuu's uniforms. It slides down his spine and settles there, cold only because he's too tired to feel anything warmer.
The smoke is worse. It lingers in the air, heavy and pressing. Not just wood-smoke, but the oily kind demons leave behind that makes Tanjiro immediately want to wash himself down just from being near it. It's always too sweet, too rotten and with an undertone of tar. Overripe fruit rotting in the sun and then left in a puddle of raw rubber. He can taste it when he breathes through his mouth. It sticks to the back of his tongue.
Somewhere behind them, the forest is still burning. Tanjiro doesn't look; he doesn't have to. The sky has turned to that strange shade of orange-pink it always morphs into when near fire. It makes the forest shadows flicker ominously. Ash drifts in giddy circles instead of down, like it hasn't decided whether it's done playing yet.
But this stretch of woods, at least, is quiet.
Tanjiro shifts Giyuu's weight higher against his side, dragging the taller man's arm over his shoulder again. Giyuu's scent drifts to him. It's the coppery tang of fresh blood, char, sweat, grit, mud and a respectful hint of alpha. Mostly, though, it's blood. His, Giyuu's and the demon's. His grip slips a little, fingers numb, and he tightens it out of instinct more than strength. Giyuu stumbles. He's dead weight for half a second, and Tanjiro nearly goes down with him.
"Almost there," he grates, though his mouth is too dry to make it sound like anything but air. He doesn't know if he's talking to Giyuu or himself.
His legs feel heavy, and his back and side are screaming again. The right side of his uniform is soaked in the warm, thick kind of wet. The cut under his ribs must've opened further, but there's no time to check. Giyuu's bleeding worse. His thigh wound was deep; he had already soaked through the first bandage. He's on his second, and still, the man hasn't said a word, but he's still moving, so that's something.
Tanjiro's not sure if that means he's conscious or just too stubborn to stop standing.
The farmhouse appears through the trees like a blessing. A portion of the roof has burned away. Most of the shutters are gone or hang loose, flapping with the wind in lazy, uneven taps. Half the outer wall is scorched black.
But it's still standing, and they need shelter.
The shioji door doesn't slide so much as groan, nudged open by nothing. Tanjiro exhales through his nose. "Looks… not haunted," he says. Then, after a pause, "Well. Not too haunted."
No reply. Tanjiro didn't really expect one.
The porch groans under their combined weight. Tanjiro steps over a rotted broom and nudges aside a shard of broken pottery with the toe of his shoe. Giyuu's breath catches against his neck when the threshold rises too suddenly beneath their feet. Or maybe he just imagined that. It's hard to tell when everything hurts in places he can't name.
Inside, the air shifts. No wind and no rain. No breath of sky. Just stillness and the heavy stink of semi-recent abandonment. Damp wood. Smoke-stung cloth. Something spilled and gone sour. The hearth is cold, choked with ash. A futon lies half-unrolled, one edge is singed. Clothes are strewn across the floor, as if someone left in a frantic hurry and didn't look back.
At least nothing in here smells like a demon.
He swallows hard. "No one here," he murmurs. "No blood, either."
Giyuu barely grunts a sound. It's a scrape of breath, really, or maybe a grunt. It could mean good, but it could also mean 'put me down before I fall over.'
Tanjiro doesn't wait for clarification. He leads him to the far wall, the one with the best intact beam. There's a crack in the ceiling off to the side that drips steadily, but the floor immediately in front of him is dry enough to sit. That's the only measure right now: dry enough.
He eases Giyuu down slowly. His own knees hit the floor harder than he means to. The jolt ricochets up his spine, blooming, bright and scorching along the wound at his side. His arms shake as he lets go, only now realizing how much of Giyuu's weight he was carrying. He blinks against the fuzz in his vision.
"You're alright," he says, breath catching. "I think. Mostly. I mean… you're alive. So that's something."
Still nothing. Giyuu leans back against the wall, grim and pale, and Tanjiro realizes it's the face of someone who doesn't expect to stand again. His hand is still pressed white knuckle tight to the wound. The blood flow has slowed, but it hasn't stopped. Not yet.
"You won't lose it. You're too stubborn." Tanjiro slumps back on his heels, eyes closed for one second. Just one.
The quiet inside this place is thick. Not peaceful or restful. There's no fire and no wind. Only the slow drip of water somewhere behind him and the eerily creaking rafters above.
No fire either. Without that, he won't be able to see the true extent of Giyuu's wound.
He opens his eyes—no time to rest.
