mydreamsofink
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He was on the ice. And then he wasn’t. He was okay. And then he wasn’t.
He was a hockey player, and then he wasn’t.
Ilya retired last season. Following a scare from Ilya, Shane is now also retiring. Ilya blames himself, Shane hates being autistic, and both have to navigate their lives without hockey for the first time.
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Or: a few moments following Shane's retirement from hockey.
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Jaehyun, a struggling single father, falls in love with his co-worker at the music shop.
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Chenle gets discharged from therapy, dyes his hair purple, fails his exams and meets the love of his life all in one summer.
Just not necessarily in that order.
- central themes of eating disorders; please don't read if that will upset you
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Taeyong shuts the door carefully behind him, then lets out a breath.
“You came,” Doyoung whispers. Moonlight falls over his cheeks, makes his eyelashes glitter and his lips shine. Taeyong can’t resist a kiss before he replies.
“Of course,” he says, just as quietly. They laugh, tumbling onto the bed together.A late night and a sleepy morning with dotae <3 featuring fed up nct 127
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- Part 15 of oneshots
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After a conversation with Mark’s parents, Renjun is stuck tutoring Mark. Mark hates it, until he realises he has a crush on Renjun, of all people.
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- Part 14 of oneshots
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But you can('t) heal somethin' that you never raised by soul_wanderer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
11 Mar 2026
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"It had been Shane who had suggested the weekend at the cottage. Ilya was in Montreal for a game, and they both had the first December weekend off. Ilya could always fly back to Boston from Ottawa on Sunday night - a tight schedule, but it would be worth the exhaustion.
Ilya had missed Shane. Had missed him enough to easily accept the idea of a weekend at the cottage. It would offer a welcome reprieve from the world, that felt entirely too loud and overwhelming lately. He couldn’t even exactly pinpoint what it was that made everything just a little too much."The weight of everything, past and present, is catching up on Ilya. He tries to push it down until Shane recognises a voice that is not Ilya's and realises why Ilya has been denying himself the comfort of being taken care of, and the ability to be himself. Shane sets out to change that, one soft-spoken reassurance and offer at a time, until Ilya is finally able to let go.
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09 Mar 2026
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It is Sunday afternoon when Shane’s label maker goes missing.
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14 Feb 2026
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to the tempo of your uptight (he flickers through your damage) by barnes_romzanov
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Jan 2026
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It didn’t really click for Shane until his boyfriend nearly broke down their steel-inforced bathroom door to get to him; Something Is Wrong With Ilya.
or: Ilya goes off the deep end. Shane doesn’t realize he’s already down there with him.
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- Part 2 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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11 Feb 2026
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you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by barnes_romzanov
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is.
His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped.
Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken.
Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too.
or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place.
"I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.
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- Part 1 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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11 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.
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What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?
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10 Feb 2026