A stack of logs in varying sizes sits next to the hearth. A scant few of them are still dry. It takes several tries, but a weak fire finally starts up, thin and smoky, yet it catches, warming and lighting up the room.
He takes a breath, drops his satchel to the floor and starts digging. Bandages. Salve. Needle. Tincture.
Suppressant case.
His hand pauses.
He pulls the tin out slowly. Brass, worn at the edges. It feels lighter than it should. His thumb flicks the lid. One black oblong capsule clinks softly inside.
Just one.
He closes the case and pushes it back into the pouch.
Later. He'll deal with that later.
Right now, Giyuu's bleeding.
He scoots closer. The blood has stiffened the fabric of Giyuu's uniform, drying in thick patches around the gash. He lifts the leg as gently as he can. Giyuu exhales sharply through his nose, jaw tightening.
"I'm gonna cut the uniform," Tanjiro says. Quiet. Controlled.
No response. Just the flick of a slow blink.
"That's fine," Tanjiro mutters to himself this time. "Just—stay still."
The blade slices through cloth and the fabric effortlessly peels open and away. The wound is worse than he hoped. Torn through the muscle. It's deep, with uneven edges. Demon claws. It had to be caused by demon claws. It's the kind of injury that swells before it even finishes bleeding. The skin around it is already angry and raw.
He grimaces and uncorks their canteen, dousing his hands to find some form of cleanliness. Then comes the tincture. The smell hits hard—vinegar and spirit and something sharp from the roots Urokodaki used to boil. It reminds him of the early days on his mountain. The ten thousand splinters and training burns he experienced. A quiet hand on his back while he learned to breathe through the sting.
Tanjiro coats his hands in that next, waits a second and looks at Giyuu.
"This is gonna hurt," he says, out of habit. He soaks down a cloth in the same tincture, then, before he can hesitate, presses it to the wound.
Giyuu jerks, a low, wounded sound catching in his throat. It hurts to hear it.
"I know, I know—sorry," Tanjiro says, voice faster now, fingers moving with practiced speed. He wipes until the blood clears and the wound shines wet in the firelight.
He threads the needle. Hands steady, but only because they have to be. His ribs scream when he leans forward, but he doesn't flinch.
He glances up. Giyuu is still upright, but just barely. His eyes are open, but distant. He's sweat-damp and pale to the lips.
"…I need you still for this part," Tanjiro says. "Otherwise, I'll make it worse."
Another flicker. Nothing clear, just pain.
Tanjiro swallows once. "I'm sorry about this."
And then he punches him hard enough to knock the man out.
Because this? It's gonna hurt like hell.
Giyuu's head slumps sideways, and his body follows, completely still.
He feels bad, but if he had told Giyuu, he would've braced himself, and they would've been left with the alpha in even more pain and still conscious. Tanjiro shakes out his hand, not sure if he feels worse for the blow or the necessity of it.
"Sorry," he mutters again. "I couldn't warn you. If you need, you can yell at me later."
The stitching is fast. Efficient. Tanjiro's hands know the rhythm even when the rest of him is fraying. In and out. In and out. The thread draws skin together in tiny, trembling lines. He counts on the motion calming, though the activity itself is macabre. Seven... Eight... Nine... Ten...
When it's done, he presses the salve in careful circles and wraps the leg tightly. His ribs are on fire but he ignores them.
Only once it's finished does he lean back, sleeves damp, breath shallow.
Giyuu doesn't move.
"Stubborn, even when unconscious," Tanjiro says softly, then turns to the hearth.
He finds a few blackened boards and adds them to the weak fire. They catch slowly, then flare with light and warmth.
Small. Steady. Enough to brighten the walls around them to see the damage. Enough to see the blood still drying in the cracks of his hands.
Outside, the rain keeps falling. Inside, there is only fire and breath. Nothing else yet. But it's enough.
***
The fire crackles unevenly, small and stubborn. It spits with no rhythm, collapsing inward every so often. Tanjiro nudges one of the half-damp logs closer to the embers, pressing the flat of his hunting knife against the coalbed until it stirs orange again—a soft glow. Nothing strong enough to chase the chill away, they'll need proper cover from the elements for that, and there's a hole in the roof. But the rain has stopped, which helps the warmth travel further.
He stays crouched there for a moment, palms splayed on either side of the flames, feeling warmth build and hold in the damp of his sleeves. The right one is still sticky where Giyuu bled through it. The cloth smells faintly metallic—slightly like him. Like alpha, maybe. But it's hard to tell.
He sits down slowly, letting his legs fold underneath him, and shrugs out of the haori with careful fingers. It lands in a heap beside him, too heavy with moisture to fold correctly. The uniform buttons are worse. They resist, clinging to each other the way fabric does when it's been soaked through with blood and dried too quickly.
He works on them anyway, one by one, methodically and slowly. His fingers slip, then catch.
When he finally peels the top half down, the sting of it takes Tanjiro by surprise.
His breath hitches, and for a second, he stays there, hunched forward, arms bare to the firelight. He glances once over his shoulder.
Giyuu hasn't moved.
Still slumped against the far wall, one leg bound, head tilted slightly down. Unconscious. Breath faint but steady. There's a line of ash above one of his brows, like a thumbprint left in passing. His hand twitched once earlier, Tanjiro thinks. Or that was a reaction to the house settling again. Either way, he hasn't stirred since.
Which means Tanjiro is alone. Mostly.
Still, his cheeks burn as he shifts in place and lifts the hem of his undershirt.
It's a habit more than modesty. It's been learned and ingrained. Omegas don't undress near alphas unless—
He exhales sharply through his nose and doesn't finish the thought.
The wound is shallow. Just below the ribs. More tear than slice. Ugly with bruising, but clean around the edges. Tanjiro touches it once, testing and winces as the dried blood pulls at the skin. It's not the worst he's had. But that doesn't make it feel any less exposed.
"Could've been worse," he mutters, mostly to the fire. "Could've been the throat. Or the eye. Or…”
He trails off. No need to name the other places.
He dabs a clean cloth in the tincture and tidies up the damage. It stings less than he expects, but enough to make his eyes water. He blinks against it and presses harder until the skin around the wound is raw and clean.
The space feels smaller now. More present. The air around him is surprisingly stuffy, considering the significant cracks in the shell of the house. And beneath all of the house scents, the fire, and everything else, something else lingers. Faint and nearly gone, but not quite.
Alpha.
Tanjiro breathes it in slowly, eyes half-closed. It's not strong or sharp. It's more of an impression, like catching the shape of a mountain through mist. Something big. Something living.
Suppressants don't dull everything, but they dull his hormones; not just what he gives off, but what he can scent. Every alpha and omega scent is flattened. Blunted. Like inhaling packed cotton instead of stepping outside. He can still distinguish between an alpha, a beta, and an omega. Can still feel the way the air shifts slightly when one's close. But that's all. No markers. No notes. No scent that says, 'This one is safe.' Or, 'this one will ruin you.'
And Giyuu—Giyuu is just a presence. Warm, quiet, and just out of reach.
Tanjiro reaches for the bandage roll and unspools it one-handed, thumb catching on the edge. He thinks, not for the first time, about what it might be like to smell Giyuu clearly. Really smell him.
It's a stupid thought.
He's tried to imagine it before, during missions or quiet mornings on the training grounds. Something clear and cold, like seawater or astringent green tea. Or something sharp and bright and entirely incongruous for the man, like ginger or coconut. Sometimes he thinks it might be neither. That maybe Giyuu smells like nothing at all. That would make an odd kind of sense, somehow. But the thought never holds.
He ties the bandage. The knot is off-center and clumsy on the first try. His fingers are stiff. He frowns, redoes it, then pulls the shirt back down fast and smooth, even though it hurts, even though the fabric scrapes the edge of the wound and makes him hiss softly through his teeth.
His face is still warm. It shouldn't matter; he's had his wounds tended to in front of others before. Worse wounds. More exposed. It never mattered then.
However, other people were present, and no one seemed to care. It was just healing for healing's sake.
This—this feels different. Not because anything happened. Not because Giyuu knows. But because they're alone. That Tanjiro is omega, and Giyuu is alpha, and even now, even half-conscious, he takes up space in a way that makes Tanjiro feel seen, even when he isn't being looked at.
He pushes the thought down before it can unfurl.
He leans back against a wall and closes his eyes. Just for a second. Just until the warmth of the fire softens at the edges of his vision.
The rafters above him creak. One beam is split nearly in half; it holds steady for now.
Outside, the world is hushed and dripping in that post-rain way. Inside, there's only the slight sound of breath and flame, and the shape of someone sleeping near him who doesn't yet know what he's sleeping beside.
Nezuko.
The thought arrives with no ceremony, no apparent reason—just a flicker in his chest.
He doesn't try to push it away. It's quieter when she's there, in memory, at least. He feels less alone even when all he does is think about her.
Not just because of what she means to him. But because of what she was like in quiet moments. The way her presence filled a room without touching anything. The way it made the space feel held, not occupied. As if some part of him stopped bracing when she was near. Like it was safe to exhale.
"She's safe," he says softly, like maybe the sound of it will keep that truth pinned in place. His voice barely makes it past the crackling of the fire. "She's with Shinobu."
The Butterfly Estate. White corridors. Late sun spilling through narrow windows. Shinobu's expression, focused and serious with something unreadable as she tests Nezuko's blood.
Nezuko is surely resting under thick, warm blankets right now, her breathing even.
They were still monitoring the blood. The strange shift in it. Her resistance to sunlight. Her control. Every time Tanjiro had watched her wake, it felt like seeing a miracle with one foot still inside the unknown.
But it was safer there. That's what Tanjiro told himself before they left, over and over. Even if it left a shape inside him that felt ripped out.
The room seems to echo her name back to him, even without him saying it. He stays like that for a while, watching the firelight curl across his fingers.
And then: "You're hurt."
The voice scrapes like a stone across wet earth. Low. Dry. Just this side of conscious.
Tanjiro jerks, breath catching in his throat.
He turns too fast and finds Giyuu watching him. His eyes are barely open, but not unfocused. There's a sliver of alertness behind the haze. Enough to track, enough to register.
"It's nothing," Tanjiro says, maybe too quickly. "You should've seen the time I broke my arm in two places tripping over a tree root during training. Urokodaki made me hike five miles back with a pack full of stones just to teach me a lesson about foot placement."
He expects silence, and gets it.
Giyuu doesn't blink and doesn't nod. It's like he's waiting, or trying to disappear.
Tanjiro shifts his weight, voice dropping. Not because he's afraid. Just because the room feels like it wants to be quiet now.
"You didn't have to take that hit for me," he says.
There's no accusation in it. Just exhaustion. A slow ache under the words, not sharp enough to cut—just enough to stay.
"You always do that," he murmurs. "Step in. Get hurt. Then act like it didn't happen."
Still nothing.
But Tanjiro observes—and there. A flicker. The barest twitch at the edge of Giyuu's mouth, like he almost says something and pulls back at the last second. Or maybe he doesn't. Maybe Tanjiro wants it to be true.
He lets the quiet settle for a moment, then gently adds, "You shouldn't do that."
There's a pause. Long enough that Tanjiro thinks the conversation has ended before it began. He thinks that if Giyuu hadn't shoved him out of the way at the last possible second—
"Do what?" Giyuu asks. It's low. Flat. But not dismissive.
Tanjiro doesn't move. Just leans forward a little, elbows resting against his knees. His fingers brush the edge of his bandaged side.
"Act like your life matters less."
The stillness that follows, if possible, changes tone.
It's not cold or heavy, it's tight, like the air itself is holding a weight. Like the night beyond the thin wooden walls is pressing in instead of settling.
Outside, the wind picks at the broken edge of the porch. A board knocks twice against something loose. The sound echoes once, then dies.
Tanjiro looks at the fire instead of Giyuu. Letting the conversation bleed away with the hum of a soft, half-remembered tune.
"I hum when I'm nervous," he says. "You probably noticed."
Giyuu grunts. Recognition. Acceptance. Annoyance. Tanjiro isn't sure.
"I used to do it when Nezuko had nightmares. Sometimes she couldn't wake up completely. But if she heard me, she said it felt like I was still there."
The flames snap softly. The firewood shifts.
Tanjiro presses the heel of one hand to his thigh. It's an old movement. Learned from watching his grandmother during long evenings by the hearth, as if bracing against stillness makes it easier to bear.
"Sometimes I talk too much," he admits. "Zenitsu says it's because I'm trying to fill space that isn't mine to fill."
A pause. Not awkward. Just lived in.
"Do you think he's right?"
When he glances over, Giyuu isn't looking at him. His gaze stays fixed on the fire, eyes dark, jaw unmoving.
But there's something to the slope of his shoulders that wasn't there before.
Not absence. Not distance. It looks a lot like restraint. A quiet practice ingrained so thoroughly that it became second nature, a part of his muscle memory. Like he's not even sure how to unlearn it.
Tanjiro doesn't push. He shrugs and offers a noncommittal answer, watching the fire settle into embers.
The room dims with it. Their shadows stretch out toward the edge of the fire-stained walls, barely holding shape.
He shifts slowly, trying and failing to get completely comfortable. One arm curls over his middle, protective without thinking.
The capsule case stays closed.
He'll take it in the morning.
For now, he closes his eyes and listens to the breath beside him, and the fire between them, and the roof above, which is still holding for now.